To do tomorrow

To do tomorrow during my computer lab shift:

- readings and questions for online class - I got 2/4 done
- reading for Monday class and type up the notes page
- finish the second online training I started today
- fill out the tax information online for the assistantship -- i left it in my car....
-start on readings for module 2 of online class because I am not sure if they are due wed or the Wed after that???? --> according to Ty in my thursday class (she has the in person version of this class,its due the third wed)
- if I have extra time: start redesigning posters already started and reached out to other GA student


To do when I get off:
- give blank check to financial place??? For direct deposit
-start homework for Thursday class - i don't have the book yet.
-finish reading and notes page for online class? Maybe. If not finish that Monday

Go to work 😪

patience

patience

Or lack there of.

I have no patience - for anything. Any kind of minor inconvenience or let down and I don’t have the patience to deal with it... I go straight to anger or irritated.

I’m starving and I have food to eat only there are two plates and I don’t know which one is mine. Jimmie is at work and logically I know e can’t check his phone every time it vibrates or whatever but I have no patience. I’m fucking hungry.  I have a steak I could eat but I don’t know which one is mine so I’m going to have to eat some instant fucking ramen while looking at a steak.

Anger.

Yesterday mild inconveniences and little annoyances: no patience and suddenly I’m too irritated to care that Jimmie is trying to be sweet. Yesterday was Wednesday so that mean video games... but he has also been playing video games all the time. He has free time now, he should be able to do what he wants and what makes him happy. Great. But does he have to play for the majority of the only free time we have together? Then as I’m totally irritated and getting ready for work he decides to be sweet.

Logically I know he’s making an effort. But I’m irritated and it only makes me more agitated because it’s after the fact.

Or the fact that he expected me not to eat as soon as I got off from work because he had food for me... 45 minutes away. After I had eaten nothing but maybe two bites of a burger the entire day.

Minor inconvenience - McDonald’s and major disappointment - bad mood.

I don’t have the patience to deal with things logically.

And it’s been this way for days.

Pretty much since somone suggested that I’m always in a bad mood and grumpy... wasn’t before. Have been since they said it.

And I am so FUCKING HUNGRY CAN HE PLEASE JUST CHECK HOS PHONE SO I DO T HAVE TO EAT SHIT FOOD FOR THE SECOND DAY IN A ROW.

This also being the second day this week where I dont get to see him for lunch.


It’s just non stop minor inconveniences and let downs and they are stacking and I have no patience to put up with any of it.

I feel like I have road rage at my life right now.

Nudes

nudes.

When in a relationship it is not uncommon for nudes to be sent and saved. It’s a matter of tryst.

It is absolutely disgusting to keep nudes after a break up. It’s disrespectful. It’s creepy. It’s a breach of trust and it’s EVEN WORSE when they are sent to other people without the persons consent.

You shouldn’t keep an ex’s nude much less send them to other people.

It’s fucking disgusting.

And there is no reason for it. Not a single valid reason.

They were sent during a time when it was okay to view that persons body. That is revoked after a break up.

Delete the fucking pictures.

Using it to jack off?

EVEN FUCKING WORSE. Use your memory or even better just use fucking porn.

There is literally not a single goddamn reason to keep an ex’s nude photos.

And it pisses me the fuck off.

Irritated

I went o bed irritated.
I woke up irritated.

It’s not even 10am and I am done with the day.


First off WHO THE FUCK BUILDS FURNUTURE AT 8 IN THE GODDAMN MORNING WHEN YOU LIVE IN AN APARTMENT COMPLEX ?

Assholes.
 So I’m up at 8am. I’m irritated because I went to bed at 3 and it’s been an exhausting week.
And my brain returns to the reason why I was irritated when I went to sleep. (Next blog post will be my rant on that.)

I toss and turn and eventually drift... right as I’m about on the cusp of sleep... Langley calls Jimmie and wakes me the fuck up.

Now I’m very irritated. and I can’t go back to sleep for anything. I am so fucking tired.


The only good thing is I’m getting Smokey cuddles

23+1

so the day after my birthday we started over with a clean slate and pretended it was my birthday.

Much better day.

On worse news; my babies have tape worms :(

23

I turned 23 today.

Today completely sucked.

But at least my make up was pretty.

Textbooks Spring 2019

5 textbooks - all through ValoreBooks.com


Aging and Life - rented must be returned by 5/31
Medical Sociology - rented must be returned by 5/31

Americanah
Between the world and Me
Folded Earth: aNovel

all bought.

It cost 61$ shipping included.

would have been double that from amazon.

and tripple that if i had done it through the student store.
fuck yeah


I also need to now get:

The art and science of social research - rented valorebooks for 24$
So all in all:

85$.