Bast

Beloved Bast
Mistress of Happiness, Twin of the Sun God.
Slay the evil that afflicts out mind as you slew the Serpent Apep.
With your graceful stealth anticipate the moves of all who perpetrate cruelties
and stay their hands against the children of the light.
Grant us the joy or song, dance,
and ever watch over us in the lonely places in which we must walk.

Collin

Collin is a great guy. He can make just about everyone laugh and has made many a bad day better for me. But sometimes ... he can ruin a good mood.

Today i was goofing off and stole his book, since he wouldn't give one to another girl. it was all good fun and it was cool with it. but he decided to joke with me about something i do not find amusing. Killing kittens. he went into detail about how he would do it (he wouldn't ever actually do it). cutting off their paws, drowning them in cold water, cutting into their noses and pouring alcohol down its throat... making images flash into my mind that make me sick to my stomach.

Naturally i don't want to cry in front of him. i don't want him to know how upset it makes me. He doesn't understand how much i love cats... he knows i like them and to get me roweled up he likes to make really dark jokes like that. today i didn't get roweled up so...he didn't stop. finally i just said "enough" and he did stop. but he didn't know just how upset i was.how upset i am.

Collin is great 9/10 days. but when he does shirt (at school) like that....

he asked me what i would do if he tied a kitten to a sledge hammer and then hit a wall. i told him i would beat him with the sledge hammer.

what would i do if he hung a kitten and carried it on his book bag. i said i would stangle him with it.

what would i do if he cut its eyes out and then  played peekaboo with it? i would cut his eyes out and make him eat them.

and i mean it.
he doesn't mean it. but i do.

cats are sacred to me. i love them. it kills me inside knowing that i have to leave smokey behind when i go to college.

and when people make jokes like that,....

it doesn't help that i saw my aunt's new kitten this morning. named her Hermione. So as he was joking, i saw poor Hermione going through all he was saying.

now my chest hurts. it feels tight.

Medusa

Honestly i feel really bad for Medusa. She was a beautiful priestess of Athena, was pressured/tricked into sleeping with Posiden (basically raped) and was punished for it. She stayed a beautiful woman.... but she was cursed by Athena. Athena had the right to be angry, after all, all she knew was that her temple had been defiled... by one of her priestesses! and with Posiden (they don't get along apparently)!?

The gods fury can be harsh... and posiden didn't do anything (that i know of) in defense of the woman who's life he ruined.

What became of Medusa afterward was terrible. Cursed to be a Gorgon, a monster by definition, and later killed by a Greek hero... i feel bad for her.

Agnes Scott

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHH
MYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

i.am.in.love.

the campus is beautiful. (so green, all year round!)
the campus is really small. (can't get lost! Atlanta on the other hand......huge.)
they have astronomy as a natural science. (2 semesters)
they have self defense and yoga as PE classes... (2 semesters of PE)
they have several different Anthropology majors (social, cultural, medical, religious!)
the library is huge. (and they let people take naps there!)
here is a strict honor code. (no stealing...ever! :D )
the dorms are awesome. (even the freshman ones!!)
Cafeteria food is great! (self serving icecream :3 )
Laundry requirements: by the detergent. the rest is free. (WOW..YESSSSS hehehehe)
Aunt Sarah lives close by. (yay... i can bake  :D )
student teacher ratio: 11:1
set your own exam time!!! (walk in during exam week...say which test you are taking, take it, done!)
black cat week (spirit week) ends in a black cat formal dance!!
visitors are allowed until midnight monday-thursday. can stay the night friday-sunday
smart way of arranging roommates!

just just jus.... ahhhhh <3

meeting ashley...nope.

well my plans for Sunday (meeting Ashley W at the mall) fell though.

and i want to really meet her..like..badly. cuz i have a feeling we'll hit it off :)
i can't do anything this weekend... because i'm leaving Thursday for Georgia and will be coming back Saturday.

i really need to get a job... hat way i can maybe take Ashley W out to the movies?  i could make it a group thing...that way it wouldn't really be a date...unless she wants it to be? Rach, kyle, Ashley D, maybe Scott, Possibly Kasey or Calvin? probably Calvin...someone she knows.

yay weekend...nope.

thank you to my brat sister for not doing the catliter for several days. now my purse has been pissed on. and i have to pay for the library book that was inside it. fml.

and i took the SAT...seemed easier this time, i feel like i did really good.
i come home, in a good mood, and guess what? i get my head bitten off y my mom. fun. well hopefully i can just talk to Ashley (D or W idc which one..hopefully W)

i'm trying to Meet Ashley W tomorrow....at the mall...(with Ashley D and Scott). She invited me to stay the night and said we could watch phantom of the opera and eat junk food. ...so.....tempting.....goooooooooooosh. mom would never let me since i'm interested in her.

halloween

I really think that there should be a role playing night club. A place where you can shed your life here and take on the role od someone or something else... get to dance and interact with others...

tonight for halloween I was poison ivy (from batman) and my friends (Ashley D and her bf Scott) were Harley Quinn and the jocker. Scott and I, we get along great, but the entire night we acted like we couldn't stand eachother, we fough over Ashley and it was so much fun.

Poison Ivy and Harley are bffs and the joker and ivy don't get along. Jaker loves harley but doesn't show it... but h does get jealous xD Scott played his role perfectly. I got to play and have fun and be someone else for a whole 2 hours. I loved it. Wish I could do it more often!!

it was different from improve acting...it was role playing. I wish I could do it all the time. I've tried it online... but its really not the same. I wish there was a role play club.... that was like a calm bar in the day...and night/dance club at night. Always role play all the time. I would work there and hang out there in my free time. Imagine the story ideas!! all the characters that people can come up with!! I could be my own person and nteratc with them all...like being in my own book only I don't control the other people...makig it more fascinting!

Over all I made out with a plastic baggie full of laffy taffy, a few peieces of chocolate I ate, a funny video, several picture, lots of laughs and a good mood. We only trick or treated for about an hour and a half, but getting ready with ashley and scott took about 2 nhours and was a blast! <3

so glad I got to do this :3

I sadly didn't get to eat momma's halloween diner :( and she didn't get to see me in my costume, but I made sure to take pictures to show her and mary. :)