making amends.

alright so... i started talking to jake again. i miss my best friend too much. i am still hurt, but not really angry anymore. i don't know how things are going to be but, he is one of the few people i actually talk to outside of school. without him... i really don't talk to anyone :/

so, i'm talking to him again. idk if i can hang out with him right now, but i can talk to him. baby stepps.

and another not...
ahsley W sent me a pic for my phone id... she is so gorgeous!!

but i have a sneaking suspicion she really isn't that into me.  She has a boyfriend, maybe its an open relationship? and i don't want to try and steal her away, and its true i do still need time to heal after jake, but idk. i really want to hang out with her...to do that i need to have money, to do that i need to get a job... jeesh.

idk.

i think it would be really cool to go to her house one weekend and hang out all day. watch movies. eat junk food. hang out :P

but i don't know when that could happen. money is really tight right now, mom can't give me a ride.

if i could manage to get some money, and go to a movie...with kasey, kit, rach, kyle.. maybe i could get Ashley to come and meet us there? i could catch a ride with kasey...

idk. it would be nice though.