New year, new phase of life.

 Its a new year. 

Its a new phase of life. 

               - i've hit my quarter life crisis and it has revealed a lot. 

Its a new year.... to create a new me. 

There are aspects of myself that in all honesty... i have really let go of. 

I am a mere shell of who i use to be. 

I use to read. I use to write - fiction, poetry, essay... I use to go out into nature and would only watch TV on occasion at night. I use to be spiritual.... so so spiritual. 

I was impassioned. I was happy. I was optimistic and resourceful. I was excited. 

Now i'm just numb and empty. I go through the motions trying to be a mimic of the person i use to be. I am stuck. I'm hopeless. I am making the most money i ever have in a job that i hate. Ive been out of work for 2 weeks because ive been sick with covid and I dread going back to work. I know i need to because i need money. 

So, here what i am going to do. 

I will go on at least one walk a week. work up to once a day. 

I will write at least once a week. be it a blog, a fiction piece, or a part of my D&D world. 

I will do a reading at least once a week. 

I will do some kind of spell once a week - be it a bath or candle spell, idk. Simple as a sigil. 

I will start seriously budgeting and adding more to my savings and to reduce my debt. 

I will start actively planning for the next 5 years. At the end of this year I will have settled on a passion to pursue, a career to pursue, and a new location to move to at the end of the year. Blogs to follow up on that will follow this one. 

i'm 26. I want to actually figure out my life and get settled into it by the time i'm 30.

thats 1 year to figure out my direction and set up plans; at the beginning of year 2 I will begin implementing that change which will start with moving and either starting a new job or going back to school. then hopefully i'll have settled in by year 4/when i turn 30.