can i justify?

so... there are some things i want to buy... like... a phantom of the opera ipod case.... phantom of the opera keychain.... and Avril Lavigne's 5th CD which came out in 2013.... THAT I DON'T HAVE.

i have the other 4....

ugh.

and its only $8!!!!

uuuugh.

its the cheapest out of the three things.

but.

i just paid $95 dollars to join the national scholars society.

and i still have to have health insurance taken out. with gas.

so i have...

331
 health insurance is 139

thats 192.

- 50 for gas

142.

-40 for helping out around the house.

102.
- 20 for food money at work.

thats 82.

so....i have 82 dollars.....


yyyeeeeeaahhhhhhh i'm gonna splurge. i'm bad.

here i am stressing about money and i'm about to splurge on amazon.

so i'm getting:

- poison princess (the book that went missing :( )
-avril lavigne CD
-dead of winter (book 3 that came out....)


its gonna cost 25$...... everything included.

damn.

uuuugh..


i'll have the panic attack later. i'm going to hit the "place your order button" before i can talk myself out of it.

its done.

money spent.

so. officaly i will have 331 - 25 = 306 - 139 = 167.... when i get to the 167 (should go through on the 5th) then i'll have my regretful self-loathing party and panic attack.

then i'll promise not to blow so much money until the next wave of "oh gosh i have to have it" hits me.


but notice!

i didn't buy the phantom of the opera stuff.
not did i buy the "gay pride and prejudice" i'm dieing to have.

along with so many other books i'm dieing to have.

i showed some restraint.