Maeve

Today boys and girls I learned a lesson...

Mab/Maeve being the same goddess, one just being the aspect she shows herself to me as.... really was such a strong personality.... and she gave 0 fucks about rules and other thoughts... she raged wars to get anythign she wanted and she ruled through sex and force.

She was a great queen and I 100% why she is always painted as a villian. 

I really fucking do.

But here's the thing.....I admire her. 

I see why she is a goddess. 

She said fuck the rules of men, I do what I want because i'm fucking queen. 

She embraced her shadow and lived her life exactly how she wanted to.

thats some real strength there. 

I see why she is who i will be doing my shadow work with..... because she exhibits a lot of my shadow... and maybe she can teach me to love it like she did. 

But i'm also realizing that while SG has 2 forms in my daydream/messages his darker form has changed and almost taken on a new character.... After reading about Maeve, I am seeing he had taken on her aspects lately. Maybe she has commandeered that character for now?

Idk. I might actually have to pay Emily for a 30 min session and get her to give me the upfront details. 

I feel like if i can untangle these strings about SG, Mab/Maeve, and Aine it will really clear up some confusion and help me to run forward spiritually. 

I'm gonna do it before I trance and do readings today. should help open me up. 

Tea with Anubis planning 1

Since I'm thinking charlotte would be the best place in NC to open up my cafe I decided to reach out to a few pagan stores in Charlotte....  and one messaged me back! Maybe I can bounce ideas off her and see what it's like to be a metaphysical store in that area and elearn from her experiences. I am so excited!

I was thinking if I couldn't do the bakery part myself I could partner with a bakery. 

I could grow or import herbs for the teas/buy them fresh and use a dehumidifier. same for fruit. 

I could make non alcoholic drinks as tarot cards.. and then if they order them in reverse "i'll have a .... chariots in reverse" it would be an alcoholic drink. 

Reverse Menu!  for an extra $3 add: 

- whipped cream vodka

- Elderberry liqueur 

- vanilla rum

- vanilla vodka

- gin

- Irish Cream

- godiva white chocolate

- godiva milk chocolate

-godiva dark chocolate

- almond liqueur 

Ordering a drink in reverse would add $3 to the bill (we would use 3/4 shot).

This would be offered mon-sat 10am-10pm 

On sabbats (as long as its not a sunday) We would stay open till 2am and would open late the next day. 

I've already got a work schedule figured out and hourly pay. Cashier number being 4.

I'm currently working on a menu and i am loving this. 

septum.....pt 1

okay so i am seriously thinking of getting my septum pierced.....

I actually looked into the sizes and the reason the fake ones looked so big on me?..... because they were literally the biggest size. 

I will probably ask for a 16G piercing because thats what most clickers are.... as for the size, I can do 1/4 - 6mm or 5/16 - 8mm at the biggest and they would look totally fine on me size wise. 

I like the idea of really simple pretty ones for the usual daily.... something like these

20G <3

https://www.etsy.com/listing/622453935/pure-silver-nose-ring-20g-18g-septum?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=septum+silver&ref=sr_gallery-1-18&organic_search_click=1&bes=1

https://www.etsy.com/listing/600003606/tiny-silver-septum-ring-for-pierced-nose?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=septum+silver&ref=sr_gallery-2-6&organic_search_click=1&sca=1

16G

https://www.amazon.com/OUFER-Stainless-Earrings-Cluster-Piercing/dp/B07QJ5NX49/ref=sr_1_8?dchild=1&keywords=8mm%2Bseptum%2Bclicker&qid=1585837280&sr=8-8&th=1

most decorative vauges are at least 16G and i think thats the thickest i'll go, and i don't see why i wouldn't be able to wear 20G once its all healed up and won't close.  so after about 3 weeks i can put in a 16G clicker.... 

then after like 6 months I can use the 20G. 

this is of coarse going to be months down the line when everything is back open and stuff and my finances have evened out after the move. 

I know it will be 3 weeks before i can get a clicker and it costs $10 to get the ring changed out.... but if i can be shown how to do it myself then I should be fine. 

day dreaming

Day Dreaming...

okay so if we built a house...... This one is perfect. 

https://www.eloghomes.com/elogsandbox/modeldetails.php?mspec=Y2Fyb2xpbmF8MzA2MXwxLjV8NHwyfDEyODN8MjcyfDB8bm98bm98bm98NjAwNTZ8NzIwMDR8Y2Fyb2xpbmF8MTAwMDUwfDExNjcyOA==

I say its perfect because the master bedroom is big... 18x9 level big, so it could easily accommodate 2 people (married. No buying a house unless married.) Plus has a decent sized guest room.... and 2 small rooms below that are too small to be bedrooms but would make good studies.... we could each have a room to ourselves for our own stuff. And...  if we have a big yard can get him a shelter to make a smoke shack and maybe give one of the smaller rooms to future kid? If his son decided to live with us then he of coarse would get the guest room and the bigger of the studies would be the guest room. 

that master is so big it can fit a writer's study in it.... so having it built for us would be 100,050. If we just get all the part shipped it would be 60,056.... and aybe we could contract someone? (puch..... that adds up real fast https://www.rockethomes.com/blog/home-buying/how-much-does-it-cost-to-build-a-house) 

HVAC is about $3,000 and plumbing would be about $10,000, plus the septic tank ($5000 )

so just major systems would cost: $18000 so lets round up and say 20,000. 

it's basically 1100 sq feet  including the porch. So... we would need like 2000sq ft that's just under .05 acre. so lets say we want a place with room to spare so like.... 10,000 sqft? We could get a pool and have plenty of space to entertain.  even better if we have some woods on the property.  .3 of an acre is enough to have a decent yard. 

okay so land.... we would have to clear it so everything can be installed. 

so lets say $2000 because it would be less than an acre. 

100,100 + 20,000+ $6,000 for a loan down payment + 2000+ no more than 20,000 for a lot of land. 

=  148,100 = 150,000 for a build house..... not even furnishing it with washer and dryer, stove/oven, microwave, and fridge/freezer. If we bought everything new from Lowes....

Kitchen appliance sets: 2,500-3000. 

washer/dryer:  800 cheapest..... 1300 for the set I want. 

so lets say 155,000. total we would need to build a house. 

with a loan calculator with a FTO loan we would be making $1000 payments a month. 

https://themortgagereports.com/fha-loan-calculator

Or we could simply buy a house and land and make 150 our  house budget?

this could be a house and land valued at that.... or a cheaper home that we remodel. and can look into up to...20 miles from charlotte? with a lot size of at least 2000 for a yard.  (and if we get over .6 acres we could probably even sell some land.  

if remodeling.... we can put drywall over wood panel walls and then paint it.  If we need to remove the carpet..... at the most to hire someone to do that would be 11000, would most likely cost about 6000, esp if we rip up the original flooring. 

so lets say our budget if we are buying is 120K which would leave us 30K for furnishing and remodeling. 

somthing like this would be perfect... https://www.realtor.com/realestateandhomes-detail/207-Southbourne-Ct_Mount-Holly_NC_28120_M61027-56168?view=qv

budgeting

okay.... so if this whole relief check is actually a thing...

1200. 

400 for my credit card. (bringing it down to.. 400.)

600 into savings

200 bank account

Paycheck 1 = 136

350

- 99 car insurance

-65 health insurance

-50 phone

Paycheck 2 =25

350

-200 car payment

-65 student loans

-60 credit

Paycheck 3  = 168

350

-82 rent/util/int. 

-100 savings

Paycheck 4 =0

350

-350 rent/util/int

136 +25+168 = 329 - 40 gas - 50 cats - 200 food. = 39 in the bank.

I need to talk to my boss to have less taxes taken out.... because lately my paychecks have been like.... 320. 

as it is i have $20 extra taken out of my paychecks to go towards taxes (and hopefully come back to me next feb) but I think i'll drop it to $10. 

Big Project/Paper: Business Plan Outline

Value Proposition

Our Mission:

Tea with Anubis seeks to serve the community through providing a peaceful environment, metaphysical healing, and hospitality services such as: teas, coffees, and baked goods made from locally and sustainably sourced and ingredients. 

Our Vision:

 Tea with Anubis is a metaphysical themed cafe and bakery which seeks to provide a safe and welcoming environment to people from all walks of life. With a unique and eye catching theme, hospitality services, a rentable back room available for any kind of meeting, and different metaphysical services offered, Tea with Anubis has many legs to stand on. 

Our Goals:

Above all Tea with Anubis aims to provide: quality food and beverages, a stress free environment that people from varied backgrounds can find peaceful and welcoming to spend their time, and providing sustainable revenue for the local community. 
Our Values:The core values of Tea with Anubis are honesty, hard work, and compassion. Through these we wish to pursue our goals of sustaining the local community and doing our part to protect and support mother earth. 

Company Description
Use your company description to provide detailed information about your company. Go into detail about the problems your business solves. Be specific, and list out the consumers, organization, or businesses your company plans to serve.Explain the competitive advantages that will make your business a success. Are there experts on your team? Have you found the perfect location for your store? Your company description is the place to boast about your strengths.

• - Key partnerships
• Note the other businesses or services you’ll work with to run your business. Think about suppliers, manufacturers, subcontractors and similar strategic partners.
• *****networking
• - Key activities
• List the ways your business will gain a competitive advantage. Highlight things like selling direct to consumers, or using technology to tap into the sharing economy. Store Hours. (open 
• - Unique themes and Ideas
• I will need to go into the legal requirements on attaining and sustaining a liquor license for some of the drinks I plan to make. 
•  - Cost Structure
• Will your company focuses on reducing costs or maximizing value? Define your strategy, then list the most significant costs you’ll face pursuing it.
• I will include a small segment on the cost of start up, how I plan to get the money and how I plan to financially disperse the money. **** Including cost of staff and liquor licensing... which will affect the cost of goods and services as well as the cost of outsourcing teas and coffees. (research into local grown products).

Market analysis
You'll need a good understanding of your industry outlook and target market. Competitive research will show you what other businesses are doing and what their strengths are. In your market research, look for trends and themes. What do successful competitors do? Why does it work? Can you do it better? Now's the time to answer these questions.

• - Key resources
• List any resources you’ll leverage to create value for your customer. Your most important assets could include staff, capital, or intellectual property. Don’t forget to leverage business resources that might be available to women, veterans, Native Americans, and HUBZone businesses.
•  - Value proposition
• Make a clear and compelling statement about the unique value your company brings to the market.
• - Customer relationships
• Describe how customers will interact with your business. Is it automated or personal? In person or online? Think through the customer experience from start to finish.
• - Customer segments
• Be specific when you name your target market. Your business won’t be for everybody, so it’s important to have a clear sense of who your business will serve.
• - Channels
• List the most important ways you’ll talk to your customers. Most businesses use a mix of channels and optimize them over time.

Organization and managementTell your reader how your company will be structured and who will run it.Describe the legal structure of your business. State whether you have or intend to incorporate your business as a C or an S corporation, form a general or limited partnership, or if you're a sole proprietor or LLC.

Use an organizational chart to lay out who's in charge of what in your company. Show how each person's unique experience will contribute to the success of your venture. Consider including resumes and CVs of key members of your team.

* I will have a chart with a list of the different jobs I plan to have within the shop, who will fill it, and how much I plan to pay, as well as how I plan to schedule them - 30 hour work weeks. 

Service or product line
Describe what you sell or what service you offer. Explain how it benefits your customers and what the product lifecycle looks like. Share your plans for intellectual property, like copyright or patent filings. If you're doing research and development for your service or product, explain it in detail.

• - Sustainability 
• This is where I will go more in depth about how i will have sustainability practices because of the level of involvement i plan to have in the community including interacting with local schools, artists, and other local businesses. This is a hospitality business so I will also include my plans on how to control waste management, prevent spoilage, and contribute to local charities. 
• - Revenue streams
• Explain how your company will actually make money. Some examples are direct sales, membership fees, and selling advertising space. If your company has multiple revenue streams, list them all.

I am unsure on how to do a closing?

we talked

We talked.... we just have very different views on the word sexy. to him its a specific thing and while he says i dress very sexy (more so than anyone else hes ever dated) my level of cute just overrides it.

So... its there at least. 

what it translates to is that he finds adorableness sexy but to him "sexy" is a specific look so he doesn't think i'm "sexy" even though he actually does. 

kind of confusing but i get it.