Dream again~ it has mermaids ;)

so last nigh i had another dream tha i KNOW deals with sexuality. mermaids. i remember that they mean something with doubting the female sexuality.

so in the dream....

i'm in Costa Rica. I am on some kind of adventure and i end up defeating a bad guy to save a kidnapped baby, who i give to a young man. This young man will take her (smuggle her) back to her family. After that i end up exploring a jungle, and i follow a very exotic mermaid (a cross between the mermaids from Peter Pan, Pirates of the Caribbean, and Mermaids: he body found ) who has the colors of Dory from Nemo. I end up following he to tunnels, that remind me of water slides. remembering that mermaids will sometimes ea people i make sure o go into a different tunnel than the one that i followed. It takes me to a mermaid cove which is filled with all different types of mermaids. I end up finding out that the men there do not have to worry about being eaten as long as they serve the mermaids. In big waves i get to see the mermaid goddess: a beautiful mermaid, huge, with dark hair and black wings. She has 4 next in command mermaids, with white tails and white angel wings carrying intricate white spear-staffs.  Something happens that i don't remember and The mermaid goddess is attacked and hurt, i end up getting to have a conversation with her. I sadly don't remember what was said, but i end up getting to keep a feather from her wing.

key items:
Costa Rica
Adventure
Baby
Mermaid
tunnel
Pod of mermaids
Giant waves
Goddess
Black Angel wings
four
White Angel wings
conversation
Black Feather

meanings:
Island (Costa Rica) - To see or dream that you are on an island signifies ease, relaxation and comfort.The dream is telling you that you need a vacation and escape the stresses in your life. It is time for some solitude.

Adventure- To dream that you are an adventurer indicates that you are lacking adventure in your waking life. You need some excitement and variety. 

Baby - To dream of an extremely small baby symbolizes your helplessness and your fears of letting others become aware of your vulnerabilities and incompetence. You may be afraid to ask for help and as a result tend to take matters into your own hands. 

Mermaids - To see a mermaid in your dream signifies the female aspect of yourself that is mysterious and secretive. It may also show a fear of sex.For a woman, it suggests doubts over her femininity.

Tunnel - To dream that you are going through a tunnel suggests that you are exploring aspects of your subconscious. You are opening yourself to a brand new awareness. Alternatively, it indicates your limited perspective as in the phrase "tunnel vision". 

pod - To see a group in your dream refers to the merging of various aspects of your character and personality.

Waves - To dream that you are caught in a tidal wave represents an overwhelming emotional issue that demands your attention. You may have been keeping your feelings and negative emotions bottled up inside for too long. You may be holding back tears that you are afraid to express in your waking life. On a positive note, the tidal wave symbolizes the clearing away of old habits

Goddess - To see a goddess in your dream symbolizes your femininity or feminine side.

black wings - To dream that you are flying with black wings signifies bitter disappointments.

four - Four denotes stability, physical limitations, hard labor and earthly things, as in the four corners of the earth or the four elements (earth, wind, fire and water). It also stands for materialistic matters and how you get things done.Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on being "for" a position. In Asian cultures, the number four is a metaphor for death.

white wings: To dream that you have the wings of an angel indicate your sweet, angelic quality. Or you may be in need of some protection from life's stresses and problems.

conversation - To dream that you are talking does not have any significance unless it is unusual or bizarre.

feather - To see a feather in you dream symbolizes warmth. You are expressing your tender side and a desire to be close to someone. Consider also how the dream may relate to the proverb "birds of a feather flock together". Perhaps you need to break away from the masses or you need to make new friends

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REMEMBER:

• I saved a baby, a VERY small baby. 
• the four mermaids with white wings were guarding the goddess.
• The mermaid goddess had black wings.
• The goddess gave me a feather.... She had been giving me advice before she gave it
• The goddess came on a tidal wave that stood still, almost like a stage for her. 

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notes:

• saving the baby: I am seeing and admitting my fear of letting people know i am afraid of sex?
• Going though the tunnels: by realizing the last dream means i want sex i have become more aware, and i need to work through his fear to continue on. 
• Black wings signify disappointment, the MERMAID goddess had black wings. so maybe: My fear of sex makes me doubt and feel disappointed in my sexuality.
• The four guardian mermaids represent good and purity, and they were protecting, so: i feel i need protection from stress? Maybe so i will be less afraid?
• The goddess gave me a feather: In order to get over my fear i need to get close to someone. then i won't be afraid of the sex?

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interpretation:

I need to admit my fear and let whoever i end up being with know about it.  By admitting this, i can open myself to new hings. I am disappointed in myself for my fear of sex and i think subconsciously it makes me doubt myself and i think i feel less worthy because of it. I think that it is society that has made me feel this way, i think the expectations of sex an sexual activity make me feel like a freak or being afraid of it; that is why The four guardians were guarding the goddess, and maybe also that he protection from how society makes me feel will help to kill the fear? I believe the ultimate way of dispelling the fear of sex is to do it with somone i feel reall close to, someone i can trust.