Dance

so today i went dancing at crave. the local gay bar where the cute bartender works. i actually didn't go to see her, in my defense, i went to go see the drag shows. afterwards though, the bartender was off and danced with us. She pulled me off of the wall prety much (i was wallflower dancing, just swaying my hips and looking scared) and just danced with me. not the usual way either, not the grinding and club dance, but carefree type of dancing. she even spun me. afterward she busted out with some wicked dance moves and i ended up kicking my shoes off and just letting the myusic move my feet.....


and i danced. not the normal dance, but my dance. the type of dancing i use to do home alone at the house to my folk music. the kind of dance i did that put me in a trance at the last omnia concert. if i hadn't gotten interrupted who knows, maybe i would tranced out again? but as is, one of the girls that was hanging out with us, said i looked like i was doing a gypsy dance.


i havn't done that kind of dancing in two years ever since the trance.


i'm so happy its like a spell has been broken. i havn't been able to actually dance ever since that time. but i did. tonight i did my dance.

Rejected

So as I figured the tarot cards weren't referring to the cute bartender. Haha just like I suspected the age gap is an issue hahaha #rejected

Faeriecon 2016

OMNIA IS COMING BACK TO FAERIECON!!!! I might end up going by myself but I'm okay with that :) 

I've already got outfits picked out and ordered! 

For good faerie day, I'll either wear my elven green pants or my fake brown leather pants with boots.... Along with: 

And 

I also plan to give myself wings, but I would need to go to the fabric store and find a very light and clear material. I'll safety pin the tips to the top and tie the other ends to my wrist to make my wings. I can do the same thing to my evening gown for the ball. 

On bad faerie day I plan to wear this dress, with this skirt, so that the wings from the dress look like they come from a shirt and not a dress. The skirt is high waisted so that it goes up to my bust, covering the dress. 

And the skirt:

Now..... For the  evening masquerade balls. 

Good faerie ball (with the fabric wings) 

And this mask:

And for bad faerie ball I will wear my red medieval dress that I wore last year.

halloween idea

this year i'm going to be Audrey Hepburn's Sabrina for halloween....

• Gloves 
• http://www.ebay.com/itm/Fashion-Long-Gloves-Satin-Opera-Wedding-Bridal-Evening-Party-Prom-Costume-Gloves-/401013194592?var=670541904229&hash=item5d5e3fbf60:g:QG4AAOSwT5tWJJwP  
• Dress
• https://www.amazon.com/Vianla-Womens-Vintage-Cocktail-Dresses/dp/B0169OFOH4/ref=sr_1_7?ie=UTF8&qid=1471406956&sr=8-7&keywords=vintage+black+dress+v-neck
• Hair piece
•  https://www.amazon.com/Tonsee-Women-Turban-Headband-Headscarf/dp/B0172XKTG2/ref=sr_1_2?s=apparel&ie=UTF8&qid=1471468015&sr=1-2&nodeID=2474936011&keywords=50%27s+hair+black+accessories

and of course a fresh pixie cut

crush on a bardtender??

So i may have a budding crush on a someone. who also happens to be a bartender. Although i am nervous the age gap (she is 26, i turn 21 in 4 months...) may be a deal breaker for her, she seems content to hangout with me; she has even voiced her intent to go to traleigh and party with me for my 21st.

she is super talented with the guitar and her style of singing is a mix between ounk and folk music. very unique.

she seems really cool and i definitely want to hang out with her somemore.
although i do have doubts...

either way i see it, its a win win situation. If things go well, then i may have a possible love interest. if things go south? i end up with a bad ass new friend.

but like i said its a budding crush. i'm not head over heels yet.

some fun facts? our astrological signs are SUPER compatible. super super.
tarot seemed to have a positive spin on it too. When i asked about if i should perue her or not, i got the card "the lovers".

when i asked about my immediate future in terms of love this is what i got.... i honestly don't' know if it will be in regards to the pretty bartender or not.

the first 6 cards are descriptive.
1. (Me) the hierophant - tradition, structure; i should behave the way i traditionally do/be myself
                                   - when in love act as someone in your place should, traditionally act 

2.(her) the chariot - force of personality, ability to reconcile problems
                            - don't let somone pressure you to rush into anything

3. (Above/me) queen of cups - dreamy woman, full of imagination and nurturing
                                           -  good omen, don't get swept up, maintain balance.

4. (Left/her) queen of wands - power of observation and leadership, growth, development, passion
                                           -you'll meetsomeon soon, light haired. good omen.

5. (Below/me)5 of pentacles -spiritually impoverished, disenfranchised; i'm not 100% sure of myself 
                                          -This card can be very much a card of feeling left out in the cold. It's important to remember that there is never only one person that we can be with and have a soul-level, happy, meaningful relationship. When love is right, you don't have to do back flips to make it work. Broaden your horizons and try hard to think positively. You are not an unlovable troll. = ESSENTIALLY i am insecure and will be dounful and feel left out. 

6. (Right/her) 4 of wands - harmony and fulfillment; she is self assured and in harmony with herself
                                      -If you're looking for love, it shows that special events (wedding, bar and bat mitzvahs, commitment ceremonies, etc.) are a good place to meet someone special now. If you get invited to something like this, and are single, make a point to GO.

** this descrition sounds about right for the bartender, but idk.

The journey:

7. Reversed fool - a warning not to jump into anything because the person (me) is doubtful... and i think i know why... *sex*, but that i should open myself up?

8. 8 of wands- when i'm ready for a commitment she may not be, i need to wait until she comes to me. OR according to Corie a good surprise will come? 

9. Reversed knight of swords  - "a signal to keep your eyes open and to try to look below the surface when you meet new prospective partners. Just because someone may try overly hard to impress you when you first meet doesn't mean that they're a loser. In an ongoing love relationship, something may be bothering your partner. If you sense this, ask."/ Corie says it means a fight... ending when somone gives up????

10. 9 of pentacles - "an excellent omen with regard to love, also. If you're currently committed, you can expect the relationship to raise to new heights of intimacy and joy. If you're unattached and looking, this card tells you that someone new who has what it takes to be a new, meaningful, deep love, could be headed your way". / Corie says that i will have to put my foot down about who i want this person to be in my life...essentially set boundaries. but it has a negative connotation. 

idk, so 've called for a third opinion. we will see what she says.

Novelist

My sister posted this on Facebook.(I was writing the opening scene to a project we are going to work on together). At first I was embarrassed and surprised since I had no idea she took the picture. But then I realized I felt happy and proud.  Seeing her post it made me feel like she was maybe kind of proud of me.

I think it is also the first time somone other than myself has flat out called me a novelist. Someone other than myself recognized me as such.  It felt amazing. 

COLLEGE NOTES - Fall Semester

Schedule 
PE - T/TH - 8-9 = Student Rec Center???????? -> where is this/where inside it?
intro into nonfiction  - T/TH 11-12:15 = Bate 2019
intro to fiction writing - T/TH - 12:30-1:45 = Bate 2019



span 3 MWF 8-9 = Austen 320 - I GOT MRS BORISOFF!!!! YAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSS
Psychology of Religion MWF 10-10:50 = Bate 1021
motherhood of god - MWF - 11-12 = Flannigan 262
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my work availability:
12:30 - 10 on MWF (till 12 on fridays)
2:25-10 on T/TH
open on Sat and Sun

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Textbooks
Spanish - i own it - code is still good 
nonfiction - Writing True

• rented 15$ (will have to be shipped back)

fiction - Method and Madness

• Rented 30$ (will have to be shipped back)

psy of religion - (book is recommended but not required....  class seems scary so, yeah.)  "Psychology & Religion" 

• rented 25$ (will have to be shipped back)

Motherhood of God - Good for further info, but bunger will give all i need in class for exam
PE - Fitness Matters (ew)

• Bought 35$

With tax and shipping = 113.74$

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Professors
Bunger = awesome. i know him. i love him. we're good. 

Liza A Wieland (fiction) = could go both ways... tough grader.
Amber F Thomas (nonfiction) = seems no nonsense. hates grading. doesn't actually seem too bad. 
Clement Joseph Handron (psych) = sounds like a psych version of bunger (I'M SO RELIEVED)
Anne Borisoff = LOVE HERRRR
Sue LaTrelle Cohen (PE) = no idea.

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NOTES FOR SPRING SEMESTER

My minor

• Eng 2815 - 3 (intro to creative writing)
• Phil 2271 - 3
• 2 out of : Eng 3830(intro to play writing), 3840 (into to poetry), 3860(non fiction writing)  - 6
• one of these: Eng 3330, 3340 (contemp drama), 3410 (into poetry), 3831 (plays from writers POV), 3841(poetry from writers POV),3851(fiction from Writers POV),3861,4930 - 3
• 2 or 3 of: - 6
• Anth 3300 lang and culture
• Clas 1300, 3300, 3400, 3405, 
• ENGL 2230(southern lit), 4830 (script) ,4835,4840(advanced poetry),4850 (advanced fiction),4860(nonfiction),4885 (digital writing)
• LING 2710,3700, 3720, 3750, 3240, 3250, 3260,3280,3290,3300,3460, 3570,3630, 3810,3870,3885,4230,4730
• FILM 2900
• GRBK 2000, 2010,2400 ,2500 ,2600
•  HIST 333
• PHIL 3272, 3331, 3350
• POLS 3012 or 3045

 anything in bold is something i want to take out of the ones with the choices, highlighted is something that i feel i ABSOLUTELY MUST TAKE

and then there is my
anth requirements:

• Feild methods -  senior spring - 3 writing intensive
• Anth theory - junior spring - 3 writing intensive  
• (writing intensive will be complete)
• Motherhood of god - 3 credits (will complete the upper level anth electives)

Foundation requirements:

•  2  1more courses in Spanish
• Exercise 
• 1 more social science 
• 1 fine art: Public Speaking (maybe 2???)
• 6 classes of just random electives
• any of the bolded minor courses that i don't ended up taking for the minor
• ENG 3410,
• ENG 3850 (intro to fiction writing)
•  4840
•  ANTH 3300
• Grims fairy tales class -> Possible humanities credit? - ASK BUNGER
• should probably take: Hospitality 2100, 2170, and maybe 2200 - B&B

****** FIELD SCHOOL IS 6 credit hours.... since i would have finished my Anth by then.... IT'S ELECTIVE HOURS!!! so i would need less electives for general education....