what was i thinking

what was i thinking.... going to grad school for sociology....

I'm already strung out too tight and i haven't even begun working on my assistantship work.

- well i had a meeting with her today about it and let me tell you...

I can't keep up with the work load.

I'm having weekly, at bare minimum, breakdowns.

I cry over any small inconvenience like a fucking baby.

I'm having to bring homework with me to work.

A single day feels like a week.

i wake up and do school work until i have lunch and then do school work until i go to work only to continue to do school work.

I'm trying to juggle these things and something has to give

- Job 4 nights
- Class/school work
- assistantship
- mental health

at the moment my mental health is taking the loss.

I finally broke down and texted Mr. Caird begging for another day off a week. I can't do it like this any longer. I just can't.

I have research papers and presentations i have to start doing soon. plus the fucking assistantship work.

I. Don't. Have. Time.

But i feel terrible for asking for another day from work. He's stressed, we don't have a a good staff - i can only work 3 days now, Lexie can only work 3 days, that just leaves Jacob and Michael. Plus the two new girls that just got hired but they are so green they really can't do much.

but somethings got to give.