My hero pt2

Almost everything I blogged about last time is better after dr. Bunger gave me that stone.

My car is fine. - needs a tune up but is fine

I've register for my classes

The grad student who teaches my lab has my missing notebook.

I'm still worried about each and cara but that can't be helped.

Everything will be fine.

angel again...

i keep trying to find this so  here is the link for later

http://pixieluv4.blogspot.com/2013/12/angel-original-short-story-by-lisa.html.

here is the one for simon says too
http://pixieluv4.blogspot.com/2014/10/simon-says-original-short-story.html

Snuggle

I just want to snuggle. 

Curl up under the covers with someone in a warm bed.

And be held. 

To feel safe and secure.

Warm and protected.

Next to someone who cares or I care about.

Soft blankets. Warmth. Feelings of safety and love.

availability for work Spring 2016

availability for work Spring 2016

Mon Wed Friday: 12:30 - close
Tues Thurs : 5-11

Sat: any
Sun: 7am-10pm

ok math:

MWF she would prolly give me 6 hour shifts of varying times. so = 18 hours
saturday could be anything so 6 hour shift = 24 hours
add that with tues and thurs = 36 hours
and sunday = 42 hours


so. yeah i sould be good with availabiliy.

i know for a fact i won't get that many hours, but bye bye cash register hello customer lead shifts!

my hero

Dr. Bunger is my hero.

i basically balbbered to him all about whats wrong at the moment. Everything in my last blog as well as about Cara's surgery and Racheal...

and he brought me a stone.

he asked if i remembered the stones from the Jivaro that the womwne would get on their spirit journey and that would help them and make things well.

then he said that this (red jasper) could be my stone for the academic and car troubles i was having.

bless him.

i love this man so much.

my hero <3

i can't win

i just can't win today

• My car breaks down. after hours of waiting and stress i find out that they couldn't figure out what was wrong, so they are going to look into it more tomorrow. or actually what it was - there is so much wrong with my car they don't know heads from tails.
• i don't know how the hell i am going to afford fixing it when they do finally find a cause.
• the biological anthropology lab is covering the part that i litterally DO NOT FOLLOW. AT ALL. i litterally hate this part of the course. and you know what? its a big fucking part of the next exam. oh joy!
• i had barley anything to wat or drink from 6am - 7pm since then i have had 2 bottles of water and spagetti. 
• i am fighint off a possible sinus infection
• i left earring hole is VERY infected.
• i now have a headache
• MY  NOTEBOOK IS MISSING.  somewhere in the chaos that was tonight my primary notebook i use for ALL MY CLASSES is missing. i can't find it anywhere. 
• and to top it all off? i'm emotionally unstable because i started my fucking period today.

recap: i am car-less, feeling stupid, in pain, and emotionally unstable.

i honestly don't know if i can make it through tomorrow. i seriously just want to crawl into a hole and stay there in the cool darkness.

but i've missed my 3 days in spanish class. so i have to go.

I

just

can't

win.

Fail

I'm going to fail oceanography.

I realized today I missed 3 online homeworks that I can't make up. 

Now even if I make 100s on the last 3 homeworks and do well on the last 2 tests I'll scrape by the skin of my teeth at MOST a C-.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

I'm taking in of the tests today and don't feel very confident about it. 

I need to will it into being. 

I have to do well on this test.

I have to do well in this test. 

I have to do well on this test.

I will do well on this test.

I will do well on this test.