I'm Definitely not pregnant.
My period being so weird made me actually pause and consider the possibility but i'm bleeding again.
I would argue that this is how I would normally bleed towards the end of my period. So it was a very odd one... but I've had a period. I'm not pregnant.
And I'm sad.
The letter that Brigid had me write to my future baby made me realize how much I want to have a child. How much I want to hear a little voice call me "mommy". I already love her/him (pretty sure it's her). For a moment I felt the spirit of my future baby. Strong willed, but spontaneous and playful. I can't wait to meet them.
That being a mom is a way of serving her. So she made me aware of how much I really do want to be a mom.
As terrifying as it would be to suddenly find myself unexpectedly pregnant, I know that somehow I could make it work.
I'm sad. But I know that ultimately its for the best; the timing wouldn't have been right anyway.
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