so I’m in a not pleasant bipolar episode that has been going on since Monday.
And it all really boils down to missing my boyfriend.
I just posted a blog post that explains how I’m feeling and why, explains my behaviors, and the thoughts that spring forward from all of this. Hence the part 2 title.
Except I took it down.
Words are so much easier to do when written. I will always be able to write my feelings better than speaking them. But the truth that came out in those words can be hurtful. I can’t say them and I honestly don’t know if I can share them even written.
I feel once they are out I will regret them, even if true. Especially if this passes.
I hate censoring. I’ve always said that I wouldn’t censor my blog - my safe place to voice my thoughts and read them back to myself (probably my healthiest coping mechanism). But I do. Often.
I will end this post with the same words however:
Gods above let this get better.
Because this hurts. And it’s making me a bitch.
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