ITS FINALLY COMING

MY MONEY IS COMING IN 5 DAY!!

so thats.... the 22! thats saturday!!!!

so i'll actually have money for the expo! ill make sure not to spend more than 250-300.

and then:
TEXTBOOKS
i have recieved emails that i need:

-  “Essentials of Oceanography, 11th edition” by Trujillo and Thurman, 2014, published by Pearson Publishing, and MasteringOceanography BUT i can get the etext version and code for 72$ which is a hell of a lot cheaper than a hard copy.... AAAAANNNNNND i could actually rent an older copy of the book, i just have to get a new code...which is 41 bucks....

- VISTAS: Introducción a la lengua española, 5th edition, by Blanco and Donley, 2016.
Hardcover:   ISBN 978-1-62680-675-7 Textbook AND Supersite Plus Code (w/ WebSAM + vText + Practice App)



ok and now a look at my professors:

Spanish - Ann Borisoff : she seems good. aparently she speaks sloly and clearly while in spanish and is very helpful. aparently she is hot too.  NOT an easy class... but class average is an A. i am very glad.. from what i read, as long as i do my work, participate, and study i should be fine.

Anthr of Religon - Dr. Bunger :3 - i already know i love him and the way he teaches

Bio Anth Lab - Dr. Loudon - he's hard, but he's awesome

Oceanography - David Mallinson - attendance not manditory but he gives extra points for it (like loudon),  homeowrk answers found online. tests come with a study guide (a long one but still) and are curved.

Short Story - Su-Ching Huang  - shit. picks favorites. LOTS of work. hard tests and exams which are essay and multiple choice. shit shit shit.... idk if i should drop it. majority of people put in their comments: NEVER TAKE HER CLASS. umm.... thoth help me.

Cultures of Caribbean -  Holly Mathews - all the revieews were from her intro anth class, not this one...well seeing as this is her first time teaching it... but what i gather: READ READ READ and visit her during office hours.

FALL AVAILABILITY updated

in order to remain a customer lead and not go back to cashier, i had to open up my availability for school.

i now am open

• 7-1 on tuesday and thursdays - which could be DND days (tuesdays will be days i crack down on spanish homework) = 5 hours each day = 10 hours
• 4-11 on monday and wed.  = 6 hours each = 12 hours
• 1-12 on fridays = 11 hours (she'll only work me 7) = 7

that right there, not including weekends is 29 hours. 

i usually work 5 or 6 days a week...

she'll either give me both weekends off or will end up giving me a day off during the week, 

idk. lets see how this goes shall we?

school calculations UPDATED

OK.

4000 back from school.
-700 for books
-500 for my car....
-200 for the court fee with my ticket
-1000 for another savings account (10 year goal...)
-500 for my current savings acount
-200 for wheels for my car

thats...
900$ left.

-75 wish shopping list
-20 for the elfland CD
-150 for boots

thats
655 left.

lets say...

-250 at the expo (if i get my fucking money by then)
-150 for a tune up for my car ...idk how much that will be

255 leftover for tests on my hormones.

car accident #2

so i got in a minor car accident today... my fault.

damage was minimal, and no one was hurt. however... it will cost 500$ out of my pocket to fix my car, insurance will pay the rest.


ugh..

and i have to get a letter from my insurance to take to the DA to get the ticket dismissed so it doesn't go on my record. AND my insurance will go up... although i'm not sure by how much.

It's all going to be fine.

Those words came to me today.

I have been stressing the fuck out.

About getting my hormones checked.

About setting up my first Pap smear.

About what the possible outcome of my relationship will be.

About the scholarship I applied for - didn't get it.

About getting my financial aid refund in time for school.

And on top of that! I had a headache. I was tired. I was hungry. I was irritated about something from the night before.

So I wrote a note: don't forget to smile! Just to remind myself to do my job despite how I felt.

Then not even 5 minutes later, I felt moved to write those words. I didn't think them, my body just wrote it. 

It was a message, from someone.. I think it was SG because that was who I thought if instantly.

But I felt comforted. If only for a moment. 

But he is right. Everything will be fine. 

No matter what the hormone un/balance, no matter what the visit it like (I think I'll ask lady spirit guide to be with me..) , no matter what happens with Corie, or with school...  It's all going to be fine.

Hannibal S3 Ep9

lol i half expected him to say "Hellooooooooo wiiiill"the same way anthony hopkins said "hellooooo clarice..."

aw. hannibal's feelings are hurt.

"do you want to know how he chooses them"
i swear to god if he says "he covets" i will flip my fucking lid.

aww... "you are family Will"....
I SHIP THEM SO FUCKING HARD.

speaking of shipping... i wonder how Alana and Margo are doing..


AWWWW FLASHBACK BETWEEN LECTER AND ABIGAIL.... this breaks my heart
He and Will and Abigail would have been  a beautiful family... i really wonder how that would have gone.

it really must have broken his heart to kill her. more in the fact that he was killing th efuture and life he wanted, but still. he enjoyed her.

Alana..... idk how i feel about you. You are so strong now. cynical.... temporary...Hannibal will kill you. YAY YOU ARE STILL WITH MARGO!!!

ugh. red dragon i hope they catch you soon.

for a second it looked like will had boobs.

hello freddie ._.

what is he afraid of? indignity.. "you're a little bit like a cat in that way"
damn. Alana... you are cracking that whip, but he will use it to strangle you.

I SAW BARNEY



what.
the.
literal.
hell.

dead body. in your office. Hannibal...ew.

EW EW EW EW EW EW EW
aw, hannibal is comforting her.see. he does have a goodness inside him.

and again with the dragon. boreeed.

lol i can empathize with special agent doctor dude. sonofabitch.

its the blind lady!!! AND SHE IS FROM TRUBLOOD

awe. ok dragon has his cute moments...

awe! the phone calls to the lady at home :3

oh shit thats a bad nightmare. ohgods. in the movie hannibal sends the dragon to kill will and his family. WHAT IF MOLLY ACTUALLY DIES. she didn't in the movie... but still. this show doesn't fallow the movies and books exactly.

jack you are an asshole. in this case... i think hannibal might actually be the one looking out for will. which is why i think he will try to hurt jack and will's new family... jack bcause he hates him and he is going to hurt will. will's family becaus he is jealous.

awe.... he visits with abigail in his mind palace...kind of like Will did...only his is slightly more healthy?

aaaaaaannnnd we have contact! how will Hannibal manipulate dragon? Whos is more friend than foe - Lecter or Jack? Will Lecter make good on his promise to Alana? find out next time on HANNIBAL

Sensual

I'm not a sexual person, I'm a sensual person. 

When I say sensual I mean:

- the condition of being pleasing or fulfilling to the senses.

-arousing gratification of the senses and physical

So... 

I love being touched. Not sexually... But intimately. Just having someone run their hand/fingers over my skin.

I love being kissed. Not just a normal kiss, but everywhere. 

I love massages.

I love cuddling.

I love sharing a bath/shower.

These are all things I like done to me and I want to do to others.

Sensuality.