Update

Update:

so... on monday July....22? jake and I became an oficial couple.  and you know how i wanted things to go slow? pshhh.... didn't happen. So last night... we were making out and things got heavy...and he eneded up fingering me. he is NOT gentle.... it was a mixture of 40/60 pain/pleasure. And i started ti have an orgasm. i say started because i stopped him but it had already been building up. and it latsted a good 3 minutes..  it wasn't a "OH MY GODDESS" type feeling... it was .... all my muscles below my waste kept tensing up.. tensing and untensing and i couldn't control it.

"An orgasm usually triggers various muscle contractions. Many are in the genital area, but they can be in other parts of your body as well, so that some women find that even their toes curl involuntarily. "  <--- this is what happened but it wasn't like how movies or books describe it... it wasn't mindblowing... maybe i just had a small one?

idk. but yeah.... i think he stretched somthing too far and someting tore down there. i went pee afterward and there was blood on my underwear... but he didn't go deep enough to pop my cherry... so something must have tore. i think this theory is also supported because its still kinda sore inside.