ill mood.

huh.

so while shopping i got hit with a pang of lonliness.

then i got reminded that my birthday is in a week.

i'm going to be alone. on my birthday. with nothing to do.

and now i'm just in a foul mood. not even criminal minds really interests me right now.

ugh.

you know.

i havn't had an actual relationship since jake. which was over a year ago. (october 20th - i had to go look it up to be sure)

yes i dated Mary... but it was never more than friendship for me. i tried to feel more but i didn't.


its been over a year since i was in an actual relationship.

fuck.

you know they said it would get easier in college.

finding a girlfriend would be easier.


everyone needs to shut their fucking mouths because that is a damn fucking lie.

i'm on dating sites. nothing. just assholes of both genders looking for sex.


i was already lonley and then the realization that i am going to spend my birthday alone pushed me over the fucking edge, i just want to punch somethign and cry.

and this has nothing to do with jake. itys just that i am so lonely and fed up with being alone.

and i'm going to spend this birthday alone. i'm going to spend yule, and christmas, and new years all single and i'm scared that i am going to start getting bitter because this is hurting my heart.

i don't like this feeling.

i'm tired of being lonely.

birthday

so.... my birthday is coming up.

fast.

friday - 28 - today
sun-30
mon-1
tues-2
wed-3
thurs-4
fri-5 - birthday



and i have no plans.

at all.

like.

none.

and you know what?

all i want for my birthday?

is a date.

totaled.

they totaled my car.

my car. that was in mint condition.


my car. that i only had for a little over a month.

and they are only giving me 3,700.

i'm losing my car.


FUCK'N A.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

i am so frustrated.


i loved this car.

and because some idiot wasn't paying attention.

i'm losig my car.

FUCK..

omnia new video

can you imagine how fun it would be to hang out with them for a day? they all look so happy...this video makes me happy lololol




have to love them!!

DnD quizes

okay so according to some quizes if i,as my self, were a character i would have:

14 Intelligence, 13 Wisdom, and 9 Charisma

 7 Strength, 10 Constitution, and 7 Dexterity

lol

also: i should be a shaman....

not feelin' so hot

hey guys..i'm not feelin' so hot...

yesterday i actually had to leave work early because i felt nauseous, dizzy, and like i was going to explode out both ends.


today i;m just dizzy.... but thats how it started yesterday...

i only came to school today because

A. we are starting the religion chapter in cultural anthropology
B. Daily quizzes in Sociology


everything else? i'm sleeping.

darn.

Cute girl from anthropology has a boyfriend :/

i found her on facebook, :)

she's trying to raise money for Picaso - a greenville group trying to help fight aids.

thats awesome :)

she has a bf.

good for her.

good for him.

darn for me.