sixjk day 6

hahahaha that isb supposed to say sick day 6.
i'[m so out of it i can't even type right now hahaha

i feel like nothing is real and everything is a movie and i'm just abasfkljasgdi;qerugh;sdjkbg'ODUGTheo'i

yeah.

my lungs aren't heavy and they don'ty burn but i do styill have the annyoing cough.
i just feel WONKY and weebly wobblty and what the fuck.


i can't focus on anythi8ng and i'm just not ebven here right now what is going on.

i've decided that tomorrow i'm getting up early and coming to campus and writing all day.


just getting my papers DONE.


but today?
fuck topday.

i'm done.


not rerally i have work but yueah.

Sick

So... I'm sick. 

I'm guessing upper respiratory infection. I was worried about bronchitis but it's getting better so I'm not worried about that anymore.

The cough is getting better, although I'm on day 4 of violent coughing. Yesterday was the worst of it.

Now I have stuffy nose, draining sinuses, fatigue, weakness, and the cough.

On the upside my lungs don't burn nearly as bad. Yesterday was like... An 8. Today it's like a 4.

I just still feel bad....

But I font think I'll need to go to the d&d. In Monday - I do seem to be getting better.

Sweet love songs track list

rock love songs:
1. Its been a while

2. right here waiting

3. Here without you

4.never gonna be alone

5.gatta be somebody for me

6. The last night 

7. Comatose 

8. what if i was nothing?

9. everything by life house
10. you and me by life house
11. far away - nickleback
12. cold - crossfade
13. kids in love - may day parade
14.when you say nothing at all
15. the reason by hoobastank
16. Black roses red - alana grace
17. forever - paparoach
18. here's to love by halestorm
19. calling you - blue october
20. Lips of an angel


Indie/pop love songs
1. I wouldn't mind - he is we
2. Happily ever after - he is we
3. Find me - christina grimmie
4. Sparks fly - miranda cosgrove
5. Perfect two
6. Check Yes Juliet
7.  if you like me - we the kings
8. Tangled up in me
9. Accidentally in love
10. If it really means that much to you
12. A thousand years
13. Everywhere by michelle branch
14. Trouble - never shout never
15. Jane Doe Never shout never
16. at the beginning with you
17. love you like a love song
18. i must be dreaming - the maine
19. Amnesia - 5SOS
20. why can't i? - liz phair

Country love songs:
1. fall - clay walker
2. must be doing somethign right
3. bad for me
4. amazed by lonestar
5. when you say nothing at all
6. Jonie and June - heidi
7. want to - sugarland
8. drunk on you - luke bryan
9. cowboy take me away
10. need you now
11. we danced - brad paosley
12. are you gonna kiss me or not?
13. i need you - faith hill
14. god gave me you
15. wanted - hunter hayes
16. honesy bee
17. bless the broken road
18.good morning beautiful
19. dust on the bottle
20. Goes like this 

Encouragement CD tacklist

"it gets better"
1, follow my voice for all those still sleeping
2, unbreakable - fireflight
3, stand in the rain - superchic
4, courage - orainthi
5, if you're going through hell, keep on going
6, so small - carrie underwood
7, never alone - superchic
8, move along
9,  beauty from pain
10. the climb
11. rise above this
12. a little bit stonger
13, you're gonna fly
14, you're not alone - bring me the horizon
15. i won't give in - asking alexandria
16. the light - disturbed
17, stand - rasdcal flats
18. a prophecy - asking alexandria
19. hold on - good charlotte
20. broken wings - flyleaf


"empower yourself"
1. Beautiful by bethany dillion
2. Beautiful by Christina Agulaera
3. i don't give a damn about my bad reputation
4 Confident by demi
5. Invincible by Kelly
6. Try - colbie calliet
7. rock what you got  superchic
8. fragile by christina grimmie
9. don't care  - demi
10. Lala land  - demi
11. piece of me - brittany spears
12. raise your glass - pink
13.freak like me - halestorm
14. loser like me - glee
15. unwritten
16. born this way - lady gaga
17. Brave by sarah barellies
18. firework
19. fight song
20. stronger by brittany

1000

I HIT A THOUSAND POSTS..... oh lord. i don't have much of a life do i? haha

but this is cool :)

Country cd tracklist

S1.Living our love song

2. Alyssa lies

3. Good directions - and turnip greens

4. Beautiful mess by diamond rio

5. Love somebody like you

6. Who wouldn't wanna be me?

7. Southern hallelujah 

8. Small things - brad paisley 

9. She's everything to me -brad paisley 

10. Wild West show - brooks and Dunn

11. Bid my heart goodbye 

12. Crazy girl (don't you know I love you)

13. Suds in the bucket

14. Redneck woman 

15. Amarillo sky

16. Relentless 

17. Wasting all these tears

18. Something bad about to happen 

19. Would you go with me?

20. Bye bye - Jo see masina
21. Fancy - reba


1. bafrefot blue jean night
2. farmer's daughter
3. what was i thinking?
4.Ol' red
5. she don't know shes beautiful
6.stuck like glue sugarland
7. don't take the girl
8. write this down
9. dirt road anthem
10. something to be proud of
11. whiskey lullaby
12. Cruise
13. boondocks
14. i don't dance
15. meet in the middle
16. big green tractor
17. i've been watching you
18. where i come from
19.what i love about sunday
20 ladies love country boys

Faerie self

I know I refer to my faerie self as a different entity but I know she isn't. She and I are like him and yang. 

I am her compassion

Her empathy

Her weaker side

Her selfless side

I want to give and make others happy

I am the humble one.

But she is my strength 

She is my confidence 

She is my selfish desire

She is my cruelty 

She is my pride

and.... 

I think she is my labido.

I have found that the more I give in to her... The more she comes out the higher my labido is. 

In the current romantic situation I'm in, it is solely on her playing around. She gets to come out more often... And the same can be said of my labido.

To describe her accurately would to say combine the personalities of poison ivy and Catwoman.

I fear her but I need her. 

We are one and the same. 

I don't fear her... I fear what I would become if I embrace her and gator calling her "her". 

I fear what I will become if I embrace both sides of me.

But the more often she comes out, he closer I get to it.

Hm.