setback

He won.

I'm in a state of shock... Last night i numbed myself and covered my sorrow with the happiness of drunkenness.

Today it is much harder to face.

Plagued by random crying bouts. Anxiety spikes.

I want to disappear behind a bottle of vodka or behind my writing, i don't know which is more appealing to me at the moment.

I'm terrfied. I don't want to see Donald Trump take an already flailing country and sink it completely.... I don't want to see the world he will create.

But i can't just hide in fear.

This is a setback, but we have to survive.