withdrawals ebbing

so i have been going through some withdrawals...

art withdrawals and woolard withdrawals.

• yesterday i did an art project - AND FINISHED IT in 2 hours!!  it didn't come out exactly like i pictured, but it.looks. EPIC.

• i finally got a hug from woolard this morning :3

 i dreamed about hugging him last night and this morning i finally got to! first time since monday :P
first time since we exchanged letters. <3

he turned and saw me and he smiled really big and gave me a hug and i was just.. all smiles <3

i have a dad :3

never thought i would say that.

i have  a dad.

woolard is my dad.

<3

Peter Pan by Jacqueline Emerson

Everyone's on a rocket ship
Leaving the earth ooh-oh-oh
Shooting up so fast into the great unknown
Letting go of the nursery rhymes
Locked on land ooh-oh-oh
Left behind in another time all alone

I know that I can't be a kid forever
But I know that I must live it now or never

I am not like Peter Pan
I can't live forever in a Neverland
But I'm not gonna grow up too fast
I want my childhood to last
I am not like the boys and girls
Who live in their never-aging world
I wanna freeze time at the drop of a hat
But even I can't do that

See 'em taking off
I see 'em going so fast ooh-oh-oh
Watch 'em leaving me behind as part of their past
Putting on a cover
In a world their own ooh-oh-oh
With their painted faces standing all alone

I know that I can't be a kid forever
But I know that I must live it now or never

I am not like Peter Pan
I can't live forever in a Neverland
But I'm not gonna grow up too fast
I want my childhood to last
I am not like the boys and girls
Who live in their never-aging world
I wanna freeze time at the drop of a hat
But even I can't do that

Everyone's pushing for us to grow up
But everything's happening way too fast
Everything's changing it's all rearranging
But you only live once

I am not like Peter Pan
I can't live forever in a Neverland
But I'm not gonna grow up too fast
I want my childhood to last
I am not like the boys and girls
Who live in their never-aging world
I wanna freeze time at the drop of a hat
But even I can't do that

Somewhere in Neverland by All Time Low

Say goodbye to the halls and the classes
Say hello to a job and the taxes
The weekends with old friends spilling into 9 to 5 routine
Tell me how you feel over and done with
Like your life is a map with no compass to guide,
At the bar drinkin’ way too much
We sing along to "Forever Young".

So here we go again
Wishin’ we could start again

Wendy run away with me
I know I sound crazy
Don’t you see what you do to me?
I wanna be your lost boy
Your last chance, a better reality

Wendy we can get away
I promise if you’re with me, say the word and we’ll find a way
I can be your lost boy, your last chance
Your "everything better" plan
Oh, somewhere in Neverland
(Somewhere in Neverland)

We’ll start a life of the plain and the simple
Of great times with far better people
And weekends with our friends
Laughing about the wine that stains their teeth
We’ll talk about how your parents separated and
How you don’t wanna make the same mistakes as them
I’ll say it’s all about stickin’ it out
And trying to feel forever young

So here we go again
Wishin’ we could start again

Wendy run away with me
I know I sound crazy
Don’t you see what you do to me?
I want to be your lost boy
Your last chance, a better reality

Wendy we can get away
I promise if you’re with me, say the word and we’ll find a way
I can be your lost boy, your last chance
Your "everything better" plan
Oh, somewhere in Neverland

So here we go again
Wishin’ we could start again

Wendy run away with me
I know I sound crazy
Don’t you see what you do to me?
I want to be your lost boy
Your last chance, a better reality

Wendy we can get away
I promise if you’re with me, say the word and we’ll find a way
I can be your lost boy, your last chance
Your "everything better" plan
Oh, somewhere in Neverland
Oh, somewhere in Neverland
(Somewhere in Neverland)

Villanelle: Can i go?

Can i go to neverland?
Fly away with peter pan
as we soar hand in hand?

Can i go to wonderland,
oh please tell me i can,
Can i go to neverland?

Where shall i take a stand?
go with the wind from my fan
as we soar hand in hand.

How does no one understand?
This was not my plan
can i go to neverland?

All that this life goes to demand,
i don't want to work for "the man"
as we soar hand in hand.

Then we tour  the  summerland;
after all this life's span,
Can i go to neverland
as we soar hand in hand?

art

so, i have a new art project that i am doing recreationally tomorrow afternoon after school in the art club meeting.
 you know the vilinelle i wrote? "Smiles are just a formality" ?

yeah. I'm doing a cheshire cate picture with that poem written in the center :3

so this is the basic outline i'm doing:

The smoke will not be just smokey-blurr like that, it will be swirly smoke like:

The eyes will be a combination oh ^ and :

and here is the smile :) :

And the poem will be written in the smoke :)

oooooooooooh yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaah

Villanelle Format

1  rhme with 3
2
3 hym wih 1

4 rhyms with 1 and 3
5 hymes with 2
6 1

7rhyme 1
8 rhms with 2
9 3

10 rhym 1
11 rhms with 2
12 1

13 rhm 1
14 rhms with 2
15 3

16rhyme 1
17 rhms with 2
18 1
19 3

going crazy

i'm going crazy.

i'm too irritated to be sill and what do i have o do?

busy work.

i hate busy work.

it doesn't keep me focused, it just makes me MORE irritated.

i need to get out of here. i'm, going to explode.