- I’m being sexually harassed at work. What use to be my haven from everything has become what I need an escape from.
- I’m stressed about money. All the time. Always.
- My best friend isn’t talking to me and I don’t know why.
- I’m still in love with Jimmie, and as long as I don’t think about it or him I’m okay but every time I do I want to collapse in tears.
- I don’t want to eat. I don’t want to drink.
- I’m always hungry and thirsty.
- I’ve got this great guy who seems to have been sent to me from the gods who ha this almost child like adoration for me... and I can’t filly open myself to him because of ^^^. I feel ungrateful. Guilty. It took him 2 times seeing me for him to know he wanted me to be his girlfriend. He seems innocent and sincere when it comes to me. I feel ashamed.
- I’m going to school for something I have no interest or passion for. Doing the homework makes me want to scream.
- I have no real goals or dreams for the future.
- The one thing in life I’ve always wanted was love... and I can’t have it. While it is there, it is out of my reach leaving me cold and miserable. I turn away so I can’t see it and I feel it’s absence. I look and try to be around it and it hurts me more than I can put into words.
- Self anger and resentment about my abusive relationships. I am weak. Which is also why I won’t kill myself.
Things I have to live for
- my cats; although others can easily take them in and care for them
- my mom; she would be a mess if I died. My sisters (and friends) would miss me, sure, but my mom would be wrecked.
- Aaron; id leave him in a hard spot come July.
- Lauren; she doesn’t have many in her support system-I don’t want to break it even further.
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