Fine.

Have you ever tried so hard to fit in, only to be ignored? And it seems the more you try to fit in the less you actually do? well i have tried so hard to fit in with these girls in psychology, they are smart, nice, funny, confident, and the "leader" is artistic and awesome. But i am all but invisible to them. yeah i can talk to them a little one on one, but together? they are so focused on eachother that i'm not even there.

Why even bother opening my mouth, even when it contributes to the convo!, when i'm going to be brushed off. Well i have had it. enough. i am a awesome person too, i'm smart, kind of artistic, proud of who i am... so why am i not good enough? these girls are everything i want to be... why won't they include me? why am i not cool enough?

well fuck it. fine. i'm done trying.

but it hurt knowing i'm not good enough...
my best friend (who is just as awesome as the other girls, but more quiet... she pays me a little more attention than them. a little. when i need to really talk, she'll listen.) says that they would miss me and notice if i wasn't there because then they would feel like something was missing. but i doubt it.... they wouldn't even notice.

so. fine. 'm fine with it. i just have to stop trying to fit in and just... not cry. i'll just find something else to do since i can't talk with them, even though they are my"friends".

fine.