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going crazy

i'm going crazy.

i'm too irritated to be sill and what do i have o do?

busy work.

i hate busy work.

it doesn't keep me focused, it just makes me MORE irritated.

i need to get out of here. i'm, going to explode.

Update

So... my wisdom teeth are coming out! F*CK YEAH!

now that was the good news. here's the bad.

today is like a figgin monday.

shall i count the ways?

• Pipes are frozen - no water in the house
• The day i'm scheduled to have my teeth removed? is the day hat we leave for the winter retreat with Racheal's youth group.
• Mom might not re-schedule the surgery, meaning my aunt payed over 300$ for nothing.
• if she does: i have to wait longer to get my friggin teeth out!
• The internet wasn't working this morning meaning i wasn't able to email my english project i've been woking on to my school email. 
• This means i can't wok on it in school.
• It is due friday. 
• I still have a knot in my shoulder muscle. 

fun. 

letter FROM woolard

woolard read the letter...and wrote me one back.

he basically says that he sees me a sa daughter that he never had and that if he did have a daughter like me he would be a very proud dad.

he says he is VERY proud of me and loves that i can love just about everyone unconditionally.

and he said that as a dad, and from someone in touch with his dad, that i won't be leaving him behind and that i can always call him no matter what and at anytime.

and he signed it:

"your dad,
phil"

...
...
...
...

i burst into tears in the middle of spanish.

i love him so much. <3

growing on me

alright so the hair cut is growing on me. so far it has been called
sexy
cute
beautiful
and sassy.

i like that.

plus my mom added in highlights. i now have a lot of light brown streakes running though my hair, but it looks natural. i like it.

:)

hair cut

alright so i got my hair cut.... i wanted a pixie cut and ended up with a very short swing bob type thing... it looks good... i like it. but i still want my pixie.... :/

what i showed him:

what i got

introducing myself.

In a FB page called "fierce pagan women" i gave an intro about myself. :)

i know i kinda gave a little intro not too long ago, but i really want to let you wonderful ladies know who i am. 

Hi, i'm Lisa. I'm a proud eclectic pagan and i'm a lesbian. I have type 2 depressive bipolar, but i have been on medication for about 3 years now 

i was raised christian and began to discover my own spiritual beliefs in the 7th grade... but because christianity likes to prreach humility and that they are below their god and such, i struggle with my self esteem. Since finding my pagan path i have been able to get rid of my self loathing (i realized the goddess is within me and since i can't hate her, i couldn't hate myself  ). I realized that i do have power inside of me and at first (before my mom knew i was pagan) my self discovery was amazing. I had never felt so amazing. I could feel the energy and presence of the elements and gods when i called a sacred circle and i felt ...loved.

I discovered that Bast was looking out for me and i was able to branch out and find which gods i felt closest too, with her strength to back me up. When my mom found out about me she forbid me to do anything other than pray...which has been hard. i feel like i am being kept from a family member... i still wish to do circles, simply so that i can feel the energy and saftey and love.

but its because i was given that brief time to feel it that i am ablke to be strong about myself. the self doubt has again started to haunt me, and i struggle with that biut i find that the more i talk about what i believe and the more people ni meet that support me the more i belief in myself.... this is one thing that being part of this group has helped me with 

i believe that i was an elf in my past life, and sometimes i really stuggle with being human. a lot. haha

i'm loving and one of the sweetest and kindest people that anyone will ever meet. but i have a fierce protective ness and temper that reminds me that i can be strong when i need to. I use to think this fiercness inside of me was bad, but being part of this goup has helped with that as well. So has Bast... she has shown me that a woman is both fierce and gentle... kind and motherly, but fierce and ptoective.

i love you ladies and thank you  -hug- i trust you all so much and am glad i am part of this group 

sorry this was long