panic attack averted

i have enough financial stuff to worry about.

i can't accept my loan because i don't have a drivers license
i just want to get it all taken care of so i can BREATHE

and i can't calm down.


its all going to be OK  I promise :)  xoxo


^mrs strathy typed that because i was too paniced to talk, my thraot had been too tight to speak without crying.


"night time sharpens...heightens each sensation, darkness stirs and wake imagination, silently the senses abandon their defenses...

slowly gently night unfurls its splendor, hear it, feel it, tremulous and tender... turn your face away from the garish light of day, turn your thoughts away from cold unfeeling light, and listen to the music of the night.

... open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind, to the power that you know you cannot fight. the power of the music of the night...."


^ sad that i could only breathe after i had to think from phantom.

i still feel the panic in my blood, but attack averted.