reality is happiness,
memories both good and bad
reality is poison,
killing the soul who lingers too long
reality is neutral,
it doesn't go for or against you
reality is a prison,
for the soul who doesn't belong.
well, i got hit with some reality that kind of made me want to puke. i don't think the car accident will happen. i am petrified. Latley there have been some close calls with vehicles and me... i was thinking about this with some form of hope and confirmation when BAM! it hit me. its not coming. what do i do? panic set in and i felt like i was going to trow up. i still am in a mild state of shock. i am hoping i'm wrong. hoping that it will come. hoping that i'll die. soon. but i think that doubt is kicking in. what if i formed up this car accident in a way to give myself an escape? now,. what if the escape doesn't come? that is my worst fear.
"reality is a prison for the soul who doesn't belong" i don't feel like my soul belongs here, not for much longer... and as the due date for my departure draws closer, i am afraid that i'll miss my chance, or it will be delayed, or it won't even happen. i'll be locked in this prison, chocking on this poison, wishing for a way out.
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