creeped out

so...tonight at work..

well let me start off saying that i have regular customers. 2 of which are really sweet older gentlemen.... who always seem to be drunk (slurred speech, smell of beer, etc). They are friendly and harmless.

well tonight i was bringing in buggies from the parking lot when i saw them. I had been talking to one of the janitors of my store, who was walking away at the time when i saw them, and for some reason i felt... not that i was in danger... but i didn't want to be alone until the 2 men were gone, so i called him back. When they were all the way down the other side of the parking lot, i thanked him and he headed back inside.

so i continue to get some buggies and right as i was putting the 2 i had gotten with 2 others i had set aside, the 2 men were back. They came up from behind me, offering to take the carts for me. the taller one grabbed the side of my buggies while the shorter one stayed behind/beside me with his hand on my back.

they were too close. he was touching me. there was no one else in the parking lot that i could see. i got scared. I refused to stop and let them take my buggies and i walked as fast and forceful as i could to the store; then i went straight to one of the male casheirs and told him what had happened. i was freaked out.


now... i probably overreacted. maybe they just wanted to help me put the buggies inside, because well... i'm small and maybe it looked like i was struggling. but....he touched me. had his hand on my back. they werte too close. i felt trapped. cornered.

i was still freaked out when i left the store an hour later.
still moderately freaked when i was home.

nothing happened but i had red flags going off in my mind.
i was creeped out by the situation.

Aztecs

1.  What was the major subsistence strategy and types of crops grown for the Aztec Empire?
The Aztecs main crop was Maize and it was grown throughout their land. In higher regions one crop was grown per season but in lower elevations two could be grown. However ater the famine, maize was grown everywhere at all different times.  Other crops include beans, chilies, squash, cactus (used for many things such as clothes and alcohol), as well as cotton and cacao/chocolate.

2.  What type of class structure did a majority of Aztecs follow?
It was a hierarchical structure, one in which the position a person is born dictated their rank in life, although it was possible to move up. The major separation of classes was between "the commoners and nobility". These classes were easily separated by a many number or rules. Common people has to wear plain clothes that ended around the knees, while noble people could wear headbands, armbands, and facial jewelry. There were also political and economic differences; the nobles could own land and hold religious/public offices and they had better houses.

3.  In the areas of religion, expressive culture and the arts, which Aztec pattern was most interesting to YOU?
Although the human sacrifice is fascinating, what interested me more was the "animal counterpart" that was briefly mentioned. Many things the Aztecs/Mexica people did/believed did not surprise me, however, the nagual did. I wasn't expecting it and i find it to be a very intriguing idea. It makes me wonder all kinds of questions, especially since not much was said about them.

4.  In your opinion, what can we learn from Mexica culture?
They are taught from a very young age about rituals and ceremonies and how life is precious. This instills a sense of responsibility and teaches them to be aware of what they are doing. Honoring the gods gave them a sense of purpose and helps them to appreciate what they have because at any moment it could be taken away. I'm not saying that everyone should engage in religious rituals and become polytheistic, but we should learn from their dedication, responsibility, and their belief that nothing lasts forever and if we are not taking care to ensure the earth is cared for, then it will die. They believed that life/the world depended on their actions to survive, and in a sense that is still true today. What we do and how we treat the earth will determine how long it can survive. We should learn from their appreciation.

I just. ugh.

so i shared this on facebook:

and these are the comments that followed:

Friend: Because this analogy once properly thought through doesnt justify the argument...the appearance of another person is to the appearance of another person as the taste of gummy worms is to the taste of actual worms. sight is to sight as gummy is to actual worm wont match up in an argument. However, i DO think the question in question no pun intended, is ignorant. People should be able to like whatever they see fit without being questioned

me: its not about looks. in a sense it is about taste. being with a girl vs being with a guy is more similar to taste. so, trust me the analogy works.

my Grandmother: So have you "tasted" both to be able to compare?

me: yes ma'am, i have dated both

Grandmother: cool! :)

and then i added this:

The analogy is saying that if you date someone of an appearance (a girl who looks like a guy) then why not date the real thing, well, if you eat something of an appearance, why not eat the real thing? That is why the analogy works so well. Just because they look the same, doesn't make them the same. They are entirely different things, just like a male and female are. say a female is the gummy. just because she looks like a real worm, doesn't make it the same as a real worm. saying that we (lesbians) should just date a guy because we date someone that looks like a guy is the same as the analogy. 

possible solution

so. Laser eye surgery..or LASIK eye surgery could cost up to $3000 per eye.

depending on which tools are used and how bad the correction is.

my eyes are NOT that bad... so hopefully it wouldn't cost THAT much.


but hey....

if it works... then i might be able to still try out for the FBI.

Crushed.

so... i've had this dream... or goal.... or idea...

that since killers are so interesting to me, that i could become a FBI profiler.

yeah...no.

in order to become a special agent, which you have to be to become a profiler, you have to have 20/20 vision in at least one eye and no worse than 20/40 in the other eye.


yeha. meaning i can't go.

because of my eyes.

i want to cry.

how the fuck is that fair!?

i have to get fucking laser eye surgery if i want to be a profiler.

i want to cry.

What i like.

• using other people's ideas
• watching social documentaries
• the paranormal
• being playful/silly
• being able to laugh
• mothering people
• cats
• flirting
• reading
• writing short stories
• daydreaming
• dancing
• cuddling
• singing
• holding hands
• cats
• confidence
• helping other people love themselves
• loving other people
• anime
• dressing up
• poetry
• Criminal Minds's Dr. Spencer Reid
• Learning about serial killers
• cats
• animals
• rock music
• folk music
• being barefoot
• watching movies
• making youtube videos
• admiring the beauty that is everywhere
• faeries (especially elves and mermaids)
• fire
• water
• cats
• road trips
• festivals
• Halloween/Samhain (pronounced Saw-wen)
• holidays
• affection
• touching people
• hugs
• kissing

being me and being around other people <3

Basseri

1.  Why are domesticated animals so important to the Basseri? Please describe the type of anaimals that they use.

• The sheep and goats were used at the main source of food and money because they served as the source of meat, dairy, and dairy products. Donkeys and horses were ridden and Camels were used to carry belongings.

2.  Why is the institution of marriage so important to the Basseri?

• Marriage is important because it ensures political and economic benefits. The main reason marriage is important is that it forms connections with other families which are then nurtured to form a strong bond and create allies. This ensures that the nomadic way of life runs smoothly and less conflict arises. 

• I find it very interesting that in a culture where women have no rights, arranged marriages are enforced, sister exchange is not uncommon, and where the rules of levirate and sororate are followed (even if the individual protests) women are given compensation if the marriage ends in divorce. This was unexpected to me.

3.  Describe some of the major role expectations of the chief?

• conduct himself in the manner of someone with privilege

• live lavishly and give generously

• enforce taxes on his underlings

• invite tribesmen to his tent for a show of hospitality - this is done to gather intell. and to find out and then shape the public's image of himself.

• Organize migratory patters, settle disputes, allot pastures and act as the tribe's representative when dealing with outsiders. 

4.  In your opinion, what can we learn from the Basseri?

• The pain thing we can learn from the Basseri is respect. The basseri respect their environment and the animals in their care, killing/using only what they need. Being nomadic they have learned not to be wasteful and to be respectful of what they have. The Basseri also respect each other.  They do this because connections are so important in their culture, and the goal is to have allies. In order to do this they make it a point to be nice and do things for each other. This is an example that we should follow, especially with the way that our politics and interactions with other countries are going. We are making more enemies than allies at the moment. We should learn their respect.