schitzophrenia

"In men, schizophrenia symptoms typically start in the early to mid-20s. In women, symptoms typically begin in the late 20s. It's uncommon for children to be diagnosed with schizophrenia and rare for those older than 45.

Schizophrenia involves a range of problems with thinking (cognitive), behavior or emotions. Signs and symptoms may vary, but they reflect an impaired ability to function. Symptoms may include:

• Delusions. These are false beliefs that are not based in reality. For example, you're being harmed or harassed; certain gestures or comments are directed at you; you have exceptional ability or fame; another person is in love with you; a major catastrophe is about to occur; or your body is not functioning properly. Delusions occur in as many as 4 out of 5 people with schizophrenia.
• Hallucinations. These usually involve seeing or hearing things that don't exist. (who is to say they don't exist?)Yet for the person with schizophrenia, they have the full force and impact of a normal experience. Hallucinations can be in any of the senses, but hearing voices is the most common hallucination.
• Disorganized thinking (speech). Disorganized thinking is inferred from disorganized speech. Effective communication can be impaired, and answers to questions may be partially or completely unrelated. Rarely, speech may include putting together meaningless words that can't be understood, sometimes known as word salad.
• Extremely disorganized or abnormal motor behavior. This may show in a number of ways, ranging from childlike silliness to unpredictable agitation. Behavior is not focused on a goal, which makes it hard to perform tasks. Abnormal motor behavior can include resistance to instructions, inappropriate and bizarre posture, a complete lack of response, or useless and excessive movement.
• Negative symptoms. This refers to reduced ability or lack of ability to function normally. For example, the person appears to lack emotion, such as not making eye contact, not changing facial expressions, speaking without inflection or monotone, or not adding hand or head movements that normally provide the emotional emphasis in speech. Also, the person may have a reduced ability to plan or carry out activities, such as decreased talking and neglect of personal hygiene, or have a loss of interest in everyday activities, social withdrawal or a lack of ability to experience pleasure.

Symptoms in teenagers

Schizophrenia symptoms in teenagers are similar to those in adults, but the condition may be more difficult to recognize in this age group. This may be in part because some of the early symptoms of schizophrenia in teenagers are common for typical development during teen years, such as:

• Withdrawal from friends and family
• A drop in performance at school
• Trouble sleeping
• Irritability or depressed mood
• Lack of motivation

Compared with schizophrenia symptoms in adults, teens may be:

• Less likely to have delusions
• More likely to have visual hallucinations" (if what i have eperienced is delusions then i have them VERY rarely)

http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/schizophrenia/basics/symptoms/con-20021077

so, someone today said i might have a SLIGHT case of schizophrenia. same thing my therapist said when i told her about the time my SG gave me a hug.
my first reaction to the guy was to close myself off. he kept assuring me that he wasn't judging but wondered if i was open to the idea of it.

it would be a rational explanation for all the things i've heard/felt when it comes to SG and faeiries.

but: i'm not crazy.

however it made me think.

Schizophrenics have an imbalance in their brains. That is what i believe anyway. I have an imbalance in mine: i'm bi-polar.

so...what is to say that i'm not MILDLY schizophrenic?

fine.

BUT what if: it is a small imbalance that is needed for the brain to NOT sensor out the hints of the other side?

to clarify: what if you need to have an imbalance to see/hear/feel spirits and/or faeries?

too much of an imbalance and you're certifiable. Not enough of one and your brain will sensor out anything that isn't from this plane of existence.


i'm not saying i'm schizophrenic. but i do feel my SG on rare occasions. I do hear people call out my name, when no one has. I have seen things out of the corner of my eye, even if i lie to myself and say that i didn't. I have seen the fea's moving silhouettes when i was at the boy scout hut and surrounded by glorious nature.


and as i type this i get  sick feeling in my chest, near where my heart is,

Why must everything be rationalized? Granted if i can debunk a sensation as the fan blowing cool air on me or a strange noise actually being my cat, then yeah i'll go with that.

But i have enough doubt as it is, why add more?
I KNOW they are real, in my heart i do. but my mind fills me with doubt.


I know it wasn't his purpose to upset me, i'm not upset, and he was offering a logical explanation.

this is just a rambling of thoughts, and i'm not going to let this discouragement sit in my chest for long,

There is a beautiful statue of Bast near me and i know she makes me feel better. <3