Smokey

 Its been three weeks since smokey passed. 

I am finally getting through the day without having a crying episode. I was able to get through the day without allowing or going numb and freezing. 

I have been struggling so hard since he passed I was getting behind in school and work and just overwhelmed. 

I am finally starting to come out of it, I don't miss him any less but it is both a curse and a blessing that my ADHD makes me focus on the present moment and makes anything out of sight fade from me emotionally. 

I am still overwhelmed and have  hard time focusing, but the brain fog of grief is starting to clear little by little.