travel notebooks

1. Visit to a locally owned restaurant - Supdog

2. Visit to a small museum - Museum of Science Raleigh with Hallie

3. Visit to a named natural area - the greenway trails

4. Visit to a public reading - poets

5. Visit to a public event - Anthro After Dark

6. Visit to a cemetery - goldboro

7. Visit to personal meditative spot, outside - swings

8. Visit to a place that has significance to you from your past - Farmville, bringing mom lunch driving around seeing the old houses and the places i use to ride with jake on the bikes, walk around all day during the summer....


bold means i still need to write it

courtship and marriage calc

http://www.benegg.net/grade_calculator.html

OKAY so there are 6 grades for the class

test 1 ---> 0 +40 extra speaker credit = 40
test 2 ---> 74
test 3----> 92
aplia --- > 90 + 10 bonus??
notes test ---> take april 19--26 - ?
attendance ---> 90



in order to make a 80 (B) in the class i must make a 86  or higher on the last text test,
there is no wiggle room.

colors

so as a facebook trend i asked people what colors they associated with me....  i expected 4 main colors, what i expected people to say (yellow or pink due to my perky personality) and the colors i associate with myself (green and purple)


here's the count:

1. pastel colors (someone actually said this) - 4
2. Green (one person said pale green so it counts for 1 and 2) - 4
3. purple - 5
4. powder blue/light blue (this also goes towards pastel) - 2
5. Orange - 2
6. Yellow - 2
7. Magenta (pink purple) - 1

interesting :)

Jobs for the future

https://www.myinterfase.com/ecu/Search/Job/?id=1


Ones I'm interested in:

• https://www.myinterfase.com/ecu/Job/Detail/bndZcWpLZ3hKd1F1eTR0RTFnRlRZeVlTUlJzQW5mdkVwcmcyTmpPbmlRUT01--> apply tonight!!...year round
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• https://www.myinterfase.com/ecu/Job/Detail/dTRNZW9NREd6QWZJY1FFNVJ3SlFOU1lTUlJzQW5mdkVwcmcyTmpPbmlRUT01
• https://www.myinterfase.com/ecu/Search/Job/List/dlllRlNuVjQ4VHFuT3BGN2IvNlVlL3RHQWZqb1dNV052ald6M2Z4cU1hST01 ---> apply for all!! tonight!!
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eh...

• https://www.myinterfase.com/ecu/Job/Detail/SUN6QXRSbm1nS0lTZkdSM0Ywc1B5eVlTUlJzQW5mdkVwcmcyTmpPbmlRUT01
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how am i doing? - estimaing grad

Six Homework grades (15%); Four Papers (35%); Mid-Term (15%); Final (15%); Oral Report and Paper, Class Discussion and Party (20%). Scale for final course grades: A = 94-100 percent;; A- = 90-93; B+ = 87-89; B = 83-86; B- = 80-82; C+ = 77-79; C = 73-76; C- = 70-72; D+ = 67-69; D = 63-66; D- = 60-62; F is below 60 percent.

four papers

boas - 88

bennedict - 88

piddocke - 75

???? - lets guess and say 75

average: 80.2 = 35% of grade 

six HW grades

95

88

80

95

92

? - lets guess and say 80?
**but she drops the lowest grade!

 estimate average to be...  90 = 15%

Mid term

78 = 15%

Final

? lets guess 78 = 15%

Project:

spoken - 88

written - 90

party - 50

76 = 20%

http://www.benegg.net/grade_calculator.html

80 = B ... THANK YOU THOTH


extra credit:
turn in portfolio, get +5 on final test grade
replace homework grade with a 100? (i think) ---> 91.6

even with all of this my best grade would be an 81 --> B-

but... if i do better than a 50 at the breakfast... maybe a 70? --> 82

Meaning I need to revise my Piddocke.... make it an 82?

With all of that... i would need to make a 90 on my Final to get an 85

Labyrinth ball

http://labyrinthmasquerade.com/

Friday April 25 and Saturday 26

506 South Grand Avenue Los Angeles,
California 90071 USA

Pre-show starts at 7:00 PM
Tea rooms (looks like this a restaurant but i don't see prices, plus you have to reserve your time. ALSO gives you access to other ballrooms!! for actual ballroom dancing!? idk i feel like this would be cool...or uncomfortable.)

tickets:
VIP tickets (include everything and access to special bars and such, the best seats, visits from characters....worth it)
: $355

standard: early bird - 115
not early bird: 125

if i add preshows to both nights with standard: $200  
if i add one tea room experience: $245

hotel (twin beds)
In the biltmore:
Mention the Code 1708MASQUE or say you are attending the Labyrinth Masquerade for special discounts and offers.
average price: 180 per night
total after taxes and fees: $420 

not biltmore: (cheaper to have 1 big bed and share... but i looked at the two bedroom rooms)

• CITY CENTER HOTEL: 100$ a night = 200$ - 11 minute walk to the biltmore
• STILL WELL: 135 a night = $270 - 7 minute walk to biltmore
• LA HOTEL DOWNTOWN: $170 a night = 340 - 6 minute walk 

Planes (raleigh -> LA)
estimated amount 400$ round trip (Delta) --> DO IT THROUGH EXPEDIA!? if you book a hotel too get, refund for flight!?



OKAY SO

VIP tickets:355
hotel: 420
Flight: 400

This trip could cost 1175$...
 if by myself. If with a friend then the hotel room would be split and i would be paying 965 + extras

extra money needed for:
actual meals
taxi fare to and from airport and hotel

lets say... 1300.

wow/ thats not even including the dress.

OR if we go cheapest rout:
tickets: 200
hotel: (eh... lets do medium) 270
ticket: 400
870..... plus extras.... $970

OR mix
VIP : 355
cheapest hotel : 200$
flight: 400
+ extras
955$


shiiiiiiiiiiit.

plus the dress 79 - 150
and mask: 10 - 200

• http://vongutenbergcouture.com/product.php?productid=17654&page=1
• https://www.etsy.com/listing/86399137/made-to-order-greek-goddess-of-the-moon
• https://www.etsy.com/listing/211396523/black-demon-horns-w-red-festival-horns?&utm_source=google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=shopping_us_a-accessories-costume_accessories-masks_and_prosthetics&utm_custom1=bda69827-1385-4e19-a114-e25d9f3e65a5&gclid=Cj0KEQjw2LjGBRDYm9jj5JSxiJcBEiQAwKWACzKyc3weWL7d7uICnkTGHbKM0yESCw2CiTwP06Qajl0aAhfQ8P8HAQ

if i do this, then i would have to take that extra student loan... or dip into my savings.

shit.

but i want to go.... and i don't think mom would let me go by myself... meaning i ave to find someone crazy enough to come with me.

might as well blog

I figure i migh as well blog since i'm not getting any sleep.

all i can do is think about all the things i could have said to lauren.

some would have insighted more anger, but voiced more concerns and issues i had.
some would have diffused anger.

but none would have changed the outcome.

I wasn't being treated fairly.

I was playing second fiddle to a toxic person who completely changed how lauren acted.

I was spoken down to in a condecending way.

If i voiced an opinion about something that could paint any of lauren's friends in a bad light - i had no right and was instantly in the wrong.... how dare i have an opinion.


it came down to a key core value that we disareed on.


the Liz thing... we might have eventually worked out...

but aparently i'm the bad guy for being against drug dealers.

thats what broke us. different stances on drugs.

gods above, why am i never good enough?


she seemed so perfect... i didn't know what the catch was.

it was Liz.

and I just wasn't good enough to best that.

i hurt so much.

and she is going and playing the victim in all of this.

i figured blogging would be better in my sleepless state instead of balling my eyes out and asking the gods "why? why was i not good enough? why am i never good enough?"


well the tears are still there.
the questions are still there.
there is no answer.
there is no sleep.