What's bothering me

Why is listening to someone else's issues so much easier than voicing my own? I've asked for advice from others so, I'm just going to copy and paste what I typed out. 

"It's just like... I'm an energetic person.. And everytime I come over (which is a lot) there is always low energy. And when they smoke weed (a lot) the low energy turns non existent. I'm super playful... But she hates being tickled. Idk, it's just... We are comfortable and happy together, but I need energy! I just don't know how to talk to her about it"

"I feel exhausted, like... All the weed they smoke drains my energy. If I don't get to be energetic and playful, I just don't... Feel like me."

"I don't mind weed, at all. But the amount that they smoke all the time is ridiculous... Like.. It's a daily shared activity and it has a weird reaction with me. I don't smoke it but I breathe it in second hand and it makes me tired. Drains my energy. Which is already low since they have low energy"

Uh. Okay.

In short: need more playful energy, need more energy period... A little less weed... At least when I'm around, and maybe leaving the apartment every now and then?

Bad person

So, I got out of my finals today at 2 but staci was busy till 7 so I went to hang out with my coworker Corie. Things were fine for the first 2 hours and the first movie. Then I got a little bored during the second movie and we stared looking up hot actresses. And then we just ended up talking for a good hour. During that time I found out some stuff about her such as the fact that she is polygamous... After mentioning it was something I was interested in. Needless to say I was struggling to be a good girlfriend and not flirt. It was hard. *sigh* I'm such a bad person... It was soooo hard not to flirt and make out with her.. But I didn't. I behaved. 

Writing

I started writing again. White roses... The miser novel. I think the reason it wouldn't let me write it before was I didn't know how to start it off... Well yesterday I wrote 10 pages.... It was awesome. I forgot how much I missed writing....

GO TO THIS

April 27: Beyond the Finish Line: Inspirational Story of Jeff Bauman, 7:00pm

Story idea

She  watched him take a hit. Even if it was just playing boxing, he was still beautiful and powerful, intimidating in his every move. Through the remains of his tattered black shirt, clean out lines of a chiseled torso peaked through the torn fabric. Beautiful. Every hit landed had his sparing partner obviously losing ground. The mock fight finished, faster that I would have thought possible. Then his deep blue eyes focused in on me. His brows drew together and his beautiful lips turned into a scowl. When all of his attention faced toward me, it reminded me of the face a cat makes before it kills a mouse. Only angrier. Intimidating.

The world as previously known, had ended. Another planet from another dimension has collided with earth. The collision Created a doorway Allowing unknown creatures and races to spill from one planet to another. Each time the door opens more of them come. The first time the door opened is when phoebee's brother disappeared. With a few last words he jumped through to try and figure out how to stop the apocalypse.

That was 7 years ago. Now life has returned to as close as normal. Some of the races had integrated in with humans peacefully. Some humans were fine with this. Others were not. Not long after her brothers disapearance phoebe bagan seeing things. Hearing them. Then a girl from her dreams shows up spouting delirious things about phoebe's brother, her non human form obvious. Convinced to go find him.

**** she goes into other world but is followed by a jerk from high school. Famous for his racial prejudice he decides to protect her on her "idioting " trip. = inspired by poison princess

Fav movies

Favorite movies:

1. The phantom of the opera

2.the mummy/the mummy returns

3. Silence of the lambs 

4. Disney's Peter Pan 

5. 3 musketeers

6. Scorpion king

7. Queen of the damned

8. spirited away

9. Howls moving castle

10. Harry Potter and the goblet of fire 

labido

so.... in the beginning i was like....sex sex sex sex .... in my brain.

i had a very high labido.

now?

eh.

Both....

Today just keeps getting better and better. Not.

I just helped bury medicine. We planted some pretty summer flowers over her grave.

And my headphones are gone. The ones I just got. Gone. 

I just can't win.

Goodbye sweet girl

Goodbye sweet girl.medicine died this morning we don't know what caused it but let's just say wasn't pleasant. My mom put her down and tonight we're going to bury her. I know she'll be happy Bast will be with her and her spirit is in the summerlands. I will miss her.

relief

okay so in my biological anthropology class i wasn't doing too well on exams. i got a 55 out of 80 points on both tests. With all the extra credit i got i was maintaining a low B.

i just talked with the professor and went over the exams with him and he was giving me back points left and right! once i explained my answer or corrected things, he was like "okay :) " and gave me the points!!!!

that B? is now an A!!

i went from 140 points to 153!!! out of 160!!!!


THANK YOU DR. LOUDEN!!!

note to self:

do this in a computer lab and print it out: (for 5pts extra credit in health)

https://ecu.az1.qualtrics.com/SE/?SID=SV_8oEnwW0bvbFpC0l



print:

http://core.ecu.edu/hhp/vailsmithk/survey/Receipt.html

PASSPORT EVENTS TO GO TO:

April 16: Medieval & Renaissance Festival, 10:00am-4:00pm, Mendenhall 244 and Great Rooms, Brickyard. An

examination of what occurred in Medieval and Renaissance culture in the fields of science, engineering, finance, musical

theory and instrumentation, history, and literature and how this has informed and impacted our modern world. Only

certain sessions are passport-approved – please check the list at the beginning of the event

April 21: Paperclips: A Documentary, 7-9pm, Wright Auditorium. As a part of Holocaust Remembrance, please join us for the inspiring production, “Paper Clips” which tells the story of the student of Whitwell Middle School in rural Whitwell, Tennessee learning about the Holocaust. Their “Paper Clips” project sparked one of the most inspirational and profound lessons in tolerance, in the least likely of places. A panel of student and community members, to include a Rabbi will conduct a Q&A after the production.

TOMORROW:
April 9: The Intersection of Faith and Science, 8:00pm, Science and Technology C207. Brian Miller, PhD will discuss
different perspectives on the interrelationship between faith and science. He will also describe how advances in science over
the past several decades have brought awareness of the appearance of design throughout nature. In addition, he will explain
how scientific theories based on atheistic versions of evolution and cosmology have increasingly proven incapable of
explaining the recent observations in physics and biology. Finally, special topics will be addressed, such as the danger of
appealing to the God of the Gaps and the implications of the faith-science dialogue in society. A question and answer session will follow Dr. Miller’s presentation.

EXAM DATES

April 30th

• math @ 8
• Religion @2

May 1

• Health @ 9

May 5

• Biological anthropology @ 11

May 6th

• Archeology @8

Geology???? i need to find out

First.

Tonight marks the end of my childhood.