miss lady spiritguide

okay so remember when the psychic tarrot card reader said that i had a female spirit guide trying to talk to me, that i thought she was male and yadda yadda... i thought she was talking about...SG...well now i have figured somethign out.

i just used my pendulum, and who should appear but my spirit guideS.

SG and another....


miss lady spirit guide.

now how to proceed? I don't know much about her.... other than the fact that we were related in another life. and that she is OK with me blogging about her and calling her miss lady.

i need to find a signal for her. SG and i have a signal that lets me know if someone is claiming to channel him, if they are genuinely channeling him or not. i need to ocme up with one for her.

and as i thought: she is NOT SG.

there are so many things i could ask her...

were you my mother?
grandmother?
my aunt?
my sister?
my daughter?
my cousin?

what is your name?


and how am i going to contact her?
with SG i have writing.... although i havn't done it in a LONG time... i'm probably REALLY rusty.
sorry...SG... (he's not mad)

i remember that i could feel him in my chest.... how he is feeling when we were connected. Right now i feel like he is connected to me.

i wonder if the writing thing works with tpyping too?

i'm feeling a yes.... xD

but but but!!

miss lady.

how am i going to feel her?
how am i going to contact her?

with SG i could physically feel him. he was heat and tingley energy.

is she the cold energy female i felt a while ago?
comforting, but cool to the touch.

that would kind of be poetic.

SG - male - warm energy
ML - female - cool energy

(ML = miss lady)


WOAH.

what is ML is the lady i've seen in my house.... like.....when i was dancing i could have sworn for a millisecond that i saw this beautiful woman in the kitchen where i was spinning. Barely clothed, darker skin color.... thick black hair. she made me think of a native...something. idk if native american, but something along those lines.


that would be crazy...because i actually SAW her in full...like not mist  (like with SG)
 but in FULL, 3-D, in person, form.

but idk if that is her.

that could have been my eyes playing tricks on me.

and i'm not jumping to conclusions.

but i do need to connect with her.
get to know her.
form a bond with her the same way i did with SG.

maybe i should do a card reading about her?

idk. i'm not very accurate when doing something with on myself of my own spirit guides.

i'll ask brandon. or Maude.

Clubbing?

Okay so. How is clubbing supposed to help me find someone? "Stop trying to meet someone from online".... 

That's the best place to talk? At clubs the music is too loud and it's too crowded. If I go to a club it's to dance. Not to try to find a potential partner.

What are they going to see my mad-woman dancing and think?

Idk. Easy for her to say. She's straight. She can go up to a guy and 75% chance he's straight. 50/50 if he's taken so... 34% chance of success. 

Being lesbian? I got a 50/50 shot at best that she might like girls. Then 50/50 that she's taken. 25% chance success. 

That's assuming I'm even attracted to her.

Being gay sucks sometimes.

Urban dictionary

Carshit

So the Cadillac converter is burnt out. Fixing it will coast about $356.00

And I will have to pay it myself. Fun.

Hurt

Okay. My feelings are seriously hurt. My friend Ashley showed me a trick about kik. The little D will be light until the other person gets on kik.

What does that mean? Lauren has been on kick. She has seen that I have messaged her, though she hasn't read any of them. Ouch. 

What the hell!!!? Seriously? If you weren't that interested in me, why even bother to talk to me? I thought you were just as into me as I was you. 

Damn. 

Huh.

Have a nice life.

textbooks spring semester

8 textbooks

1. IMAGES OF PAST
2. OUR ORIGINS
3. PHYSICAL ANTHROPOLOGY 13/14
4. GEOLOGY 1501: CUSTOM LAB MANUAL (REVISED)
5. CHOOSING HEALTH (CUSTOM)
6. HEALTH 1000 WORKBOOK (ECURC)
7. PROBLEM SOLV APPR TO MATH FOR ELEM SCH TCHR (W/CD)
8. EXPERIENCING THE WORLD'S RELIGIONS (LOOSE LEAF)

if bought new...

1. 180.00
2. 149.35
3. 51.00
4. 99.95
5. 98.00
6. 8.45
7. 182.00
8. 159.70

now to be less complicated... i'm only using the school store.

but...

1. 36.09 - rent
2. 58.08 - rent
3.  18.99 - rent
4.  99.95 - bought
5.  50.00 - kyla
6.  8.45 - bought
7. 50.00 - kayla
8. 34.82 - rent

books # 4 and #6 will need to be picked up at the store. 

bought price = 115.99

rent price = 159.54 (it says i saved 386.97 by renting)

so that is 275.53 on textbooks.

***parking pass info

its gonna cost me about 120.00

but i don't have a liscence plate to use yet... and i need to know the model that the car is.

stages, phases...what have you.

i keep going through these stages/phases.

stage 1: i'm lonley
stage 2: then angry/frurated that i'm lonley, and why i'm lonley
stage 3: to aaceepting that i'm lonley
stage 4: to not feeling overly lonley.
stage 5: not caring/not thinking about it

i might go through a phase maybe.... 1-3 times a day.

and each stage takes different amounts of time every time i get to it. (and sometimes go out of order.)

like... today i was angry/frustrated for like five minutes.... then later i was angry/frustrated for like an hour...

1: i'm lonley. pretty self explaitory.
2: why am i lonley? because aparently i'm too picky and the only people actually attracted to me are male. which doesn't help at all.
3. i'm lonley and thats just life.
4. its not really that bad.
5. i'm not thinking about it or i'm fine being by myself/not feeling lonley.


can i just stay at stage 5? ugh.

this is so fucking frustrating.


oh look stage 2.