what is she thinking?

so Mary hasn't updated her blog. idk what she is thinking.

what is she thinking after our conversation last night?

is she weighing the pro's and cons of the relationship.
is she telling herself there is hope for the relationship or is she thinking that its not going to go anywhere?


shall i weigh the pros and cons?

pros:

• she is a relaxing energy
• she is a positive energy
• she is spiritually similar
• she is hippie-ish (more so than me)
• she is a good cuddler

cons:

• no chemistry - its like i'm dating a friend
• maybe a little too hippie? (granted… i admire her determination and dedication to her 1 year plan… i'll support her choices… but still.)
• its like we are a bit too similar…theres no spark for me. 
• i think the relationship started before i was ready for it to. thats why there was no honey moon phase… and it is the honey moon phase that tends to fuel the relationship… gives it a strong start. 
• i feel like a jerk because i'm not really invested in the relationship. 

i will leave this ball in her court. if she wants to break up, then we break up. if she wants to continue then we'll continue. but at least now she knows its an uneven situation.