i have no motivation to do this crap….
quadratic formula in physics. hard meet hard. fun….
shoot me.
Thursday, March 6, 2014
wth
wth. just….wth.
i have no motivation to do this crap….
quadratic formula in physics. hard meet hard. fun….
shoot me.
i have no motivation to do this crap….
quadratic formula in physics. hard meet hard. fun….
shoot me.
money
money…
i need about $500 dollars if i just take in my computer screen to get repaired to BestBuy…. but if i buy the computer screen on my own and bring it in, i could probably get it replaced for about $150.
https://hrweb.foodlion.com/ATS/ATS/JobBoard/searchjobs.aspx?__SVRTRID=3855B5AE-F422-41A9-BAD4-2728B8C94E10
aaaaand… i don't have enough money to do half of it.
i don't have money for my computer.
i don't have enough money to pay for a bus ticket (round trip) if i want to have enough to reserve my seat…
i just can't afford to go. Mary (my aunt) my be willing to pay for me, but i know she really shouldn't do it because she is in the same boat as i am… jobless and running out of money.
Even though Coach Greg (Agnes Scott Tennis Coach) said i would have a ride form the bus station to the school (meaning i wouldn't need to bring taxi money) i don't think i could go.
… and i was so excited..
i could seriously cry right now.
gods i hate money.
its only brings stress and bitterness when you don't have enough of it, and it brings greed and pollutes the mind of people that have too much of it.
i know at least that is how i've seen it work. all stress and bitterness. Money can buy luxuries, sure, but it always turns sour.
its like rumpelstilsken said in OUAT "everything comes with a price"
i need about $500 dollars if i just take in my computer screen to get repaired to BestBuy…. but if i buy the computer screen on my own and bring it in, i could probably get it replaced for about $150.
- so anywhere from $200-$500 for my computer
- $350 for Agnes reservation
- at least $180 to get to agnes for the achievement weekend
I really need that job… The store isn't open yet, but i was hoping they would start bring early so we could help set up and stuff….. but who knows when they will even look at the applications?
applications to do at home (because i need resume)
https://hrweb.foodlion.com/ATS/ATS/JobBoard/searchjobs.aspx?__SVRTRID=3855B5AE-F422-41A9-BAD4-2728B8C94E10
aaaaand… i don't have enough money to do half of it.
i don't have money for my computer.
i don't have enough money to pay for a bus ticket (round trip) if i want to have enough to reserve my seat…
i just can't afford to go. Mary (my aunt) my be willing to pay for me, but i know she really shouldn't do it because she is in the same boat as i am… jobless and running out of money.
Even though Coach Greg (Agnes Scott Tennis Coach) said i would have a ride form the bus station to the school (meaning i wouldn't need to bring taxi money) i don't think i could go.
… and i was so excited..
i could seriously cry right now.
gods i hate money.
its only brings stress and bitterness when you don't have enough of it, and it brings greed and pollutes the mind of people that have too much of it.
i know at least that is how i've seen it work. all stress and bitterness. Money can buy luxuries, sure, but it always turns sour.
its like rumpelstilsken said in OUAT "everything comes with a price"
make up your mind
Life needs to make up its mind.
the weather… it goes from 70 one day to 20 the next; Make up your mind!
life….one day its for Agnes Scott, then next its getting in the way.
parent…. just fucking talk to each other and make up your mind!
so my aunt mary lost her job, but is still trying to pay for stuff for us.
My trip to Agnes (for the acheivment weekend) via bus will cost at least $180… and mary wants to pay for it.
Mom says i have to pay for it because Mary doesn't have a job.
Then mary says she'll pay for it.
ad if i tell mom that i get yelled at.
(same thing with Caras fucking shoes… mary says she'll buy them but mom says she'll buy them. are they both going to buy cars shoes? THEY NEED TO FUCKING COMMUNICATE)
BY THE GODS WILL EVERYONE PLEASE JUST MAKE UP THIR FUCKING MIND!?
the weather… it goes from 70 one day to 20 the next; Make up your mind!
life….one day its for Agnes Scott, then next its getting in the way.
parent…. just fucking talk to each other and make up your mind!
so my aunt mary lost her job, but is still trying to pay for stuff for us.
My trip to Agnes (for the acheivment weekend) via bus will cost at least $180… and mary wants to pay for it.
Mom says i have to pay for it because Mary doesn't have a job.
Then mary says she'll pay for it.
ad if i tell mom that i get yelled at.
(same thing with Caras fucking shoes… mary says she'll buy them but mom says she'll buy them. are they both going to buy cars shoes? THEY NEED TO FUCKING COMMUNICATE)
BY THE GODS WILL EVERYONE PLEASE JUST MAKE UP THIR FUCKING MIND!?
Monday, March 3, 2014
otherkin...yes..again. i'm weird. i know.
so otherkin.
yes yes i know.... i'm back on that AGAIN.....
(i feel like i've said that before.... >.> ... <.< .... i probably have)
So i've gone through this list several times and now i'm going through it again because i think as i'm getting older and learning things are popping up. soo here we ago aaaaaaaagaaaaain....
You might be Otherkin if...
Physical Characteristics and Remnants of Former Bodies/Lives
You feel a lot older than your grandmother and cannot explain why.
You miss a place, yet cannot explain where it is. (ALL THE FRICKIN TIME)
You find it very frustrating that you can't breathe under water or fly.
You have "phantom" body parts (such as wings or a tail) that you can feel move, and that sometimes become really annoying with clothes, or cause pain when "slept on".
You modify (or wear special) clothing or sit/stand/walk differently to accomodate physical characteristics your waking body doesn't have - or you don’t even realize you’re making such accomodations until someone else points out that you are.
Your doctor can’t figure out how you damaged your back to start with, but you don’t really want to tell hir it’s a battle injury from a previous life.
Transsexuals often want sex-change operations. You want SPECIES-change operations.
You are always the first one to hear something in the distance (ie: approaching car, person, storm...).
You have either more allergies than normal folks, possibly including odd ones like metals (iron and alloys, silver, gold, copper); stones (hematite, malachite, pyrite); certain herbs; or other substances not commonly considered allergenic, or you have a dragon's constitution and have less allergies than normal folks, and are not prone to disease (you never had the flu, etc.).
You have naturally dilated pupils, or see very well in the dark.
You have bright green or violet eyes, or eyes with multiple colours in them, or that change color.
Some part of your body changes shape and/or color.
The "you" you see in the mirror and the physical shell experienced by other people are entirely different entities.
You find yourself unable to develop an addiction - after a certain point, certain substances stop affecting you entirely. This is most bothersome when it's much-needed prescription medication.
Personality Characteristics, Perceptions and Habits
You don't consider yourself really human.(physically i am... hopelessly human...)
Your creativity (of whatever persuasion) consumes you to the point of eccentricity. Dance, music, art, and beauty in general are not luxuries, peripheral experiences or mere entertainment, but physical needs.
You know, see, and feel a deeper existence than the visible world around us. (sometimes i feel it... but very rarely)
The woods, glens, etc. speak to you and call you to come join them. (this has happened...)
You have a deeper understanding of the cycle of life and death than many people do.
Most people find their inner children. You found your inner puppy or hatchling.
You remember your dreams with more detail, clarity and relevance than your waking moments.
Linear thought is a problem, and linear time an even greater one. (Gods yes...)
The books that speak the greatest Truths to you are found in the Fantasy/SF section.
Your best friends are nymphs, pixies, and fairies. (- i wish)
You think trees or holes in the ground are a great places to live.
. You find it hard to explain to mundanes that there really IS a dragon sitting on your pencil case and she’s been talking to you all through math and English.
You can sleep on the floor, ground or a wood bed, but not a metal frame bed.
You collect little 'oddities' that don't match anything else you own. Going to an antique store is like going to an adoption agency. You actually own more knick-knacks and stuff than the antique store down the street.
No religion seems to fit you, no matter which one you try. (um...pagan lol)
. You are the definition of "weird". (according to some people...)
You love to hide in natural places when emotionally or otherwise upset.
You can actually speak Tolkien Elvish, and it feels like your mother tongue.
You don’t match your "real" age in looks, thoughts, words, wisdom, etc.
The weather and your moods have more than a coincidental link.
You write such good stories 'cause they aren’t stories... it’s all real.
You feel you’d have done much better a few hundred years back. Living History not only describes your favorite activity, it describes you.
You have an obesession with honor most people just don’t understand.
. You've been in or almost caused a car accident because you were distracted by the sunset, sunrise, rainbow, moon, stars, lightning, and/or interesting cloud formations. (when i end up driving? yeah i can see this happening...)
You bore very easily.
. You get downright pissed when people harm animals or plants or destroy the environment.
As a child you always knew where to find the berries in the woods.
. You are fascinated with language, linguistics, theology, anthropology, slang, subculture and the madness of crowds.
You see through spiritual charlatans like they were made of glass.
.Your personality changes outright depending on the clothing you wear. That includes a mixed personality if you mix two kinds of clothing.
. You prefer silver rather to gold, bronze, etc.
Interactions With "the Mundanes"
Human language just isn't enough to FULLY convey what you are trying to say. You feel telepathy, empathy, and visual sendings (should) make up most of your languge and you often tend to use these more than spoken words, much to the dismay of those around you.
. Your friends and family have always thought of you as, shall we say, "different."
You never quite see things from the same point of view as your mundane friends. They never get your sense of humour.
Mundanes think you are eccentric, very intelligent or crazy, but you think that you are normal and they are the ones who are odd.
Your friend's cat, who hates EVERYONE including your friend, loves you.
People either love you or hate you and you cannot figure out why.
Animals and trees are better friends to you than most mundanes.
You feel horrible if you have to act human, and weird things happen to you when you try.
10. When you haven’t slept for a few nights running, haven’t eaten, don’t feel pain, etc., the standard explanation from your friends is "but we all know you’re not human..."
...before you've even told them what you really are.
You attract the strangest people. They seem to congregate around you as if attracted by some pheremone only they can perceive.
People's professed personalities and beliefs cause you to break out in peals of laughter at socially inappropriate times.
People often ask you if you are on drugs.
Hospitals, most schools, government buildings, and large, impersonal corporations either depress you to the point of tears or trigger panic attacks.
Small children come up to you and hug you for no apparent reason.
Magic, Psi and Strange Occurrences
You think nothing of adjusting your energy to a "peace" signature to calm down someone who's agitated. (Fun with glamour, folks!)
When you don't want to be noticed, you can be wearing three-inch spikes and a mohawk, and people walk past you, oblivious.
Your dreams bleed over into mundane reality.
You catch glimpses of an alternate reality superimposed or side-by-side with mundane reality. When you're half asleep and half awake, the worlds tend to blur and you can see numerous realities existing at once. (i can't quite see the other world... but this one seems to kind of.... blur in with somethign else... very shadowy? sooo hard to explain...)
Your wishes affect mundane reality in a tangible way.
Too many synchronicities happen to you to pass them all off as coincidence. (ehhh once or twice maybe?)
Small children run up to you and point out the nice lady with pointy ears or the big furry man or the dragon.
Grown people nervously ask you if you've ever thought of yourself as "elf-like" or "dragon-like," or just get positively freaked out being near you.
You "bleed over" in pictures (characteristics visible in your "other form" show up on the film).
You dream prophetically. (not major traumatic stuff... but i have been through scenarios and remembered dreaming about them to such a detail i knew what was going to happen next)
11. When really stressed/relaxed/magickal you speak in a foreign unknown language or make animal noises.
People are spooked when you walked up behind them and they never heard you coming. You move so silently that you can even sneak up on a police dog without it noticing you.
Energy work seems so natural for you that even as a beginner you baffle most veteran magic users. You can't understand why people need all those props to do anything magical, when it's so much simpler to just reach and change something. You're unable to grasp that there are people who can't feel magical flows, no matter how often you hear otherwise.
You've met someone you instantly knew from dreams you’ve been having since you were five.
From time to time really strange things happen, like you get cut and your blood falls on a white rose and it turns red, and within a month the entire rose bush has deep red flowers.
You sense spirits residing within rocks, trees, waters, buildings, mechanical objects, etc., and you converse with them regularly.
You didn't know that not everyone did lucid dreaming (astral projection, hands-on healing, aura sight, telepathy, precognition...) until you read about it.
You "smell" what kind of mood the people around you are in. (not smell... but... i can usually tell)
Computers often malfunction, act up, and do lots of unusual things in your presence, causing your coworkers to ask you to "stand over there, please" and causing your company's resident computer tech many hours of heartache.
Sometimes when you see or meet a stranger you see a flash of their True Nature without even trying. (i get vibes... does that count? lol)
When they unearth an ancient earth artifact that "no one" knows about you not only find that you recognize it, but also that you had been telling your friends about it for the last few years.
You don't just dream, you go planet-hopping.
Time always does weird things around you.
. Your friends use you as the resident antenna for the radio, for it always receives better sound when you stand in front of it.
You cannot wear watches or other timepieces on your person. If you do, they are rendered completely useless within days and become blithering idiots that have no idea what time it really is anymore.
. You can hear the stars singing.
All of your best friends/lovers/etc. awaken to otherkin natures within a few months of meeting you.
You can't ever remember the color of someone's eyes, but you can describe their aura/astral form in detail. (- i wish)
yes yes i know.... i'm back on that AGAIN.....
(i feel like i've said that before.... >.> ... <.< .... i probably have)
So i've gone through this list several times and now i'm going through it again because i think as i'm getting older and learning things are popping up. soo here we ago aaaaaaaagaaaaain....
You might be Otherkin if...
Physical Characteristics and Remnants of Former Bodies/Lives
You feel a lot older than your grandmother and cannot explain why.
You miss a place, yet cannot explain where it is. (ALL THE FRICKIN TIME)
You find it very frustrating that you can't breathe under water or fly.
You have "phantom" body parts (such as wings or a tail) that you can feel move, and that sometimes become really annoying with clothes, or cause pain when "slept on".
You modify (or wear special) clothing or sit/stand/walk differently to accomodate physical characteristics your waking body doesn't have - or you don’t even realize you’re making such accomodations until someone else points out that you are.
Your doctor can’t figure out how you damaged your back to start with, but you don’t really want to tell hir it’s a battle injury from a previous life.
Transsexuals often want sex-change operations. You want SPECIES-change operations.
You are always the first one to hear something in the distance (ie: approaching car, person, storm...).
You have either more allergies than normal folks, possibly including odd ones like metals (iron and alloys, silver, gold, copper); stones (hematite, malachite, pyrite); certain herbs; or other substances not commonly considered allergenic, or you have a dragon's constitution and have less allergies than normal folks, and are not prone to disease (you never had the flu, etc.).
You have naturally dilated pupils, or see very well in the dark.
You have bright green or violet eyes, or eyes with multiple colours in them, or that change color.
Some part of your body changes shape and/or color.
The "you" you see in the mirror and the physical shell experienced by other people are entirely different entities.
You find yourself unable to develop an addiction - after a certain point, certain substances stop affecting you entirely. This is most bothersome when it's much-needed prescription medication.
Personality Characteristics, Perceptions and Habits
You don't consider yourself really human.(physically i am... hopelessly human...)
Your creativity (of whatever persuasion) consumes you to the point of eccentricity. Dance, music, art, and beauty in general are not luxuries, peripheral experiences or mere entertainment, but physical needs.
You know, see, and feel a deeper existence than the visible world around us. (sometimes i feel it... but very rarely)
The woods, glens, etc. speak to you and call you to come join them. (this has happened...)
You have a deeper understanding of the cycle of life and death than many people do.
Most people find their inner children. You found your inner puppy or hatchling.
You remember your dreams with more detail, clarity and relevance than your waking moments.
Linear thought is a problem, and linear time an even greater one. (Gods yes...)
The books that speak the greatest Truths to you are found in the Fantasy/SF section.
Your best friends are nymphs, pixies, and fairies. (- i wish)
You think trees or holes in the ground are a great places to live.
. You find it hard to explain to mundanes that there really IS a dragon sitting on your pencil case and she’s been talking to you all through math and English.
You can sleep on the floor, ground or a wood bed, but not a metal frame bed.
You collect little 'oddities' that don't match anything else you own. Going to an antique store is like going to an adoption agency. You actually own more knick-knacks and stuff than the antique store down the street.
No religion seems to fit you, no matter which one you try. (um...pagan lol)
. You are the definition of "weird". (according to some people...)
You love to hide in natural places when emotionally or otherwise upset.
You can actually speak Tolkien Elvish, and it feels like your mother tongue.
You don’t match your "real" age in looks, thoughts, words, wisdom, etc.
The weather and your moods have more than a coincidental link.
You write such good stories 'cause they aren’t stories... it’s all real.
You feel you’d have done much better a few hundred years back. Living History not only describes your favorite activity, it describes you.
You have an obesession with honor most people just don’t understand.
. You've been in or almost caused a car accident because you were distracted by the sunset, sunrise, rainbow, moon, stars, lightning, and/or interesting cloud formations. (when i end up driving? yeah i can see this happening...)
You bore very easily.
. You get downright pissed when people harm animals or plants or destroy the environment.
As a child you always knew where to find the berries in the woods.
. You are fascinated with language, linguistics, theology, anthropology, slang, subculture and the madness of crowds.
You see through spiritual charlatans like they were made of glass.
.Your personality changes outright depending on the clothing you wear. That includes a mixed personality if you mix two kinds of clothing.
. You prefer silver rather to gold, bronze, etc.
Interactions With "the Mundanes"
Human language just isn't enough to FULLY convey what you are trying to say. You feel telepathy, empathy, and visual sendings (should) make up most of your languge and you often tend to use these more than spoken words, much to the dismay of those around you.
. Your friends and family have always thought of you as, shall we say, "different."
You never quite see things from the same point of view as your mundane friends. They never get your sense of humour.
Mundanes think you are eccentric, very intelligent or crazy, but you think that you are normal and they are the ones who are odd.
Your friend's cat, who hates EVERYONE including your friend, loves you.
People either love you or hate you and you cannot figure out why.
Animals and trees are better friends to you than most mundanes.
You feel horrible if you have to act human, and weird things happen to you when you try.
10. When you haven’t slept for a few nights running, haven’t eaten, don’t feel pain, etc., the standard explanation from your friends is "but we all know you’re not human..."
...before you've even told them what you really are.
You attract the strangest people. They seem to congregate around you as if attracted by some pheremone only they can perceive.
People's professed personalities and beliefs cause you to break out in peals of laughter at socially inappropriate times.
People often ask you if you are on drugs.
Hospitals, most schools, government buildings, and large, impersonal corporations either depress you to the point of tears or trigger panic attacks.
Small children come up to you and hug you for no apparent reason.
Magic, Psi and Strange Occurrences
You think nothing of adjusting your energy to a "peace" signature to calm down someone who's agitated. (Fun with glamour, folks!)
When you don't want to be noticed, you can be wearing three-inch spikes and a mohawk, and people walk past you, oblivious.
Your dreams bleed over into mundane reality.
You catch glimpses of an alternate reality superimposed or side-by-side with mundane reality. When you're half asleep and half awake, the worlds tend to blur and you can see numerous realities existing at once. (i can't quite see the other world... but this one seems to kind of.... blur in with somethign else... very shadowy? sooo hard to explain...)
Your wishes affect mundane reality in a tangible way.
Too many synchronicities happen to you to pass them all off as coincidence. (ehhh once or twice maybe?)
Small children run up to you and point out the nice lady with pointy ears or the big furry man or the dragon.
Grown people nervously ask you if you've ever thought of yourself as "elf-like" or "dragon-like," or just get positively freaked out being near you.
You "bleed over" in pictures (characteristics visible in your "other form" show up on the film).
You dream prophetically. (not major traumatic stuff... but i have been through scenarios and remembered dreaming about them to such a detail i knew what was going to happen next)
11. When really stressed/relaxed/magickal you speak in a foreign unknown language or make animal noises.
People are spooked when you walked up behind them and they never heard you coming. You move so silently that you can even sneak up on a police dog without it noticing you.
Energy work seems so natural for you that even as a beginner you baffle most veteran magic users. You can't understand why people need all those props to do anything magical, when it's so much simpler to just reach and change something. You're unable to grasp that there are people who can't feel magical flows, no matter how often you hear otherwise.
You've met someone you instantly knew from dreams you’ve been having since you were five.
From time to time really strange things happen, like you get cut and your blood falls on a white rose and it turns red, and within a month the entire rose bush has deep red flowers.
You sense spirits residing within rocks, trees, waters, buildings, mechanical objects, etc., and you converse with them regularly.
You didn't know that not everyone did lucid dreaming (astral projection, hands-on healing, aura sight, telepathy, precognition...) until you read about it.
You "smell" what kind of mood the people around you are in. (not smell... but... i can usually tell)
Computers often malfunction, act up, and do lots of unusual things in your presence, causing your coworkers to ask you to "stand over there, please" and causing your company's resident computer tech many hours of heartache.
Sometimes when you see or meet a stranger you see a flash of their True Nature without even trying. (i get vibes... does that count? lol)
When they unearth an ancient earth artifact that "no one" knows about you not only find that you recognize it, but also that you had been telling your friends about it for the last few years.
You don't just dream, you go planet-hopping.
Time always does weird things around you.
. Your friends use you as the resident antenna for the radio, for it always receives better sound when you stand in front of it.
You cannot wear watches or other timepieces on your person. If you do, they are rendered completely useless within days and become blithering idiots that have no idea what time it really is anymore.
. You can hear the stars singing.
All of your best friends/lovers/etc. awaken to otherkin natures within a few months of meeting you.
You can't ever remember the color of someone's eyes, but you can describe their aura/astral form in detail. (- i wish)
Pros and Cons
so... just because i need to focus my mind i'm going to make a list.
of what? pros and cons about going Agnes Scott.
Pros
of what? pros and cons about going Agnes Scott.
Pros
- I will be out of the house
- I will be able to reconnect with myself
- i will find out who i really am without the influence of my mother.
- i will develop into a stronger person
- new experiences
- tennis.
- smaller campus
- more culturally diverse
- transit station = ok not to have a car at first
- all women = feel more supported
- all women = more chances at getting a girlfriend
- daughters of gia. This is a big one.... i feel so alone here it isn't funny... spiritually i don't have anyone i can learn from (Mrs. Herrera is more of a life teacher... not so much a spiritual teacher anymore)
- more volunteer opportunities
- liberal arts = YOGA and SELF DEFENSE as PE's!!! :D
- Gay friendly
- beautiful campus
- smaller classes
- honor system/code
- they have a survey type thing to help get you a compatible roommate
- DORMS ARE KICK ASS
- they have a nice library
plus i feel like i will be able to make friends faster there... idk. i know at ECU i'll make friends fast, but i feel like i'm more likely to meet the kind of people i myself want to become at Agnes.
Cons
- expensive out the wah-zoo. *crosses fingers* PLEEEEEEEEAAAAAASE let there be ots of financial aid help.
- i won't know ANYONE there. me = shy
- won't have Racheal to hide behind... which is GOOD... but scary.
- no smokey.
- yeah.... not having Smokey (my familiar/cat) is really going to be hard...... like... i'm almost in tears thinking about it.....
- what if i'm just a wanna be and they all can tell and i stick out like a sore thumb? >.< it could be just like madison's friends all over again....
- no kitchens in the dorms D:
- no smokey.
what am i going to do without smokey?
for anyone who doesn't know:
smokey is the cat that i consider my familiar. i love him just as much as i love my twin sister.
he helps me sleep.
he is a comfort.
i just feel so attatched to him its not even funny.
He has protected me (spiritually and from nightmares)
playing with him reduces my stress.
smelling him helps me calm down if i'm panicking.
i am so used to him i know pretty much what he wants whenever he cries at night.
although a lot of my scars are from him (as any cat person can relate...) he reduces my physical pain. no lie.
When he's with me i feel like whatever is happenening will eventually be OK.
I think my primary spirit guide sometimes watches over me through him. yeah that sounds weird... but C'est la vie
Agnes Tennis
so how about...
The Agnes Scott Tennis coach called me.
i was so excited i about peed myself xD
its been too long since i got to talk about tennis.
i need help.
no. really.
haha!
any way, so we talked about tennis and he said he looked at my application and said that i would definitley fit in there :3
plus he was bragging about his team now, how some girls had never played before this year and how well they were doing: let me tell you... he has every right to brag!
i am so excited... i really want to work with him!
on a side note?
he's gay. which means no awkward "hey...so...yeah... i'm a lesbian" conversation! XD
i mean... i still don't know how woolard feels about it... i wouldn't be surprised if he has purposefully not remembered or heard about it.
i REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEALLY want to work with The coach at Agnes.... i mean i'm not the best right now at tennis... but i think working with him could make me GREAT!
gack.
i wanna play now.
oh and let me tell you!
if i had been playing tennis this whole time... i would NEVER have gotten as stressed and panicked and desperate and just a;sldkfjghgjfkdla;s about college stuff.
Tennis is therapeutic.
the weather needs to warm up so i can play again :P
goodness its been too long... i am waay too excited about this >.<
The Agnes Scott Tennis coach called me.
i was so excited i about peed myself xD
its been too long since i got to talk about tennis.
i need help.
no. really.
haha!
any way, so we talked about tennis and he said he looked at my application and said that i would definitley fit in there :3
plus he was bragging about his team now, how some girls had never played before this year and how well they were doing: let me tell you... he has every right to brag!
i am so excited... i really want to work with him!
on a side note?
he's gay. which means no awkward "hey...so...yeah... i'm a lesbian" conversation! XD
i mean... i still don't know how woolard feels about it... i wouldn't be surprised if he has purposefully not remembered or heard about it.
i REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEALLY want to work with The coach at Agnes.... i mean i'm not the best right now at tennis... but i think working with him could make me GREAT!
gack.
i wanna play now.
oh and let me tell you!
if i had been playing tennis this whole time... i would NEVER have gotten as stressed and panicked and desperate and just a;sldkfjghgjfkdla;s about college stuff.
Tennis is therapeutic.
the weather needs to warm up so i can play again :P
goodness its been too long... i am waay too excited about this >.<
Sunday, March 2, 2014
great day!
so...
went to hang out with a girl :3
named Mary.
wow.
just.......wow.
she is so much fun!
AAAAND she is kind of nerdy like me :3 interested in Harry potter and she likes Dr. Who which i have been meaning to watch.
She showed me her dorm, and gave me a tour of the campus :)
she bought me lunch, coffee, and dinner (which i feel bad that i couldn't help out.... if i get this job i'm applying for then i can next time!).
okay get this:
she is kind of new age too! i swear when she mentioned spirit guides and finding out what they are and such - i thought i was going to burst with excitement.
(for those of you who don't know - that kind of thing is what scared away my first girlfriend)
she likes tea and coffee <3 - YES!
and she is a writer!! :D
i think she liked my short story: "a day in paradise"
and she says she will read my other one: Angel.
oh and? she speaks German.
i'm not going to lie: she made German sound sexy. yeah...GERMAN sounded sexy.
all she did was say some of the numbers and i swear it sounded seductive! haha
so she was telling a story about how a girl had pushed her up against a wall and kissed her and i couldn't help but think "i wouldn't mind if you pushed me up against a wall and kissed me..." >.< i swear..oh my goodness.
anyway i had a blast and really want to hang out with her again :) and from what i could tell, she obviously wants to hang out with me again too :)
she talked about inciting me to a party or to hang out with her and some friends... i wouldn't mind going although i don't think i would do any drinking (medication) or any weed (not sure if i'm ready to try it... still think i would like it to much and become mentally addicted) but i wouldn't be against hanging out with er and her friends while they did stuff - i just wouldn't participate :P
we also talked about watching some stuff, like Phantom of the opera (the recorded play - not the movie), Peter Pan, and Dr. Who.
and i almost wanted to day " yeah! Sure - its a date."
hm.... but idk. too soon?
omg... i would NOT mind spending the day cuddling up with her and watching movies/shows C:
and her pictures don't do her justice! but here is a picture none the less:
went to hang out with a girl :3
named Mary.
wow.
just.......wow.
she is so much fun!
AAAAND she is kind of nerdy like me :3 interested in Harry potter and she likes Dr. Who which i have been meaning to watch.
She showed me her dorm, and gave me a tour of the campus :)
she bought me lunch, coffee, and dinner (which i feel bad that i couldn't help out.... if i get this job i'm applying for then i can next time!).
okay get this:
she is kind of new age too! i swear when she mentioned spirit guides and finding out what they are and such - i thought i was going to burst with excitement.
(for those of you who don't know - that kind of thing is what scared away my first girlfriend)
she likes tea and coffee <3 - YES!
and she is a writer!! :D
i think she liked my short story: "a day in paradise"
and she says she will read my other one: Angel.
oh and? she speaks German.
i'm not going to lie: she made German sound sexy. yeah...GERMAN sounded sexy.
all she did was say some of the numbers and i swear it sounded seductive! haha
so she was telling a story about how a girl had pushed her up against a wall and kissed her and i couldn't help but think "i wouldn't mind if you pushed me up against a wall and kissed me..." >.< i swear..oh my goodness.
anyway i had a blast and really want to hang out with her again :) and from what i could tell, she obviously wants to hang out with me again too :)
she talked about inciting me to a party or to hang out with her and some friends... i wouldn't mind going although i don't think i would do any drinking (medication) or any weed (not sure if i'm ready to try it... still think i would like it to much and become mentally addicted) but i wouldn't be against hanging out with er and her friends while they did stuff - i just wouldn't participate :P
we also talked about watching some stuff, like Phantom of the opera (the recorded play - not the movie), Peter Pan, and Dr. Who.
and i almost wanted to day " yeah! Sure - its a date."
hm.... but idk. too soon?
omg... i would NOT mind spending the day cuddling up with her and watching movies/shows C:
and her pictures don't do her justice! but here is a picture none the less:
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