First Essay: Understanding Discernment - 6 to 8 pages 1500 to 2000 pages
a. How do you understand discernment?
b. What contemplative practices assist you in your discernment process?
Page 23, Richard Rohr reference, Order-Disorder-Reorder; Holmes finding the meaning in suffering. Contemplative practices to listen to one's intuition. Intuition is the gift of Spirit within you - its your spirit tapping into Spirit.
c. What experiences or circumstances are hindrances to your discernment processes? How do you address them?
Self doubt, issues with self worth, and anxiety. I am my own worst enemy when it comes to trusting my intuition. Rosemary on page 6 says that discernment is an innate gift in all people.
d. Discuss two authors that we engaged through readings, videos, or podcasts who influenced your developing understanding --- Rose Mary Dougherty, Discernment: A Path to Spiritual Awakening, and Crisis Contemplation through the use of ancestor work, and the one contemplative article that talked about divination and poetry.
e. In what ways do you assess whether you have made a good discernment?
"““One important sign of confirmation is a peaceful conviction permeating the entire community, including those who dissented, that the decision is the one that will most allow the community to be faithful to God.” Discerning the Spirit in communities is the heading, on https://practicingourfaith.org/practices/discernment/"
I talked earlier in this essay about how pagan discernment is very individual, where as Christian discernment is communal in its purpose and integration, but I want to delve deeper into that. While pagan discernment happens on a individual and personal level that does not mean that what is learned or developed does not have a impact on the greater community or world at large.
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When one looks up the definition of "discernment," they generally find phrases like "sound judgment" or "the ability to make a good decision." I first heard the term as a child attending a Baptist church, and at the time, I didn’t give it much thought. More recently, as an adult, I became reacquainted with the word through online diviners and spiritualists who often encourage their audiences to use their discernment to decide whether a reading or channeled message is meant for them. From context, I assumed it meant "to distinguish between" or, in an interreligious meaning, "to sense the truth of something." I have since learned that, religiously, discernment is originally a Christian concept: the practice of retreating inward to understand the direction or influence of the Holy Spirit in one’s life and community. In Paganism, discernment is essentially how we "figure out" messages from various forms of divinity - whether that be gods, ancestors, spirits, or the Universe/Spirit itself. While discernment is used in decision making, it is not in making the decision, but rather everything that comes before. In this essay I will explore my personal understanding of discernment through a dialogue between the Christian lens with my own pagan approach.
What is Discernment? The Christian vs Pagan Lens
For the sake of this paper, I will be approaching the Christian perspective of discernment in dialogue with my own understanding of it as a pagan. First let me clarify that while I grew up in the Christian church, from about the age of five until I left for good at eighteen, I am not a Christian. Therefore, when I discuss discernment from the Christian perspective, it is from my personal interpretation. I can only speak of its accuracy in regards to how I have come to understand it through class readings and discussions. It is also important to note that Paganism is a umbrella term for a wide variety of beliefs and practices. When I discuss the Pagan approach it is limited to my own personal experiences and the experiences of fellow pagans that I have connected with over the last decade.
Christian discernment is an internal process, how pagans use it runs parallel and perpendicular. My own current working definition of discernment is "the ability to sense, understand or interpret, and integrate messages from divinity through contemplative awareness." The Christian variation is similar: "the ability to sense the presence of God/ the Holy spirit, understanding God's will, or the direction the Spirit is pushing, then integrating that will/direction into one's life through contemplative awareness." These two definitions are similar in that both require contemplative awareness (where a person is spiritually open and present to be able to sense the presence of the divine) and both involve the integrating of whatever insight is given from that awareness. To a Christian it would be a hint of God's will; to a Pagan it would be a message from some form of divinity - be that an ancestor, nature spirit, god or deity, or from the element of Spirit/"The Universe" directly.
But how do they truly differ? For Christians, discernment is a communal practice, where as for pagans it is mostly an individual experience. *practice website* Within Pagan practices, while it is important to talk with others about the messages we are receiving, discernment is primarily a personal journey of sensing the truth of divine reality. For both religions, however, the end goal is roughly the same: to honor or hear the wishes of the divine. The process itself is also different, even if the end goal is the same. Christian discernment is an internal process of feeling the presence of Spirit/God within them, possibly acknowledging external signs that align, and then reflecting on that feeling until they are able to understand a hint or direction of what God wills for them. Once they pick up on the hint, they can explore it more through prayer, contemplative reflection, and discussion amongst their community. Its a inner-to-outer experience, while for many pagans discernment is an outer-to-inner experience.
A pagan may have a nagging feeling from their intuition that they need to pay attention; for some this grows stronger over time until it becomes clear what message is being pushed through and for others its simply a call to contemplative awareness. During this time of awareness they may begin to notice signs from the divine to clarify what the message is. This runs fairly parallel to the Christian experience; however sometimes it operates in reverse for pagans. There are times in which a pagan may experience an external sign from the divine, which then triggers the internal intuitive process. In either case, once the intuitive sense that there is a message or direction is acknowledged, the next step is to interpret its meaning. To do so, a pagan may consult divination, either using tools themselves or through the services of another, to gain insight into what their intuition is telling them. Others may rely strictly on themselves and their own intuition, choosing to meditate and delve within themselves or journey into the otherworld through ecstatic journeying in order to talk with divinity directly.
This is where the two practices come back together in alignment: once the mystic has an understanding or interpretation of their message, they then must integrate that message in their lives. But, before doing so, they need to rely on those around them in order to double-check and test that they have understood the message correctly, or to verify that they received one at all. Essentially they need to ask: "is the call coming from inside the house?" Christians inherently have ready access to community all around them through the options of churches, bible studies, prayer groups, and the larger network other Christians in their local community. Pagans on the other hand may struggle to find a group locally, even more so to find one that follows a similar practice. Many pagans turn to online communities found on organization websites and discussion forums or through social media such as reddit, tumblr, or facebook. Others simply turn to a close circle of friends, family, a therapist, or even trusted coworkers to find council.
Once a person is ready to integrate a message or divine inclination, turning to community acts as a sort of safety net before they make any rash decisions. The final step, after consulting community, is to integrate the message from Spirit and make the decision. For Pagans, this step can be a bit more complicated as we acknowledge that our gods are not all knowing and are capable o making mistakes. This knowledge brings an added pressure. We may not need as much help from our community in understanding the message or direction that divinity is sending us, but we may need more assistance in whether it is best to embrace or resist the guidance we are receiving. *pagan article*. We often need help discerning whether it is actually in our best interest to follow it or if we are resisting due to internal conflict as opposed to genuine intuition. That’s why the communal aspect of discernment can be just as important for Pagans. Even if the divine guidance we receive is personal rather than communal, support from trusted others can help us reflect more honestly on whether we’re truly perceiving the message clearly, or projecting our own biases onto it.
The Process of Discerning: Tools and Obstacles
From here, I will move on to my own personal processes. There are two primary tools that I use when it comes to discernment: contemplative awareness and intuition. These two tools combined allow me go through the process of discernment in a variety of ways.
Second Essay: Final Integration
Reflect in some depth upon an experience of discernment in your life, either personally or as part of a community context or in the process of companioning others. This paper should be 8-10 pages , double-spaced. It should include the following questions:
Explain the situation and context of the discernment: the first connection with brigid and the move to WI. (For the wi trip include quote from holmes about those that see tragedy coming but ignore it)
What processes did you use?
b. What practices were useful in the process?
c. What spiritual, theological or scriptural traditions/authors were useful to the process?
d. What action came about from your discernment or your companioning of others in their discernment?
e. How do you assess the effectiveness of the discernment?
Holmes 138 about thanking god for the darkness. I find the most clarity when in crisis and through suffering - i am most connected.