classic novel vlog LIST

ok so if you were searching the interwebs for a list of classis novels turned into vlogs on youtube like me... you may not have found a very clear list. so i'm making one...and as i discover more, i will update this list!
i have provided links! :3


Pride and Prejudice:

• The Lizzie Bennett Diaries - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KisuGP2lcPs&list=PL_ePOdU-b3xcDyyzeR5NjxeLEElsqYzn1

Carmilla:

• Carmilla - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h4QzRfvkJZ4&list=PLbvYWjKFvS5rX2yv-k5AJ8oxPoZ9zHcpe

Emma:

• Emma Approved - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aeeXkf8LZ_8&list=PL_ePOdU-b3xcKOsj8aU2Tnztt6N9mEmur
• The Emma Projects - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-HQghGwa9g&list=PLoYWXxZWOXuYK0iF-mHB2gDMNSCpxWays

Mansfield park:

• From Mansfield with Love - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=njBFxjzu7_E&list=PLmsm7oFLjXNecAKxAdpf8YQ4ezL3H7lEA

Phantom of the Opera:

• Notes by Christine - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-k2PPfaiXoY&list=PL_HAopw6QyqjYjobESqVHQw0xaAUsXyTs

The Great Gatsby:

• Nick Carroway Chronicles - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CAYUtu2w6h8

Jane Eyre:

• The Autobiography of Jane Eyre - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GK8HqCXybok&list=PL3NxAiyc-89HP3wHV2y5mbwi2TidvocKZ

Frankenstein:

• Frankenstein, M.D. - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M4Xg_enWRTk&list=PL_ePOdU-b3xfXgHhpBm1Ao8TDawkZJLKi

Peter Pan:

• The New Adventures of Peter and Wendy - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CE5OtGY4B5I&list=PL0U5r8Nz5FiIt4cdn3qKE_zJMcKfyfTzi

Much Ado About Nothing:

• Nothing much to do - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iakDRoQg-sM&list=PLgtRIWtmHefNSmhLGzm87bM6AKzWvD-ls

Crime and Punishment:

• Classic Alice - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jcjfs_lVeRg&list=PLgRMT7lzLTVeDHz3xi8A2dJ_4JGIaUv4k

Romeo and Juliet:

• Jules and Monty - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JTpqiPf4c8k&list=PLjp9sWG-vTL6NKmWT65fNNIW7QXmich9e

Anne of Greene Gables:

• Greene Gables Fables - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU_VLBr2HCEkmVJbnBsMSXg/feed

The Taming of the Shrew:

• Kate the Cursed - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyWXQEOTDBs&list=PLefCfFxyeRWv0sy4bO3U0qkiIkypC4Hl1

Little Women:

• The March Family Letters - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GoGcG1vpcM&list=PL_ePOdU-b3xf69PZcEbgxlviLrBhJ_cpp

Game of Thrones:

• School of Thrones - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DY6dvlMfntw&list=PLPERACB8QM1iQAQHSZsD9gPGxJhCBuyOo

***BTW

• i have not seen most of these...
•  aaaaaand "Pemberly digital" happens to be the one who made several of them: https://www.youtube.com/user/PemberleyDigital/playlists
• ones that NEED to be made:

1. sense and sensibility
2. Scarlet Letter
3. Alice in wonderland
4. Wuthering Heights

Tarot cards

So... Corie taught me 2 ways to read tarot cards.... And I'm not bad. 

I'm saving up to get my own deck :) it's beautiful....

Unique in it's own way, but still close enough to the original tarot cards for me to feel comfortable with it and recognize the cards themselves.

It's called: fenestra tarot cards

I'm so excited:3

Never thought I'd say this...

Never thought I'd say this... But cuddling made me sad today. 

I cuddled last night while I slept over at Corie's, and all today I thought about how nice it was. And how happy I was when I woke up. 

It made me sad.

Because if I had a girlfriend then it would be my usual routine. I could cuddle and give all the hugs I wanted. I could give someone a good morning kiss. Hugs from behind. Have tickle wars with.

I hate being single sometimes. 

And I know I'll get over this. It's because I just got out of a relationship and I'm still in that mind set. 

But it sucks.

One s cons I have a companion and the next I don't.

Not feeling it

I'm just not feeling life right now.

Since I love to do it, let's make a list. 

- My girlfriend broke up with me.

- I have no energy... And no energy source

- I haven't slept well in a while 

- last night I dreamt of blood and gore. Not a nightmare... But I had images of bloody meat being  given to me. Surprisingly had no fear.

- i think my cat powder is going die soon.

Yeah. I'm just not feeling it.

No energy

Since staci broke up with me I've had no energy. At all. I'm tired non stop. 

I don't have anything to do. I'm not getting the same amount if human interaction, which is literally what I need to recharge. 

I spent all my free time over there and now.. Nothing. I have no where to go and nothing to do.

I don't have the energy to be around people. But I need people to get energy.

Eh.

I kind of just want to mindlessly make out with someone.

I feel odd.

I feel odd. This feeling is too light to be loneliness. But it's not a happy feeling. Ugh. 

I don't want to be alone.

That's the feeling.

I want to be with someone.

I want to flirt.

To be flirted with.

Playful banter. 

Tickling.

Ugh. 

Ok so. Maybe it is loneliness.

Just friends

Staci and I are just friends. It stung but I'm actually really ok with it. The energy changed for her, was starting to change for me, and it's ok.

Had nothing to do with the Corie thing. 

I'm not upset, I'm really ok.

Much needed

Ah ❤️ the Harry potter marathon was awesome. And much needed. 

It was soooooo much fun!

And I made new friends! 

On of which was a Christian witch :) who is a spirit keeper. (Think... Lucy from fairytale)

And tomorrow I return to reality with work. And I'm having eggplant for dinner tomorrow!!!! :D

And after that I talk with staci.

I'm not really mad anymore, but it will be interesting. Since I still don't understand what she is/was feeling. 

But I'll find out tomorrow! Finally, I hated not talking to her. 

But it really is her loss, not mine. She missed out on an amazing experience.

I'm pathetic

As hurt and upset as i am.... I'm mostly upset because I miss her so damn bad. And it hasn't even been a day.

I just hate how our conversation ended.

I said I loved her and then I hung up.

She apologized for hurting me after that and I said "it is what it is"

Which is true.

But.

I'm dying to talk to her. Even though I'm mad.

I think I really do love this girl.

It is what it is.

I've calmed down a bit. My best friend says that staci might just need some time to process what happened. 

Right.

Well she can process whatever she needs to. 

I have a Harry Potter marathon coming up tomorrow and Wednesday so... I'll give her those days and Thursday. Then, if she hasn't spoken to me by that time I'll reach out. 

And if she still doesn't know how to explain what she is feeling, I'll explain how I am.

It may start an argument but at least it might get her talking.

I hate silence when I love someone. But if she needs it, fine. Radio silence for the next 3 days.

I'm still hurt and confused but I'm strong and no matter what gets said I'll be ok.

I just wish she would fucking talk to me.

Explain what the issue is, why its me she has the issue with, and give me an actual answer other than "I don't know".

But there are 2 types of people. One needs time to mull it over and then they'll speak. The other prefers to get it out of the way and over with.

I am person #2.

Get through the conflict, get it out of the way, get this weight off my chest, and on toward the healing.

I'm tired of hurting. I've got jake to deal with in a matter of days and now this.

Feels like an elephant is sitting on my heart.

But for the next 2 days I am nothing but a happy nerdy anthrooloywog and I will focus on that innocent happiness.

And my cauldron cakes look damn good!

This is a rant. No logic, just emotion.

 This is bullshit. Staci is uncomfortable with staying over and going to the 2 day Harry Potter marathon with me because she is uncomfortable with me. 

She has a nagging feeling about what happened with Corie.

I'll tell you what happened. Corie expressed interest and I said NO. 

I chose Staci. 

What did I do wrong?

I told Corie no; I told Corie we couldn't hang out one on one; I told Staci everything. 

Should I have kept my mouth shut? No. But apparently I didn't do something right. 

Staci is uncomfortable with "us" and me because of Corie. 

This makes no fucking sense!

What did I do wrong?

What should I have done different?

Why is this still an issue?

Yes I work with her, I can't exactly quit my job.

Yes I consider her a friend but I don't hang out with her and I don't talk to her at work for more than 2 minutes consecutively.

I do the right thing and it's me she has an issue with? That so unfair!

What the fuck.

 Can't say I'm pissed, but I'm hurt.

Why is she uncomfortable with me, when I did the right thing? Shouldn't that give her confidence in me, instead of insecurity?

This is so backwards.

I don't understand it and my feelings are hurt.

I hung up because when I get hurt I get angry and I didn't want staci to see me cry and I didn't want to say something to hurt her. Because the more I think on it, the more upset I get.

Makes no fucking sense.

Freshman year grades

Societies from around the world : A

Intro into cultural anthropology: A

dynamic earth lecture: A

Intro to sociology: B

Basic constructions of math: B

Health: B-

Archeology around the world: A-

Intro to bio anthropology: A

World religions: B-

Dynamic earth lab A-

Total GPA: 3.75

AND that's while working an average of 20-25 hours a week. 

Damn. Not bad.

Are you fucking kidding me.

I literally just posted that I won't do anything to jeopardize my relationship with Staci and she snaps me saying we need to talk. When I ask if everything is ok, she says "idk we need to talk about something" 

If she breaks up with me... I'm going to flip my fucking lid. 

Btw...

Btw... That Corie thing won't be an issue. I am happy with staci and wouldn't ever do anything to jeopardize that. 

Besides Corie is in love with someone and is only looking for someone to pass the time with. 

Not my division. 

I'm happy where I am. 

Oh... And I talked to woolard, he made me feel better.

I want my dad

I want woolard :/

Admitting that I'm still hurt , well... Hurts. 

I don't know how to forgive myself... So in my pain o turn to my dad. I sent him a message but he hasn't seen it. I'll see if he has any advice for me.

I miss him. While sending him a message I realized just how much I miss him:(

I wish I could just give him a hug and have him tell me everything is fine. 

What I would give to see him right now :,(

Healing myself

Today I realized something. My energy is blocked... I knew this already. But now I think I know why. I was talking to Corie... Deep conversation.. And she helped me see it.

I'm still hurting. It's been a year and a half but my spirit is still hurting from jake. 

I constantly compare my relationship with staci to the one with jake. 

My heart still sinks just at the thought of him. 

I'm good at denial... I can deny im still broken up. Which... I'd say I'm not broken anymore... I'm fractured. I have put myself back together.

What I need is 3 things:

- closure: a face to face conversation with jake about how much he hurt me, how it's still affecting me, and...

- removal of jake from my life(if necessary): drop contact completely if closure is not enough.

- forgive myself: self forgiveness is really something I struggle with. I need to forgive myself for loosing a part of myself with jake. I let myself get lost in my love of him... Became disconnected with my spirit and have stayed that way. I need to admit that I lost myself, and forgive myself. I abandoned my inner spirit, and I need to know that it's okay. 

I need to forgive myself for holding on to the anger for so long. I need to forgive myself for getting hurt. I need to forgive myself for not confronting jake the day he hurt me, instead I buried it all inside me. Yes he read my blog but it's not enough. I denied myself closure, held on to pain so I wouldn't lose him forever. I hurt myself. And I need to forgive myself for that.

-mourn my loss: I mourned the loss of my boyfriend. I mourned the loss of my best friend. But I didn't mourn the loss of myself. When my heart truly broke for the first time... A part of me died. The blissfully unaware nieve side of me that truly saw good in everything and everyone died. Now I'm slightly less nieve, but now I know actual pain. I can never go back to the girl I once was. I never mourned for her. I need that. 

3 steps.

This is going to hurt. But after a year and a half? It's long overdue.