Sunday, January 25, 2015

Just my luck

So I have 2 small crushes. One is a guy from work ( not going anywhere, because *cough* lesbian*cough*) and the other is a really cute girl from my archeology class who happens to be asexual and grey-romantic. Just my luck.

Now for those of you who don't know: asexual is a sexual orientation just like hetero, homo, and bi sexuality. Where as those are the attraction to others in a sexual way, asexuals lack sexual attraction. They do not desire or crave sex. It's not the same thing as being celibate, celibacy is a choice. 

She happens to be grey romantic. Which is a cross between romantic (wanting to have a intimate and romantic relationship) and aromantic (not wanting a romantic relationship). (Keep in mind sexual people can be aromantic... All sex no commitment)

I talked with her and the way she explains it is that she doesn't get crushed very often. She can count the number of of crushes she has ever had on one hand. 1. And she thinks that she might actually be demiromantic (you have to have a strong emotional bond to want a romantic relationship) because she had been best friends with the person for 6 years before she developed the crush.


Lol. Just my luck.

Still, life goes on and C'est La Vie

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Kik girl

So... Somehow a random girl got my kik. And she was determined to get me to watch her masturbate. Naturally I deleted her from my messages.

But it prompts this blog. 

I don't like masturbation. I don't like doing it. I don't like hearing about it. I don't like watching it (if I'm watching porn and someone starts madturbating I'll actually skip that part). It makes me uncomfortable.  It's not a turn on for me. It's a turn off. 

I'm not against it. I know that madturbating is actually healthy and a great way to relieve stress. I just don't like it or anything involved with it. 

You do you, I'll just not.

Sunday, January 18, 2015

So last night

I went to a party/gathering with work people again. This would be like . .. The 5th one. But this one was at karry's. She is the first person I would call a friend at work. She was there when I started. She really is cool.

And to be honest I felt so safe and comfortable with her last night... I drank. Last night I drank liquor for the first time. Raspberry smirinoff vodka shots ( I had a 1/2 one and a 3/4 one) and I drank a mix of a 1/2 shot with a little bit of juice. 

And I tried weed. Ew. Ick. No. God awful taste. Didn't really feel any different. Only actually hit it once and got "shot gun"ed twice. Eh. Don't think I'll be doing it again. 

There was only 4 of us when I did this, and it was agreed that no one else at work would know I did any if it. I'm not ashamed, I just like how it's known I don't drink. And I really don't. This was trying it out for the first time, with someone I look up to and feel safe with.

So I go to bed at 5.... It is 8:35 and I'm awake. Soooooo tired... But other than that I'm fine. And I have to poop. But I can't here... So I guess I'm not fine. ._. This is unpleasant...

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Someone is looking out for me

So I am is got a bad car accident today. I was driving to Petsmart from the mall parking lot, and I got halfway through traffic and it truckstop to let me through. I had two more lanes of traffic to cross and when he stopped he gave me the go ahead sign so I went. Bad decision. The truck was too big for me to see around so I trusted him what I didn't see it was another big truck coming right at me until it was too late... Thankfully he stopped in time and I stopped in time but it was scary someone is looking out for me. I thanked my gods, I thanked the Christian God because ironically when I turned on the radio to leave Petsmart, "take me to church" was playing. 

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Pendant

So I got a necklace pendant for a Christmas present and I'm looking up what it will do. Essentially it is green flourite and pink turquoise fused together via pyrite. Here is what I have found:

Flourite
Fluorite is a highly protective and stabilizing stone, useful for grounding and harmonizing spiritual energy.  When working with the upper Chakras, Fluorite increases intuitive abilities, links the human mind to universal consciousness, and develops connection to Spirit.  Fluorite further anchors intuitive insights into the physical plane, allowing mental and physical coordination. 

-Green Fluorite aids access to intuition.  Green Fluorite can ground and absorb excess energy, including environmental energies.  Use Green Fluorite to cleanse and renew the chakras. Wonderful healing piece! Vibrates to the number 2.

Pink turquoise 
-This beautiful stone (turquoise) is credited with many protective and healing properties and was considered a sacred stone by many Native Americans who used it in all healing work and for protection. In many cultures turquoise is believed to bring serenity, wisdom, strength, and protection from traumatic injuries. Turquoise was also believed to protect one from falls, especially from horses. 

-Turquoise is thought to possess significant healing properties and is often counted as a master healing stone. Its use is believed to benefit the entire body and it is considered especially useful with problems affecting the skeletal, respiratory and immune systems. In Chakra work, turquoise is said to beneficial for use on all chakras, especially the 5th chakra which is considered the center of creativity, communication and serenity.

-Turquoise is also a peace and harmonizing stone that helps to decrease nervousness, tension and stress. It is also believed to strengthen ones courage and personal power, fostering empathy, sensitivity and positive thinking. 

-happens to be my birthstone 

I didn't find anything specific for pink turquois, just on the stone in general. Shouldn't be too big a difference, there isn't much if it in the necklace.

Pyrite
-. An Earth element, it also resonates with Fire energy, symbolizing the warmth and lasting presence of the sun and the ability to generate wealth by one’s own power. It is masculine in nature, a stone of action, vitality and will, and taps into one’s abilities and potential, stimulating the flow of ideas. It brings confidence and the persistence to carry things through to completion. [Eason, 180][Megemont, 150][Melody, 498][Simmons, 314-315][Ahsian, 315]

-As a talisman, Pyrite is a unique protector, drawing energy from the Earth through the physical body and into the aura creating a defensive shield against negative energies, environmental pollutants, emotional attack and physical harm. It also supports one with a spirit of boldness and assertive action when protecting others, the planet, or in standing up for important issues of community. It stimulates the Second and Third Chakras, enhancing will power and the ability to see behind facades to what is real.[Melody, 497][Hall, 149][Simmons, 315][Ahsian, 315]

Pyrite guards against ongoing control, criticism and manipulation by a partner, parent or employer, lending the power to resist without becoming angry or upset, changing the balance of power.

Pyrite enhances the protective and assertive male energies in both men and women. It boosts women’s self-worth and helps overcome tendencies toward servitude and inferiority. For men, it instills a feeling of confidence in one’s masculinity and supports the enthusiastic expression of male eroticism. [Simmons, 315][Hall, 150]

Pyrite is a crystal of positive energy, and is extremely helpful for melancholy and thoughts fixed on misfortune and despair. It relieves anxiety and frustration, and as a mirror to the self, reveals the causes behind these emotions and promotes a search for solutions. Pyrite also allows one to see beyond pretense, to what truly lies behind words and actions.  

- Pyrite’s energy is empowering to the spirit, encouraging one to overcome fears and take action. It increases one’s will to accomplish whatever tasks one sets out to do, and can be used to bring one out of one’s shell, becoming more dynamic and confident. 

- also known as fools gold


Saturday, January 10, 2015

Slight difference....

So I'm bored and decided to blog about sexual role play There are 2 that  are different, yet similar. So i thought I'd explain. 

Captive and captor vs slave and master

In the more commonly known slave and master: usually the dominant master forces or commands the slave to do sexual favors. 

In captor and captive: the captive is restrained somehow or whatever and the captor "forces" sexual favors onto the captive. 

Think.... Ancient times Greek or roman or what have you... A raid was just completed and a captive is part of the loot. The captor can then entertain themselves....


The main difference is: with M&S the submissive is pleasuring the dominant. In C&C the dominant is pleasuring the submissive.

This is what happens when I can't write a short story and I'm bored. Don't judge me :P

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

pendulum answers

so other than with ML - who's name i now know- i also got some hints from the pendulum about relationship.

so i will have a girlfriend by the end of the year.

i won't meet her "soon"... but apparently i will have met her by summer solstice. we won't be dating, but i will have MET her by then.