Gods laugh

I thought I had everything finally figured out.

I’d get my business degree and get a decent job.
I found the person I wanted to spend my life with, the companion to always have and count on, someone who meant I wouldn’t ever be alone again.
We were going to move west... possibly Oregon.
Have children and raise them to be independent warriors who could survive anything.
I’d have a extended family I actually felt accepted by.

We make plans and the gods laugh.

I’m alone. The world is dark and scary again. Where there once was light and warmth is now cold shadow. And I just want to curl into a ball and cry within its shade.

I’m alone.

Again.

I was foolish for ever believing it would end differently.