stages, phases...what have you.

i keep going through these stages/phases.

stage 1: i'm lonley
stage 2: then angry/frurated that i'm lonley, and why i'm lonley
stage 3: to aaceepting that i'm lonley
stage 4: to not feeling overly lonley.
stage 5: not caring/not thinking about it

i might go through a phase maybe.... 1-3 times a day.

and each stage takes different amounts of time every time i get to it. (and sometimes go out of order.)

like... today i was angry/frustrated for like five minutes.... then later i was angry/frustrated for like an hour...

1: i'm lonley. pretty self explaitory.
2: why am i lonley? because aparently i'm too picky and the only people actually attracted to me are male. which doesn't help at all.
3. i'm lonley and thats just life.
4. its not really that bad.
5. i'm not thinking about it or i'm fine being by myself/not feeling lonley.


can i just stay at stage 5? ugh.

this is so fucking frustrating.


oh look stage 2.