Structure

 Okay so I need to get more structure in my life. 

I lack motivation. I lack the desire to do thing... but I do desire to be healthier. I do desire to make people not worry. 

I don't know if structure will help shake the depression but I can try. 

What is my biggest hurdle? Fatigue. Why am I fatigued? I'm not getting enough energy from food and sleep - because I'm not getting enough of it. 

I spoke with Kat and want to develop a care plan for myself. 

**If made bold can be re-arranged***

DAILY:

•  Get up at 7:45am (not 8:15. not 8:30. and actually get up.)
• Schedule alexa to start playing music at 7:15 gently to slowly wake me up so that its not a harsh alarm that wakes me up from deep sleep. 
• Let snow out while I...
• Get dressed, brush hair, brush teeth.
• Grab a protien drink (be it coffee powder or the premade ones) - make coffee and add supliments to it? 
• Eat Vitamins
• Take snow on a small walk while drinking it
• drop snow off and go to work. / bring her to work with me
• Leave for work 8:40. 
• Go to work 
• do a daily journal
• graditude (what are you thankful for)
• Affirmation reflection/self love prompts
• Daily work load
• Do at least 1 module (OBOD or classwork)
• EAT SNACK or lunch if I can. --> starting in June come home for lunch & walk snow
• When I get home: 4:30-5pm
• let snow out
• call rach for fab 5 work out
• 10 minutes of cleaning  -- do it if you can. 
• take snow on walk
• Eat something 
• Now I can TV/Go hang with friends/dance/school/etc
• let snow out again
• feed cats & everyone gets meds -- 10:30 
• 30 minutes of reading/audiobook
• HOT shower to relax nervous system if i'm too wired. 
• Bed by midnight. 

Weekend:

• Saturday
• up by 10am
• let snow out 
• eat breakfast
• daily activity
• Time for the sacred (reading, poem, meditation, ritual)
• Bed by midnight/1am
• Sunday
• up by 8:45
• let snow out
• dress, brush hair & teeth
• breakfast? 
• leave for church 9:30
• Get home from church (11:30-1) OR go see mom right after
• Daily activity 
• Get home - feed cats & take meds
• take a HOT shower to soothe nervous system
• Do my weekly Goal reflection post. 
• bed by midnight