I feel sick

I feel sick. My body feels heavy like it’s made of lead, but I also feel hollow. I want to cry but I can’t. I want to scream but I can’t. I don’t have the energy to move out of bed and yet I can’t fall asleep.

I want to talk to Jimmie. I want to shake him. I want to hug him. I want to make him feel what I feel, but I can’t. I can’t even really put how I feel into words.

I haven’t eaten much today, 4 pieces of sushi, 4 chicken bites, a bowl of ramen and a bowl of miso soup. I have only had  3 glasses of tea to drink. I’m physically and emotionally exhausted. My body has had enough and I feel sick. Feverish. My head hurts and all I want is comfort.

Sleep. Actually I’ll take sleep over anything else right now.