Survive

 My mind is spiraling in the worst way. 

I cannot sleep because I have to have a survival plan.

In a state of emergency… I’ve worked it out and I could live out of my SUV. Would not be ideal but honestly? I could. 

Sell literally almost everything that I own. Except what I pack: (each bag being a drawer for future settlement)

1 bag (bottoms): 2 or 3 pairs of jeans. 2 or three pairs of black soft pants. 1 pair sweat pants. 2 maxi skirts (green and burgundy&blue), floral romper, 1 sundress, pink grey floral long sleeve dress. 

2 bag (tops): 2 plain print black tank tops, 2 plain Burgundy tank tops, 1 grey tank top, 1 fancy blue tank top, 1 green floral tank top,1 white tank top, 1 pink tank top. 2 floral nice short sleeve blouse, 3 casual short sleeve (phantom, 2 pick), 3 casual long sleeve (anime, sun & moon, pink granite), 3 nice long sleeve (black cut out sparkle, grey pink, black lace tan). 

3 bag (warmth): 3 sweaters/hoodies (serial killer, brown, sleep token), 3 flannel, 1 fleece, 1 black over thermal) 

4 bag: 10 pair underwear, 5 pair pajama (4 pair small set, 1 pair long sleeve set for warmth), as many pairs of socks as I can. tooth brush, tooth paste, hair brush, 3 lotions, 3 lipsticks, 1 eyeliner, tweezers, nail clippers) 

5 bag: Bug out bag.... solar panels and mini generators, emergency thermal blankets (the silver ones), water purifying tablets, Can opener, The granola bars I have, screw drivers, pocket knife, TOILET PAPER, bottles of water to fill the rest of the space. 

Mom purse: benedryl, Neosporin, my bipolar meds, adderall to sell in case of emergency, anxiety meds. Mios for me to flavor water.  Travel lotion. Travel bottles of toiletries. Three perfumes (graphite, marshmallow, and the baby VS bottle). Wallet. Passport. Birth certificate. 

In ONE box I can fit keepsakes: pick 1 item from each shrine to represent that deity. War shield (ancestors). 

in ONE SMALL box: However many candles I can fit in case of emergency for warmth. 3 lighters. 

Bedding: Both mattress toppers, all 3 warm blankets, 

Important items: Cat carriers. Laptop & Charger, Tent, at least 3 bath towels.

Empty out my car completely - in area under the trunk:

- bags of dog food & all her bones that I possibly have

- all bags of cat litter I currently have

- All cans of cat food I currently have

- Bags of Cat food that I currently have

Box: Any dry food that I can; Canned Meat (chicken, beef, sardines, tuna, corn beef hash, Vienna sausages, potted eat), canned veggies (Corn, green beans, carrots, spinach), fruit cups

**Once the food runs out... will literally just have to buy food daily from dollar stores etc. Stock up as I can. 

Storage:

Backsteat: Dog Hammock and blankets for the pets. ALL BAGS and BOXES under the hammock. Like when I moved up here. Anything that doesn't fit will go in the trunk (which will then be moved to front seat at night time) 

Front Seat: passenger floor board for the cat litter, water bowl at pit stops. Maybe have a bowl in the hammock? Dry food available in passenger seat for cats; hammock for dog. Wet food given at night with bed set up. 

Water bottles to fill any remaining space. 

Nighttime: seats folded down, both bed pads put over them. Sleeping bag and blankets layered - sleep on vs under as many as comfortable. Pets fed while I watch. Water bowl where they can access. 

Logistics:

Internet via hotspot from phone plan & possible satellite internet?

Bathroom anywhere we can. Shower at Gyms (I would get a PF membership $10; they are 24 hours & I can probably park in the parking lots) or Truck stops. 

Money for: Phone plan, Gas, Food, Cat litter. **I will BURN through gas... because the car will be running during the wintertime non stop. (Space heater for winter.... charge storage can be charged from the car, then the heater plugged in.) 

Phone: $55 straight talk

Gas: $650 a month

food: $500 a month (aiming high, me and the pets on gas station food and canned goods)

Cat payment: $234

Car insurance: $80

Loan payment: $430 

Health insurance.... $100?

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2049 --> $2630 a month before taxes = $31560 = $15.20 an hour at 40 hours. 

Look for any fully remote work or odd jobs I could do. Really push selling readings online. Still registered to WI that way I can still get health insurance while I roam.

(Google digital nomad jobs)

****Save up for: Solar paneling to put on top of my car --> Look if I need to set up camp somewhere I will use the toilet outside if I have to.

**** Save up for: New Tires & oil changes as needed

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What prepping do I need to do?

- buy the mini solar generators

- buy the emergency blankets

- State Park passes for whatever states I enter (usually $20 bucks?)

- Another Lead for snow. If I stop to camp, the cats would go in the tent and not leave, but snow would have free reign of her lead. 

to know:

To essentially live while camping long term requires public land, so states like:

Alaska, Arizona, California, Colorado, Idaho, Montana, Nevada, New Mexico, Oregon, Utah, Washington, and Wyoming are generally considered the best options due to the availability of Bureau of Land Management (BLM) land where dispersed camping is often permitted. 

Otherwisw, reserve campsites where you can. (preferably with a bath house on site)

No one would really know that I wasn't just camping for the night. 

I could also reach out to friends and camp in their back yards whenever available. See if Rach would let me set up a tent in her back yard in a pinch?

Now that I've gotten this written out maybe I can sleep.