things with jimmie have pretty much come to a halt.
i was doing so good experimenting and making steps forward...
but then boom. anxiety.
and when i say that i mean
BOOM ANXIETY.
the last several times weve hung out we've cuddled. maybe a few kisses here and there but cuddled. Ive actually gotten sleep over the past week.
i'm frustrated because i was doing so well.
but with a single word ("toys") the anxiety was triggered and now i don't want to be touched.
we started out with baby steps and started sprinting..... moving too fast....and now we've come to a screaming frustrating halt.
hopefully he'll be patient and wait until i can start moving again
One of the things you have realize is that despite all our power and ability, things will work out the way they want to. I'm sorry about your anxiety and I hope it gets better. As far as Jimmie, being intimate with someone is a big step and not one to be taken lightly especially if you've been hurt or are unsure of the person. Take your time. One thing I do is form a mantra or string of words to say when I'm stressed. Mine are, "the rain will come and I'll be here". In the end its just water. It'll be ok, you'll be ok.
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