life and death

little soul lying on the ground
your body still,
you're breathing slow,
death is soon to be found.

how is it, such a small little soul
can save a life?
for when i saw you
i felt such an immense pull.

Seeing you so helpless, little friend
and i knew just i what to do.
with a small act of kindness,
one little soul's journey didn't end.

today the universe's plan was shown,
for on this day that i saved your life;
and through that two lives were restored;
by saving yours, i was convinced not to take my own.

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for the past two days i have been plagued with self doubt and a sense of hopelessness about the future. it started ysterday and washed me away.... today i was having semi-suicidal thoughts.

but today while on my lunch... i saved a little bumble bee.
I saw him laying on the ground, motionless and remembered reading that just because they are on the ground like that doesn't mean they are dead. I thought he was,,,, but i saw his little leg twitch and slowly moving.

i don't really know why i did it. but i felt such a strong wash of pity and love for the little guy that i saved him.

for when they are like that its because they are exhausted and dehydrated; what they need is sugar water.

well... Mcdona;'d sweet tea is basically sugar water. So i rolled him over, face down and using my finger i put little dropps of tea by his face. at first there was no change. Then the more i put i saw him start to drink and then his wings moved.

I made a little puddle so he had more to drink and walked away, seeing him being able to move his wings and kind of stand on his own.

this is what i needed. I was so happy that he was going to be alright that for a few minutes i was awashed in sunlight and warmth.

granted storm clouds rolled back over me but they weren't as dark as before.

by saving his life, he saved mine.

thank you little bumble bee.