what to wear?

so it is official... i am going to see THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA on doct 12 at 1.

heres the thing. what do i wear?


the left dress is pretty and simple, formal and basic.
the right dress is prettier and elegant.

everyone is saying go with the right.... but i don't want to be over dressed....

Spanish 2

I have decided: i am going to drop spanish 2.

I found out i need to take all 4 spanishes.

why should i start at 2?? especially when i feel like i am going to fail.

drop the class.

start over next year. in sem 1 take span 1. in sem 2 take span 2.


i will save my GPA. and use logic.


i just feel like dropping a class will let someone down.

but i know i need to do it.

Thoth, i'm not ashamed. it needs to be done. i hope you understand.

future plans

okay, so....

for my sophmore year i will move out of momma's home.

ESTIMATED FINANCE

monthly :

rent- $500
electricity/water- $300
internet - $100
if we all have cell phones, no house phone needed/

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so... $900...devided by 3....$300 per person. monthly.

for me:

i also need to pay a pet deposit for Draco and the cats. (i will be bringing more than one.)
but thats not monthly. thats for the first deposit.

then for me there is also a cell  phone charge.. i'll prolly have to pay like....$50 a month.

so for me.... $350 per month.

damn.


i know i want to have Joey a room mate. Ashley wants to room with me. bring her boyfriend. a

idk if that is 100% .



BUT a 2 bedroom is cheaper. less electricity.


i'm looking at several 2 bedroom apartments...pet friendly, under 500.


i'm looking at one thats 400 a month. pet friendly, with a 200 pet deposit and a $10 monthly fee.
looks really good. really good. i like it a lot. its 5 minutes from school. 8 minutes from work. 11 minutes from momma's house.

Washer and Dryer. refrigerator. electric stove. central AC/Heat.

i kinda want it.

i'd have to pay $800...and $200 for pets.

in order to move in... he would have to pay 400 and i would pay 600.

hm.

i would then pay 210 (rent)+ 50 (electricty)+50(internet)+50 (cell phone)+ 165(car insurance) = 525

525 a month.

i get paid like....300 - 400 a month....tops....

AND gas money. AND groceries.

damn.

more anime

• kamisama hajimemashita,
•  zero no tsukaima, 
• sukitte Ii na yo, 
• Uta No Prince Sama, -- seen it 
• Kamigami No Asobi, 
• Guilty Crown, 
• Hakkenden Touhou Ibun, 
• Free, 
• Brothers Conflict, 
• Durarara, 
• Kuroko No Basuke, 
• Macross Frontier, 
• Meganebu, Kuroshitsuji,
•  Kill La Kill, 
• Diabolik Lovers,  --- seen it
• Cuticle Tantei Inaba, 
• Tonari No Kaibutsu-kun.
• Mikakunin de Shinkoukei

Mikakunin de Shinkoukei

up-DATE

okay...so the other day i took a trip to the ER... chest pains.... couldn't find the exact cause, but they said my heart looked good in the x-ray and since the pain stopped they sent me home.

i have a heart ultrasound tomorrow...

also tomorrow...

i have a date.

her name is Anna and i know she lives by herself and has a dog. thats all i know about her.
thats it.

lol

we are going to see "Maze Runner" tomorrow. should be fun :)

i swear...

i swear if i don't start feeling better..ugh.

so i've had this headache. started last night.....came back this morning. hasn't gone away....

it fades, and then comes back.... sometimes its like the back of my brain is throbbing, now its back to my left temple stabbing through.

and just now my heart did the thing. it was only one beat, but it felt like it was trying to punch through my chest. - techniquley i was walking, so i was doing physical labor, so i can't say it was the heart thing... but it was. it hurt. and now i'm in a bad mood.

and behind my eyes hurt.

i want to feel better. ugh,

Goodbye my Imagination (original poem)

 its sunset in the summer,

the sky is full of fading colors.

fire flies dance around me as i pass

they dance with me as i dance in the grass.

its cool against my bare feet.

i spin and swirl  in a playful speed

loving the feel of my feet in the green.

the crickets chirp,the birds are quiet,

through the feild to the waterfall

which is thundering and silent.

i move through the trees

once again with bare feet

the air is warm as i move

and it is scented taste sweet.

the ime is dusk or dawn

either is fine in the grove

in my effortless calming run

i enjoy a quiet sense of fun;

just like a newly lifed fawn.

in this place of calming features

of nature and magic and woodland creatures, 

time and reality have no place here,

nor does anger,pain,and fear.

but alas i cannot go to this happy place,

which was once upon a time my saving grace.

because it became a thing for reality to feed

it left my world to wither and bleed.

because of reality my imaginary place has died.

this is why i often cry.