Birthday Plans

Official Birthday Plans

Take my Statistics exam from 12-4. 

feed cats. 

CAKE AND WINE AT MATTHEW'S --> bonfire --> burn the last romantic-emotional ties...

--> "Brigid take the emotions invested in this past relationship and anchor and help me to forge a bond just as strong with one who is deserving"--> maybe cry a little. 

Go Drinking at Aj Mcmurphies :) --> invite EVERYONE 

Beautiful - Nov 27th

Its amazing to me how easy it is to forget that I am beautiful. 

I went to the ren faire for the first time and was amazed at how gorgeous everyone was... I forgot that I too wore something visually appealing. It wasn't until the end of the day that I noticed men were actually drawn to me//found me beautiful. I was given several compliments and I'm sure a few inappropriate comments from one man if Aaron hadn't been there (apparently everyone thought he was my boyfriend). But I started noticing looks from guys passing by. (pretty sure the one or two looks I got from women were about my outfit -  because it looked good.)

Then a few days ago, out of nowhere, my roommate Adam as he is passing by my room (on a day I felt gross and full blown moldy potato) says "you are just so beautiful. Like a real life anime girl, just so beautiful with your dark hair and dark eyes". Repeatingly calling me beautiful. 

VB has said he thinks I am the most beautiful girl he's ever seen. While I know for a fact that can't be true i know he is being utterly sincere... which makes me wonder if I am somehow glamouring him unawares... which means that he bring out my faerie energy naturally.... which makes him seem even more perfect. 

It is so easy to forget that I am beautiful. Even on days when I don't feel ugly, on days i do my make up... I just forget. I think of myself as plain... until someone somehow in small ways remind me, that i am. in fact. beautiful. 

Bleeding Heart - Nov 27

Its a very hard thing to process and handle when something is going wrong because of a magick thing.... and you are forbidden from helping with more magic because then the bad thing spreads. 

helping would hurt me and my family.

but not helping hurts. 

It feels like my heart is bleeding. 

admiration

so... what i'm feeling for viking boy is more than just.... "hes so cute omg i'm going to explode"

although i do find him aesthetically atractive ... i mean.. THOSE BLESSED BLUE EYES UGH KILL ME NOW...

but its honestly more than skin deep.

• He is so patient.... like he doesn't get anoyed when i'm being overly emotional or moody.
• He's understanding... he tries his best to help when i have a panic attack (which ha already happened during sex twice now? in like a month? :/ ) 
• He's understanding about my mental health and knows that there will be time periods where i am a roller coaster... (we're not gonna mention how my cpstd might be manifesting as borderline....) because oh boy has my bipolar changed over the years and am i REALLY FEELING IT NOW MR. KRABS. 
• He's so willing to LEARN. He enjoys researching things he doesn't know or understand all that much.. this includes spiritual or reigious things... lifestyle things (i'm inroducing him to BDSM - he didn't know about the non sexual aspects and lifestyle parts.... its a slow process but he is at least willing to try and learn about it which is awesome). 
• He listens... if i say something isn't okay or i don't something he does, he listens and actively tries to do better. might take a reminder or two but he listens and adapts. 
• He's not phased by much... as overly emotional as I am... he's the water to my fire.... he soothes me. if i'm moody and depressive - he gives me kisses ad cuddles... if i'm manic and hyper as FUCK he plays with me and keeps me contained. He adapts and takes almost everything in stride. he moves like water around obstacles and just keeps going...
• He has an amazing outlook on life.... he has been through so much already (hes only 23!) and yet somehow still has a sunny disposition and an optimistic view on life. He smiles and knows that eventually he will get to where he needs to go.
• He makes me feel so safe... both in that I don't ever need to worry about him having eyes for anyone else. ever. and I know he won't physically hurt me (and boy I would like to see anyone try to hurt me with him around.....) Even though he is capable of great violence I know that I have that in defense of me and it won't ever be used against me. 
• He is brave. Ie wouldn't hesitate to step infront of me or protect me or shield me from something that makes me uncomfortable. He's not the kind to run from a fight and won't hesitate to confront someone. 
• He is honest.... while he may not say what hes thinking all the time, he at least is sincere when he speaks. It shows on his face and in his expressive eyes... even if the truth is unpleasant he will say it. (now.. lets admit he can be biased.... but he says his truth.) But he also has tact.

Both my mom and my cat adore him. 

hell - even Queen Mab, one of the coldest more aloof goddesses I work with adores him. 

He makes me happy... and I think given enough time I could really come to love him. 

marketing project

• Mission Statement: Our mission is to combine the sanctuary for humans and mustangs to offer an experience of healing and freedom.

• Creating a Branding Strategy, including logos, slogans, advertisements, fonts, etc. for I AM HEARD

• Rough draft of the written part due tomorrow!!??????
• we need a group mission statement
• executive summary explaining who we are and what we want to do 
• situation alaysis explaining how we see the client and their goals as well as challenges they are facing 
• Decision: the offical advice we recomend and why (colors, fonts, logos, slogans, etc)
• "Alternatives" things we considered and why, but didn't go with and why. 
• Plan of action: how to go about the advice we settled on?
• include any images or alterations done to images, logos, etc. I would include bsuiness cards and such. 
• include any other important notes or thoughts
• WE NEED SOMEONE WHO CAN DO PHOTOSHOP

• We need a 10min video presentation that is a light summary of our written document explaining why they should choose us to be a consultant for their 

Toxic

Last night I came to the realization that as happy as my relationship with Jimmie had made me... it wasn’t a healthy one. I also realized that everything I had been doing in terms of Jimmie, what I was allowing and thinking or contemplating has been toxic. I’ve refused to Set boundaries and was allowing him to hurt and manipulate me (either intentionally or not).

I also realized that  Viking Boy is so much healthier for me. That when out side by side there is no way jimmie beats him in terms of treatment, temperament, and outlook on life. Viking boy is healthier for me to be with and he showed up in my life just in time to prevent me from going back to jimmie.

So last night, as hard as it was, I actively  chose the potential of life with Viking Boy over the dream life I thought I would have with Jimmie.
I closed the door on what I thought my life would be.

I thought I was going to throw up. I wanted to cry.
But I realized this is what is best for me and I was doing the right thing.
Last night I let go of something that I loved so much, but had grown toxic to my well being.

Discussion Board 12

• Consider the concept of integrated marketing communications (IMC).  Select any company you like and do some investigating about their use of IMC in developing and executing their promotional strategies.  Look for evidence through their media and messages. 
• What evidence leads you to conclude they are or are not successfully practicing an IMC approach?  Be specific and connect the evidence to the discussion of IMC in the chapter.
• Is there evidence that the firm practices internal marketing?  If so, please share what you found that leads you to this conclusion.  If not, speculate on how internal marketing would be of value to the organization.
• For this or any firm, what are the major advantages of taking an IMC approach?  What are the downsides of not practicing IMC?

I chose Starbucks as one of my favorite companies. I found an article that I will quote that articulates my thoughts perfecty: "Visually, the Starbucks brand is undeniable. Travel to any major city around the world, and quite a few less major ones, and you’ll see the familiar Starbucks face peering at you from coffee cups held by passersby. You’ll identify a place to get the coffee you love in an airport, or wandering down some strange new street (https://www.waxmarketing.com/imc-campaign-of-the-month-starbucks-well-everything/)." 

I know from talking directly to friends of mine who currently or have worked for starbucks that they do have an internal marketing strategy, usually through a "secret menu" which can involve different recipes that only baristas know or have made for each other (at least thats what I was told it started out as). They also get perks such as free coffee to take home and 30% discount off of beverages they order. 

IMC is always advantageous because its all about the best forms of communication and making sure that all things going out about the company is on the same page. A downside to not using it is that miscommunications can occur easily, at foodlion there were always problems involving confusion about pricing and what items were ment to be put where because there was very poor communication.

• Think of a situation you’ve experienced in which some communication process you were involved in did not go as well as it might have.  Any kind of communication will work for the example – it doesn’t have to be marketing communications.  Using the Communication Process Model (Exhibit 12.6) and accompanying discussion as a guide, systematically retrace the steps of that communication experience through the elements of the model and identify (a) where the problems occurred and (b) what could have been done differently at each problem step to make the communication experience better.

I can give an example that happened to my mother just the other day involving our car insurance (and technically me because I am part of the plan). After my younger sister was dropped from the car insurance plan there were lots of miscommunication errors between the insurance and my mother involving pricing, wether or not she would be covered over the next month or how much was owed or not owed. After everything was finally settled they informed my mom that despite her not owing anything and the matter was solved, she would still be getting something in the mail saying her bill was past due. Granted they warned her and told her to completely ignore it, but the fact that it was still going on and there were miscommunications at every step shows a clear issue with their communication processes. 

• Consider a major purchase you have made recently.  Review the AIDA model (Exhibit 12.7) and accompanying discussion.
• Think back on the process that led up to your purchase and reconstruct the types of promotion that you experienced during each stage of the AIDA model.  Which of the promotional forms was most effective in your situation, and why?

• As you reconstruct this purchase experience and the promotional messages you received during it, what other promotion mix elements that you did not experience at the time might have been effective in convincing you to make the purchase?  At what stage of the AIDA model would they have been helpful, and in what ways do you believe they might have impacted your decision process?

I legitimately cannot remember the last "major" purchase I made other than when I picked which apartment I would be living in.  The most successful promotional form was awareness. My roommate was researching apartment options and this new apartment complex (still being built) had already been added to a database where prospective clients. This prompted us to go in person where we were then given brochures and a tour as well as hearing actual testimonials from people who lived in other apartment complexes run by the same company (action). In all honesty I feel like the apartment complex has done a decent job of hitting all areas, they are present in apartment databases (awareness), have excellent web presence (interest), have plenty of information to give out through brochures and promotions in person (desire and action).