you say that you love me - a poem

You say that you love me. - a poem


You say you love me,
yet lingering in the air,
is the distinct feeling
that you don't want me there.

you say you love me,
as you hug me goodbye.
I know you're lieing,
I can't meet your eyes.

you say you love me,
and despite my defense,
i'm branded a traitor,
to love you from a distance.

you say you love me,
and i know you wish it true,
but whats the point of lieing,
is it for me? for you?

you say you love me,
and i know i love you more.
yet i'm sleeping with the enemy,
i'm the lost one, the whore.

you say you love me,
but my anxiety says otherwise,
am i not thinking clearly,
or just seeing with clearer eyes?

you say you love me,
how i wish it was true.
all i ever really wanted,
was true happiness for you.

you say that you love me,
yet i doubt you can forgive,
i perused my own happiness,
do i not get to love?

you say that you love me,
i will wait while i can,
but i feel you will leave me,
because i love the man.

you say that you love me,
and life's not really fair,
yet who knows how long
I'll even be here.

You say that you love me,
maybe its true.
Just know that no matter what,
I will always love you.

You say that you love me,
but when i reach out a hand,
i'm met with sad silence,
and now I understand...

You say you love me,
the words linger in the air,
and while it may be true, I know
that you don't want me there.