tired

so last night i slept amazingly... despite going to sleep with a head ache.... and how the headache has been comming off and on today... now it hurts so bad... i want to rip my right eye and the right side of my head OFF.

after lunch exhaustion set in.

i am so tired...

tired of hiding how upset i am.

• how upset i am that i can't go to agnes... 
• AND according to my mom if i go to agnes next year - i have to start paying back the loans i took to go to ECU.... so i have to contune to go to ECU unless i want to start paying off three thousand dollars in loans...
• how stressed and upset i am that i'm graduating in 33 school days.
• just how upset i am in general... the exhaustion isn't helping.
• on top of that thoughts about jake have ben coming up. which doesn't do ANY good for my mood.
• work.

ugh... i'm just ... i'm tired.

and i'm tired of this FUCKING HEADACHE.