pixie for prom

so prom is in like... 2 1/2 months... byu that time my hair will have grown out again. this is the hair cut i will hopefully get. this is what i want. (not the color, but the style)

my life

Which way do i go?

^ this.

My Fair Celtic Wedding

So i had a realization. as much as i want a faerie wedding... it really isn't realistic. plus as i see more and more more-traditional weddings, the more i fall in love. so here is my compromise:

a Celtic wedding. That is the theme. "My Fair Celtic Wedding".

There are soooo many BEAUTIFUL dresses that could be used.

 i was thinking one of use would be silver themed and the other would be gold/bronze. (preferably i would like silver, but i can go with gold/bronze)

so one of use would have a gold/bronze celtic head circlet, the other would have silver.

one of us would have gold on our dress, the other would have silver.

that kind of thing.

the bridesmaids/men would have outfits going along with each bride's color.

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i want Woolard to walk me down the isle... with my mom on my other side.

now the order is up to my bride.
if she wants to go down the isle first, then she can.
If she wants to have me waiting for her as she goes down the isle, then i will go first. :)

now.. depending if she is pagan or not, i would prefer to have a tieing of our hands together (tieing the knot) or the whole pouring seperate goblets into one and each taking a sip after giving vows we had written ourselves. If she is pagan then having a high priest or priestess give a pagan ceremony. If not then it would be a non-religious ceremony. but celtic none the less.

Favors:


for men:


for women:
 


and for food, i was thinking actual celtic/irish/scottish dishes.  :D

our colors could be green, silver, gold/bronze, and whatever color she wants. :)

ugh

ugh... i am so lonley.

not that i'm-desperate-someone-love-me type lonley.... but a i'm-awesome-where-is-my-special-someone type lonley. i know i'm awesome. i just havn't met a girl (and been attracted to her) that can see that.

right now, i don't care if we are dating.... i want a girl to cuddle up with and make out. i'm not horny people, just lonley. i want someone to hold. i want someone to hold me.  i want someone to kiss and i want someone to kiss me.

gosh why can't i find someone? i'm trying to be patient but damn!

what?

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^ this is what everything looks and sounds like to me right now.

why am i human?
why did i choose to be human.
humans are stupid.

i can understand

i can understand why people get high.

i can understand why people smoke.

i can understand why people drink.

i can understand why people kill others.

i can understand why people kill themselves.

i can understand why people become hermits.

i can understand why people choose to disappear .

i can understand why.