what can i say?

well, i'm not quite sure how i feel.  my best friend is seeing someone and i'm happy for him. i'm not jealous of her. i'm not angry or hurt.  my current focus on him is probably just because i'm lonely. i guess i am a little sad and jealous, but its not for romantic reasons... its because it means i won't get to see and talk to him as much. i already barely get to see and talk to him... i'm scared i'll loose him for good. i don't want to lose my best friend. i'm a junior in high school and the college i want to go to is  out of state... my time with him his running out. i don't want to loose my best friend...