A lot has been happening.
Things are better with maggie. Things are much worse with Brooks.
Things are weird with amy...
its like i'm caught up in a chaotic shit sorm of a civil war.
but .
since its out now - ive been messing around with jimmie.
we started out with just cuddling for comfort since he as in so much pain. then it moved on to kissing and making out.
it has since progressed. (as of october 30th)
cunnilingus.
havnt done full penetration but used fingers.
and maybe might progress more.
i have never been this comfortable with a man before.
he is patient and gentle and understanding.
and hes helping me overcome the damage that corie did.
i'm starting to let go of the fear and the guilt.
i'm learning things about my body.
and yes - i'm still asexual. I dont see people in a sexual way; that hasn't changed.
but i'm learning to be less anti-sex.
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