Thursday, May 8, 2025

Summer Semester Plan

Class 5:45-9 Contemporary Paganism 

  • 8 Essays out of 12
    • Week 1 - self into essay
    • Week 2 - theories of NRMs
    • Week 6 - theories of Paganism
    • Week 7 - Ásatrú: Modern Norse-Germanic Paganism.
    • Week 8 - Druidry: Modern Celtic Paganism
    • Week 9: Baltic Paganism: Romuva in Lithuania and Dievturi in Latvia
    • Week 10: Goddess Religion and Feminist Witchcraft. 
    • Week 11: Santería: An Afro-Cuban New Religious Movement.
    • Week 12 - Politics and Paganism
  • 500 words, 11pt font, Times new Roman, 1.5 spacing

******How he wants them Written:
United Theological Seminary of the Twin Cities
Week #: Subject
Student: Lisa "Pixie" Sawyer
Date:
Title of Essay

  1. First paragraph: Introduction. Explain what the week’s topic(s) was/were about, in a general  way, then briefly describe what you will be writing about.
  2. Info-summary paragraph #1. Explore something from one of the readings, including stating which reading or author you are drawing upon.
  3. Info-summary paragraph #2. Explore something from another one of the readings, including stating which reading or author you are drawing upon.
  4. Info-summary paragraph #3. Explore something from yet another one of the readings, or something further from a reading already commented upon, including stating which reading or author you are drawing upon.
  5. Personal reaction/commentary/reflections: 1 or 2 paragraphs in which you provide your personal perspective on or reaction to something in the readings, or on the week’s topic in general. Use language like “I think that…” , “It seems to me…”, “In my opinion.” Forget your past English class training that discouraged personal viewpoint. Here, it is valued and needed!


Art, Religion, and Culture... none of the materials are accessible yet. 

  • - 2 reflective papers needed
  • - final proposal  & Annotated bibliography
  • - final project
  • - final project presentation

*No Due dates???

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School Start

Saturday 5/10

  • Mothers Day With Mom

Sunday 5/11

  • Week 1 Lecture: Introductions - 1hr 8 min
  • Watch: (links provided elsewhere): excerpts from Cults: Explained (Netflix); 
  • Watch:  The Source Family Part One (there is no definite division of Part One and Part Two, but it is suggested to watch half of video this week and half the next)
  • Essay 1: Autobiography paper

Week 1

Monday 5/12

  • GYM AT 5:30
  • bell hooks, "Beauty Laid Bare: Aesthetics in the Ordinary" [PDF]
  • Ronald R. Bernier and Rachel Hostetter Smith, “Introduction.” p. 1-18 in Religion and Contemporary Art: A Curious Accord [PDF available]

Tuesday 5/13

  • Week 2 Lecture: Theories of NRMs (New Religious Movements) - 1.5 hours
  • Salibi, Understanding NRMs, Chapters 1 & 2 (64 pgs)

Wednesday 5/14

  • Salibi, Understanding NRMs, Chapters 3 & 4 (76 pages)
  • Discussion/Bulletin Board 
  • Essay 2: Week 2 - theories of NRMs

Thursday 5/15

  • MOVING DAY ROUND 1
  • Class 5:45-9

Friday 5/16

Saturday 5/17

Sunday 5/18

  •  Watch:  Interview with British sociologist Eileen Barker, “What Are New Religious Movements?” 
  •  Watch: The Source Family (Part Two) 


Week 2

Monday 5/19

  • GYM AT 5:30
  • Kandinsky, On the Spiritual in Art (PDF)
  • https://hilmaafklint.se/about-hilma-af-klint/

Tuesday 5/20

  •  Read: Nick Humez, “Hare Krishna” (Encyclopedia of Pop Culture article); 
  • Watch Week 3 Lecture: Asian NRMs - 1.15 hr

Wednesday 5/21

  • Read: Michael Strmiska, “Eastern Religions in Eastern Europe: Three Case Studies from Lithuania” (regarding Hare Krishna (ISKCON) and Diamond Way movements, also Lithuanian Pagan movement Romuva); 
  • Read: Daniel A. Metraux, “Religious Terrorism in Japan: The Fatal Appeal of Aum Shinrikyo.”

Thursday 5/22

  • Class 5:45-9
  • Discussion/Bulletin board 

Friday 5/23

  • MOVING DAY  ROUND 2 
  • no class work

Saturday 5/24

  • Shamanism Retreat

Sunday 5/25

  • watch: (links provided): documentaries on Hare Krishna, Aum Shinrikyō, Pana Wave, and Diamond Way.


Week 3

Monday 5/26

  • GYM AT 5:30
  • watch: The Passion of Joan of Arc (1928) - 1hr 20 min
  • watch: Searching Skies (2017) - 10 min
  • Possibly write reflection paper? 

Tuesday 5/27

  • Watch Week 4 Lecture: UFO Religions
  • John Saliba, “UFO Religions” (Encyclopedia of Religion, 2005); 

Wednesday 5/28

  • Nathaniel Dorsky, Devotional Cinema [PDF]
  • Susan J. Palmer, “Raelians” (Encyclopedia of Religion, 2005);  
  • Winston Davis, “Heaven’s Gate: A Study of Religious Obedience” (2000); 
  • “Ancient Pleaidians Return” (booklet from Pleaidian Family movement).
  • Thursday 5/29

    • Class 5:45-9
    • Discussion/Bulletin board 

    Friday 5/30

    Saturday 5/31

    Sunday 6/1

    • Watch: documentary on Heaven’s Gate, Pleaidian Family video.


    Week 4

    Monday 6/2

    • GYM AT 5:30
    • Lynn Huber, “Coming into Wedding: Envisioning Revelation’s Women with Two Modern Visionaries,” in Thinking and Seeing with Women in Revelation. Bloomsbury, 2013: 127-167. [PDF]

    Tuesday 6/3

    • Watch Week 5 Lecture: Hasidism, Kabbalah, False Messiahs, and Jewish NRMs - 1.17hr
    • Allison Coudert, “Cabala” (Kabbalah Overview from Encyclopedia of Europe 1450-1789); “Shabbetai Zevi” (Encyclopedia Judaica); “Jacob Frank and Frankism” (Ency. Judaica); 

    Wednesday 6/4

    •  David Assaf “Hasidism” (Overview) (Encyclopedia Judaica); “Israel Ben Eliezer Ba’al Shem Tov” (Ency. Judaica);  
    • Michael Strmiska, “Not Quite Polar Opposites: Judaism and Paganism” (2014 lecture); 
    • Shai Feraro, “Two Steps Forward, One Step Back….Israeli Pagans 1999-2012.”

    Thursday 6/5

    • Class 5:45-9
    • Discussion/Bulletin board 

    Friday 6/6

    • OBOD Meeting

    Saturday 6/7

    Sunday 6/8

    • Watch: documentaries on Shabbetai Zevi, Hasidism and Kabbalah. 


    Week 5

    Monday 6/9

    • GYM AT 5:30
    • Listen: Alice Coltrane, Journey in Satchidananda
    • Listen: John  Coltrane, A Love Supreme
    • Bivins, Jason C. Spirits Arise!: Jazz and American Religion. (excerpts) [PDF]
    • For sure write reflection paper 

    Tuesday 6/10

    • Watch Week 6 Lecture: Theories of Paganism
    • Sabina Magliocco, Chapter Nine, “Neo-Pagan Religious Movements” from Cambridge Companion to New Religious Movements, 
    • Scott Simpson and Mariusz Filip, “Selected Words for Modern Pagan and Native Faith Movements in Central and Eastern Europe,” from Simpson and Aitamurto, ed. Modern Paganism and Native Faith Movements in Central and Eastern Europe.

    Wednesday 6/11

    • Shamanism Group Call
    • Strmiska, “Introduction,” first chapter in Modern Paganism in World Cultures: Comparative Perspectives

    Thursday 6/12

    • Class 5:45-9
    • Discussion/Bulletin board 
    • Essay 3: Week 6 - theories of Paganism

    Friday 6/13

    Saturday 6/14

    Sunday 6/15


    Week 6

    Monday 6/16

    • GYM AT 5:30
    • Read Art Spiegelman, Maus, vol. 1-2

    Tuesday 6/17

    • Watch: Week 7 Lecture: Ásatrú, Heathenry, and Norse Paganism
    • Michael Strmiska (2000) article in Nova Religio, “Ásatrú: The Revival of Nordic  Paganism?,” (2005)
    • Ásatrú chapter in Modern Paganism in World Cultures, “Ásatrú: Nordic Paganism in Iceland and America,”
    Wednesday 6/18

    • (2007) Pomegranate article, “Putting The Blood Back Into Blot: The Revival of Animal Sacrifice in Modern Nordic Paganism,”
    • unpublished 2012 conference paper, “On Becoming A Pariah.” 

    Thursday 6/19

    • Class 5:45-9
    • Discussion/Bulletin board 
    • Essay 4: Week 7 - Ásatrú: Modern Norse-Germanic Paganism.

    Friday 6/20

    Saturday 6/21

    • Shamanism Retreat

    Sunday 6/22

    • watch: documentaries on Ásatrú. 


    Reading Week

    Monday 6/23

    • GYM AT 5:30
    • Kathryn Barush, Imaging Pilgrimage pg 19-134

    Tuesday 6/24

    • Watch Week 8 Lecture: Modern Celtic Paganism - 1.05 hr
    • Marion Bowman articles “Cardiac Celts: Images of the Celts in Paganism” and “Arthur and Bridget in Avalon: Celtic Myth, Vernacular Religion and Contemporary Spirituality in Glastonbury.”  

    Wednesday 6/25

    • Jenny Butler, Chapter 3 on “Modern Celtic Druidry” in Modern Paganism in World Cultures, 

    Thursday 6/26

    • Essay 5: Week 8 - Druidry: Modern Celtic Paganism
    • Discussion/Bulletin Board 

    Friday 6/27

    Saturday 6/28

    Sunday 6/29


    Week 7

    Monday 6/30

    • GYM AT 5:30
    • Kathryn Barush, Imaging Pilgrimage pg 135-267

    Tuesday 7/1

    • Michael Strmiska and Rudra Dundzila (2005) Chapter 7 in Modern Paganism in World Cultures, “Romuva: Lithuanian Paganism in Lithuania and America,” 
    • Watch Week 9 Lecture: Modern Baltic Paganism

    Wednesday 7/2

    • Janis Tupešu (1987) “The Ancient Latvian Religion-Dievturība,“ 
    • Agita Misane (1999) “National Mythology in the History of Ideas in Latvia,” 
    • Gatis Ozoliņš (2013), “The Dievturi Movement in Latvia as Invention of Tradition,” 
    • (2013) Cultural Fusions article.

    Thursday 7/3

    • Class 5:45-9
    • Discussion/Bulletin board 
    • Essay 6: Week 9: Baltic Paganism: Romuva in Lithuania and Dievturi in Latvia

    Friday 7/4

    • OBOD Meeting

    Saturday 7/5

    Sunday 7/6

    • Film: documentaries on Baltic Paganism.


    Week 8

    Monday 7/7

    • GYM AT 5:30
    • Yohana Agra Junker, “Weaving Land and Water” in  Religion and Contemporary Art: A Curious Accord pp. 387-400. [PDF available] 
    • bell hooks, “Diasporic Landscapes of Longing” in Art On My Mind [PDF]

    Tuesday 7/8

    • Watch Week 10 Lecture: The Goddess Spirituality Movement - 57 min
    Wednesday 7/9

    • Excerpts from Wendy Griffin, ed., Daughters of the Goddess and 
    • Jone Salomonsen, Enchanted Feminism: The Reclaiming Witches of San Francisco;
    •  also Starhawk and Charlotte Allen articles.

    Thursday 7/10

    • Class 5:45-9
    • Discussion/Bulletin board 
    • Essay 7: Week 10: Goddess Religion and Feminist Witchcraft. 

    Friday 7/11

    Saturday 7/12

    • REN FAIRE WITH MOM

    Sunday 7/13

      • Watch: Signs Out Of Mind, Marija Gimbutas documentary, and/or short films featuring Starhawk and other Goddess Religion leaders.


      Week 9

      Monday 7/14

      • GYM AT 5:30
      • Sacha Crasnow, “Al Buraq: Explorations of Liminality in Contemporary Islamic Art” in Religion and Contemporary Art: A Curious Accord  pp. 401-410

      Tuesday 7/15

      • Watch Week 11 Lecture: Santería and Voodoo: Afro-Caribbean Paganism?
      • Chapters from George Brandon, Santeria from Africa to the New World

      Wednesday 7/16

      • Shamanism group Call
      • Mary Anne Clark article, “Santería Sacrificial Rituals.

      Thursday 7/17

      • Class 5:45-9
      • Discussion/Bulletin board 
      • Essay 8: Week 11- Santería: An Afro-Cuban New Religious Movement.

      Friday 7/18

      Saturday 7/19

      Sunday 7/20

      • watch documentaries on Santería and African religion.


      Week 10

      Monday 7/21

      • GYM AT 5:30
      • Read: Natalie Wigg-Stevenson, Transgressive Devotion 144 pgs

      Tuesday 7/22

      • Watch Week 12 Lecture: Politics and Paganism
      • Michael Strmiska, “Pagan Politics in the 21st Century: “Peace and Love” or “Blood and Soil?;” 
      • Egil Asprem, “Heathens Up North: Polemics and Contemporary Norse Paganism in Norway,”

      Wednesday 7/23

      •  Tammy Castle & Tara Parsons, “Vigilante or Viking? Contesting the Mediated Constructions of Soldiers of Odin Norge” (2017);
      •  ADL (Anti-Defamation League) (no author) “Soldiers of Odin USA: The Extreme European Anti-Refugee Group Comes to America” (2016); 
      • Starhawk, “Toward an Activist Spirituality” (2003). 

      Thursday 7/24

      • Class 5:45-9
      • Discussion/Bulletin board 
      • Essay 9: Week 12 - Politics and Paganism

      Friday 7/25

      Saturday 7/26

      Sunday 7/27

      • Watch Documentary TBD 


      Week 11

      Monday 7/28

      • GYM AT 5:30
      • Work on Final paper/Project

      Tuesday 7/29

      • Work on Final paper/Project

      Wednesday 7/30

      • Work on Final paper/Project

      Thursday 7/31

      • Class 5:45-9
      • Discussion/Bulletin board 

      Friday 8/1

      • OBOD Meeting?
      • Finish final Project
      Saturday 8/2

      Sunday 8/3


      Week 12

      Monday 8/4

      • GYM AT 5:30

      Tuesday 8/5

      • Work on Final Paper

      Wednesday 8/6

      • Work on Final Paper

      Thursday 8/8

      • Class 5:45-9
      • Discussion/Bulletin board 
      • Presentation of final paper/project DUE
      • FINAL DUE

      Friday 8/9

      • OBOD Meeting?
      • Finish Final Paper

      Saturday 8/10

      Sunday 8/11

      • Final Paper DUE


      Faerie Fantasy Ball - Fully Immersive

       Alex and I are going to a fully immersive fantasy faerie ball this fall!! I am so excited! I'll get to dance with an actor and go on quests and stuff! Its pretty much larping and i am SO EXCITED 


      That being said.... I chose the Dreamweaver Court (Aether and Stars): The heart if the realm, where fate is spun between celestial light. Dreams and Reality blur in this ehtereal sanctuary where starlit magic shapes destiny. 


      I know everyone is going to go black and sparkly or dark navy and sparkly for starlight....so I want to go more Aether... 


      I need help picking out a dress:


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      Wednesday, April 30, 2025

      Tiny living actual options

       Okay if I’m gonna do tiny living that I’m not converting, here are some serious ones to consider. 


      By myself: 

      - finished small skoolie: https://vanlifetrader.com/listing/1991-skoolie-charming-home-on-wheels/

      - actual camper:  https://rv.campingworld.com/rv/2025-forest-river-wolf-pup-16bhsw-2402523-wauconda-il?indexName=rvcw-inventory_recommended&queryID=2ddfe50ba93e6b0796cff1afb6e0f229

      - tiny home camper (loft): https://rv.campingworld.com/rv/2024-forest-river-timberwolf-16ml-2364863-wauconda-il

      - tiny HOUSE on wheels - loft & flex room cheaper: https://tumbleweedhouses.com/emf-shielded-tiny-home/#

      - tiny HOUSE on wheels - loft & flex room preference: https://tumbleweedhouses.com/farallon-built-for-snow/#

      If I have a partner: 

      - 2 lofts and a flex room tiny HOUSE on wheels: https://tumbleweedhouses.com/2023-farallon-30-alta/#

      -


      Beltane flower spread

      1. The energy of Beltane this year: 19 The sun: enlightenment, success, vitality 
      2. What can I learn from Beltane this year: king of cups: focus on being kind and creative, being as good of a person and as true as I can. 
      3. How can I let light into my life: 9hermit and page of wands. I have a lot of internal work to do to get ready for this physical message coming from a person. 
      4. What areas should I release: 6 of swords, 7 of cups, 4 the emperor: releasing troubles and healing, release the fantasy you have or romance and be realistic, release your need to control everything. 
      5. What area of my life is ready to grow: 6 of cups: new perceptions of the past. (Relationships - acknowledge the good from them). 
      6. How can I manifest abundance: Ace of cups: nurture your current friendships 

      Saturday, April 26, 2025

      Summer Semester books

       The paganism syllabus is not available so I can only do the art one right now:


      Required
      • Kathryn Barush, Imaging Pilgrimage: Art as Embodied Experience
        • ISBN 979-8765103289
        • screw that I can't find it anywhere for under $35. Its free on the school website. 
        • https://ebookcentral-proquest-com.theoref.idm.oclc.org/lib/dtl/reader.action?docID=6647090&ppg=16
      • Art Spiegleman, The Complete Maus: A Survivor’s Tale (contains vol. 1 & 2)
        • ISBN 978-0679406419
        • Also free from library. 
        • https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/scy1zczvs99wl582dx30g/The-Complete-Maus.-Art-Spiegelman.-1.3042.pdf?rlkey=e9x3ldp8hxyi67tybghgysvei&e=1&dl=0
      • Natalie Wigg-Stevenson, Transgressive Devotion: Theology as Performance Art
        • ISBN 978-0334059479
        • too expensive to buy... hate reading edigitally but better to save $$
        • https://ebookcentral-proquest-com.theoref.idm.oclc.org/lib/dtl/reader.action?docID=6485549&ppg=1
      • Modern Paganism in World Cultures: Comparative Perspectives, ed. Michael Strmiska.  Bloomsbury-ABC CLIO. 2005. ISBN: 978185109684
        • https://ebookcentral-proquest-com.theoref.idm.oclc.org/lib/dtl/reader.action?docID=266832&c=UERG&ppg=1

      Summer classes - research paper plan

      •  Contemporary paganism - Asynchronous (Thursdays)
      • Art, Religion, and Contemporary Culture (Thursdays 5:45–9:00 p.m)

      For the Art Class, the final project I am choosing is:

      Final paper/project: this is an opportunity for students to draw on the readings, lectures, class conversations, and previous assignments to articulate their own informed understanding of the contemporary use of the arts as a means of theological or religious expression and reflection. Students will complete ONE of the following and present it to the class at the end of the term. 


      a) The creation of a work of art or popular culture, such as a painting, dance, poem, sculpture, graphic novel, etc. that speaks to an aspect of your religious practice. This will be accompanied by a researched, footnoted artist’s statement of approximately 5 pages that describes your ideas and contextualizes them.  

      I'm going to do do a burlesque dance. I am. I'll make sure not to go down to pasties nor would I be making anything sexy. But there is something truly divine and spiritual about stripping away the surface level story and revealing the vulnerable truth and message underneath through dance. So I'm not sure what yet but I'll have things written on my skin. I may do something with fans or Some form of flow in there as well - this is meant to be BEAUTIFUL not sexy and fun.  I want to show the ART of burlesque. 

      As for the 5 page papers...

      • page breaking down how burlesque is a spiritual act - this will delve into last semester's resources about authenticity as sacred, grab references from my queer performance paper. 
      • Introduction to my spiritual practice - Shadow work and witchcraft; Circle back to burlesque - an example of imitative magic for shadow work. Explain imitative magic. Explain shadow work. Then explain the big picture
      • introduce the gods I work with and which ones inspire me for the dance. (Cernunnos , Lilith, Brigid)
      • Break down the song and costume choices
      If she says no I will do a research paper on burlesque as the art piece and see if she'll approve that instead.  that would need to be 11-12 pages... the practice being witcraft and shadow work, devotional dance, and celebrating the authentic divinity of the soul. 

      For my sources:
      • Lartey, Emmanuel Y., and Hellena Moon, eds. Postcolonial Images of Spiritual Care:  Challenges of Care in a Neoliberal Age. Eugene, OR: Pickwick Publications, 2020
        • - page 27 on what spirituality is 
      • Lartey, Emmanuel Y. In Living Color: An Intercultural Approach to Pastoral Care and Counseling. 2nd ed. London and Philadelphia: Jessica Kingsley Publishers, 2003.
        • pages 55-59: Lartey, in his solo book In Living Color, provides several models of pastoral care including social action, empowerment, and personal interaction - all of which are embodied in through 
      • Dodds, Sherril. “Embodied Transformations in Neo-Burlesque Striptease.” Dance Research Journal 45, no. 3 (2013): 75–90. http://www.jstor.org/stable/43966084.
        • Explain the power of Burlesque! https://www.jstor.org/stable/43966084?read-now=1&seq=1#page_scan_tab_contents
      • Buszek, Maria-Elena. “Representing ‘Awarishness’: Burlesque, Feminist Transgression, and the 19th-Century Pin-Up.” TDR (1988-) 43, no. 4 (1999): 141–62. http://www.jstor.org/stable/1146802.
        • On women in theater and how their independence is a threat to society (Lilith focus)
        • https://www.jstor.org/stable/1146802?read-now=1&seq=1#page_scan_tab_contents
      •  Pollack-Pelzner, Daniel. “Shakespeare Burlesque and the Performing Self.” Victorian Studies 54, no. 3 (2012): 401–9. https://doi.org/10.2979/victorianstudies.54.3.401.
        • More on burlesque as a personal performance for self.
        • https://www.jstor.org/stable/10.2979/victorianstudies.54.3.401?read-now=1&seq=1#page_scan_tab_contents
      • Buckland, Theresa Jill. “Dance, Authenticity and Cultural Memory: The Politics of Embodiment.” Yearbook for Traditional Music 33 (2001): 1–16. https://doi.org/10.2307/1519626
        • Dance in conversation with other areas of study
        • https://www.jstor.org/stable/1519626?read-now=1&seq=1#page_scan_tab_contents
      • COYLE, SUZANNE M. Uncovering Spiritual Narratives: Using Story in Pastoral Care and Ministry. Augsburg Fortress, 2014. https://doi.org/10.2307/j.ctt22nm7hf.
        • PRetty self explanatory. I'm buying this damn book so it better be helpful in the future
      • Gaskill, Malcolm. 2010. Witchcraft : A Very Short Introduction. Oxford: Oxford University Press. Accessed April 26, 2025. ProQuest Ebook Central.
        • Book on Witcraft.. honestly i think i could get some really good quotes from this. 
        • https://ebookcentral-proquest-com.theoref.idm.oclc.org/lib/dtl/reader.action?docID=684591&ppg=1'
      • Benussi, Matteo. (2019) 2023. “Magic”. In The Open Encyclopedia of Anthropology, edited by Felix Stein. Facsimile of the first edition in The Cambridge Encyclopedia of Anthropology. Online: http://doi.org/10.29164/19magic
        •  https://www.anthroencyclopedia.com/entry/magic
        • https://anthroholic.com/forms-of-magic?srsltid=AfmBOoplHEziSc_FdogfJxn52KE_9Zwf34G3Fc-WLAVU1MwbNCwnFrDE
      • BERGER, HELEN A., ed. Witchcraft and Magic: Contemporary North America. University of Pennsylvania Press, 2005. http://www.jstor.org/stable/j.ctt3fh7kf.
        • Another book on Witcraft I can probably use a lot on. 
        • https://www-jstor-org.theoref.idm.oclc.org/stable/j.ctt3fh7kf


      recent reflection 2:

       I’m going to be real for a minute.

      My weight has always been a sensitive topic for me. For the longest time I was underweight. Then because of birth control my thyroid stopped working properly and I gained a lot of weight rapidly. Since then I have bounced between 140-150lbs and have hated my body. I did a scan today and it showed that since I’ve been going to the gym regularly… I have not lost weight. I have not slimmed down. In fact since my first scan my body composition has gotten WORSE.

      Other than when my thyroid stopped working this is probably the “chubbiest” I have been. I’ve had people tell me that I would be so much more attractive if I lost weight. I’ve had people with the same body as me tell me how ugly it was. I’ve had people tell me something was wrong with me because I wasn’t alarmed with the fact that technically I am obese (according to body composition). Here’s the thing…there are worse things than being chubby. You know what else? I’m the healthiest I’ve ever been. 

      I’ve been sober (from benzos) almost 8 years. My chronic pain has DRASTICALLY lessened. My mental health has improved (and that’s a good chunk thanks to Kat, Jack, and Rachael… and a LOT of work I have put into it). I havnt been horribly sick in about half a year. My relationship with food is a LOT better (when I first moved up to WI I had an eating problem that was headed towards a disorder). Now what I eat may not be the best but that is a soap box for another time. (No food is guilt free because guilt is not an ingredient. The only “bad food” is food that it rotten or that you’re allergic to.) 

      My body doesn’t decide how beautiful I am. I’m hot. Like seriously - I’m single by choice not from lack of options. I’m funny (especially when I’m not trying to be). I’m optimistic and full of positive energy. I light up a room when I’m feeling confident. I love to sing and laugh and smile - I’m authentic and I insure that in others. I am beautiful inside and out… and yes, I’m overweight and that doesn’t change a damn thing. 

      Will I loose weight in the future? Who knows 🤷‍♀️ as long as I am happy and healthy and loving my best life it doesn’t matter.