why am i even there?

so yesterday the reason i was getting depressed was because of tennis. I am not very valuable to the team.... i have played for 4 years and i am still not in the top 6. I don't bring in that many wins, if i play at all. I try to encourage and help the other girls but its like they don't even notice. 

why am i even part of the team? Its not like i help the team itself... i don't contribute much. 

Anything i do is strictly emotional type stuff. i give encouragement, i try to always smile, and bring good energy. but if i'm no there, that stuff still gets done. The girls can encourage each other and micheleada is always smiling. 

the girl i help with math? Madie? there is a math wiz on the team who can help her, even if she doesn't explain it as well as i do. 

To the team itself i bring very little, so why am i even there? 

All i do is take up sopace, bring people water, get on people's nerves, and use up woolards money (he pays for me to eat whenever we have an away game), i mean, c'mon...